Perlis to Langkawi...

Aku pegi ni dalam awl buln ni lahh...bertolak mlm jumaat sampai laa isnin pg bru sampai blk cni...
Pegi ni pon ats ihsan kakak aku y offer aku pegi...as die de meeting kat perlis then org kate alang2 menyeluk pekasam biar sampai ke pangkal lengan..office die buat la lawatan 'lencongan' skali ke langkawi..Tapi sempat la bermalam semalaman dlm bas...semalaman kt kuala Perlis n semalaman lg kat Langkawi...

Dalam Bas...
My attire was like sempoiiiiiiiii gile haahaa...n the backpain was like hell!..aku tdow je mlm tu..seb baik perot xmeragam sbb aku hirup sup tulang yngg hoooooooooot DUDE! Perjlnan y memenatkan...16 hours kot, dlm area kol 2 pm bru leh check-in hotel pe ntah..legaa!!...kakak aku g meeting aku plak pe lg...msj DIE xrply aku pon dgn sng hati nye beraduuuuuuu lah sbb i was like damn tired!..

Kuala Perlis..
Bangun je dr tdow aku pon g la mndi segarkn bdn...n jamak solat.Pastu tgk tv...rase gedik sket ambik la gambar..hehehe..(worst part of mine!) bosan jgak..perot lapar ni tp diet..aahhh biarla perot,aku biarkan aje kau berdendang...bosan dude..aku pon msj la die...die xrply jugak...haizzz bikin panas ni...xpe2...so lepak la dlm bilik sorang diri tggu akak aku ni blk..nk dkt maghrib bru blk..thn siap2 g mkn...akhirnye...aku mkn jugak ahh lantak kau la diet..org dh blanje ni..kate org rzeki jgn ditolak maut jgn di cari..aku tibai je sgale ape y ade...lapar la weyy..

Langkawi..
Kat jeti tggu bkn main lame...tp xpe xcietd ni nk g langkawi...menyingkap blk knangan lame haha....my las visit to langkawi was 5 years ago..really miss that moment!..langkawi=shopping,shopping=langkawi....gile byk less..tp malangnye aku dtg ngan akak aku so xde chance sgt la...ade tu ade tp xsbesar chance lau ngn mak aku..perghhh sakan r aku..hahaha..
u noe wut?? we r overnite kat hotel berhantu!..ceshh..tp dh letih sgt,lantak lah kau..esok tu...akak aku shopping lagi...tp xpe.utk snak sdare jgk... thn nak feri blk k kole perlis smule..

Kuala Perlis...
Naik bas...blk trg...yehaaaa yabeda bedoooo...! wut can i say,perjalann balk y menakotkan...mujo le umor aku pnjg lagi...gile btol driver tu, tau la nk sampai cpt tp slow2 r...aku ni xkawen lg i repeat...xkawen lagu taw x??..haizzz

umah...
Home sweet home..walau mane pon destinasi y aku pergi, xkan ade tmpat seindah rumah sendiri, sampai kol 4 pg...n tdow ngn hujan renyai2 was like heaven!...selamat tido jiran2 ku...

(p/s:rindu air,farhan,umar sgt2!....ermm...dh jaooohh mlm,sy nk msj ngn die kjp n tdow...slamat malam dunia....assalamualaikum...)
*xde gambar la dude!..aku mls gilew nk snap2 ni..haha jnji aku dpt pengalaamn

mencari mood..

saat ini....walau klise je bunyi nye...tp aku still mencari mood aku utk ceriakan blog-y-dh-hmpir-nk-mampos-ni!!....
biasa sgt la dtg idea time2 aku bru nk tidow...esok bile nk tls blk tup-tup dah hilang...wth..!
owhhh 2009 bkl mniggalkan aku dengan seribu satu kenangan.pengajaran.manis.masam...
Aku tak thu APAKAH y harus aku rasakan saat ni....konpiuussssss...

(p/s:periooooood pain is heavennnnn (mak ckp msti positif)...)

at least ade post..

nak post something yang menarik tp still xdapat cari idea..ohhh blogg ni cam dah kene serang anai2...sy kene jd pemusnah serangga agar blog sy xreput camtu je ,walaupon pd dasar nya kt luar cantik tp bila pijak tangga korang pasti rase seram je nk masok..bimbang jd mangsa timbusan rumah runtuh...menakoootkan!!

(p/s:PMS sntiasa buat sy pesimis dan mendorong sy utk menangis!...tolonnglah hujan skrg spaya sy boleh tido dgn lena!!!...)

Pn. Shahida Begum Ismail...where r u????

not in the mood to blog at all but there is something bothering me...
last couple of days i was dreamed about my teacher..Pn. Shahida Begum bt Ismail..yeahh i still rmmebr her name and how do she looks like..

Tapi yng jadi Big Question Mark??
knape tetibe cegu blh msok dm mimpi aku...
Then, aku mula terfikir....agk2nye kat mne die skrg??..(she moved to UK last 3 years ago)
Beliau ckp dlu y beliau akan berada di sana dlm 3 thn after her husband finish his PhD.
She did gave me an email tp die xpnh reply pon...hadoii.. we r juz lost our contact..rinduu btol kat die..Beliau ni ajar aku BM mse form2,3...bezz...x garang n sporting gile!...dia org utara n got homesick too...hehe...

Cegu...i know u won't b able to read this, but here ill always pray for ur happiness and hping u will be blessed with beautiful adorable children....till we meet again...

(p/s:sy merindukan seseorang yang tak merindukan sy...heh..thats the facts of life, we need to face it no matter how DAMN we dont want it..)

guruh di langit...

its been more than a month...oohh lupe kan...

Baru2 ni aku slalu je menerima perkhabaran gembira org di disekelilingku...ya aku senang mendengarnya walau hati x sesenang dahulu..
Aku gembira dengan perkhabaran kalian yang baru sahaja mecapai satu lagi tahap dalam hidup korang...aku akan sentiasa doakan korang...

Aku plak??..oohh terlalu teringin utk mencapai kebahagiaan itu, tapi bukan semudah yang disangkakan, sabar! raihan....

Hidup ini ADIL..suatu hari nnti yang insyaallah pasti akn tiba masa untukku akan aku senyum selebar-lebarnya...seperti brjaya memetik bintang di langit dan manggapai awan yang memutih...aku hanya perlu SABAR dan terus BERSABAR ats semua dugaan ini...

(p/s:kadang2 terlalu byk soalan yang tak terjawab.....)

tagged :):):)

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with d wedding plan! At the end, choose d people u want to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know about u!=)

1. How old are you?
eighteen!

2. Are you single?
ahah!!erkkk..its complicated chewwahh (kunun)

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
20, lagi staun lebey..ahakahakahak!! despredo btol

4. Do you think you'll marrying the person you are with now?
sapekah diye???...yang tu?..yang ni?...mane sattu?..hehe

5. if not, who do you want to marry?
Dia y brnama LELAKI lahh..ape daa

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & best man?
ehek!ehekk!!...sape ehh..alah xpenting..jnji aku kawen..haha

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
garden+beach+traditional=MIX bleh??..haha

8. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
mooncake tu kire camne ehh??

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
ajk wali je udah...hehe sv bdget cket

10. Will that include your exes?
depends if i have one or not...hahahahaha

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
5,10,15...3 dh la..membazir tp each layer bsrnye satu mja fmily k..

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
morning lahh...lg cpt lg bagos hahahaa!

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
ngaji kor'an dh...sejuk je dengau!

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon,fork and knife?
no food provided ok!..haha,buat time pose lah...

15. Champagne or red wine?
hoiiihh..cibai btol soklan

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
g honeymoon dlu xleh k??hikhikhik...mautnye jwpn

17. Money or household items?
no money no talk!..haha

18. How many kids would you like to have?
2 team futsal dah la...sng nk prctice

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
ade plak nak record2.....kalo nak sgt, baek psg live je on national tv....hahahaha

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
anyone lah...esp CIK ITRI????

Mencari sinar kebahagiaan..

Its been awhile aku tak update blog ni with segala-apa-lipur-lara-hidup. Bukan malas tapi cam tak de hati langsong aku nak bercerita...well still being sad actually,ape kah kesahnye??...ermm well sy rase xperlu utk sy jd seorang yang terlalu terbuka utk kesah itu. Biar saya,dia dan mereka yang tertentu saje yang tau...Lagipun sape la yang suke mmbuka pekung di dada sendiri? jaoh skali menyelak keaiban org..ooohh sy mugkin bukan orang yang baik tetapi sy tdklah sejahat itu utk menjaja segala cerita..lets personal remain personal, yang xbape nk personal je lah aku gtau cni ekk..

So hows life??..
holiday??.. Suka utk aku katakan dicni aku bukanlah jenis yang terlalu gemarkan cuti yang panjang...yeahh mybe skrg je kot aku akn ckp camni...but yeahh, since dlu aku xbrape sukekan cuti skolah yang panjg except ade xtvt y best with my buddies. Tak tahu la nape, im not d pelik person but UNIK ok!..
Cuti yang dh nk hampir msok seminggu ni, really xterisi langsong dgn perkara yang sgt2 berguna xcept bgn di subuh2 harii...(ooohh aku suka bau haruman embun pagi..)
Apa yang aku buat...Tido yang banyaaaaaaaaaakk,so dat i could forget all d meshy bloody(makCik ajr ni..hehe) things, makan biskot cecah teh panas lyke heaven,tgk tv,onlineeee,house cores,maen kuceng..tidooo again..haah tu je kot,sangat TAK membantu utk tingkatkan produktiviti negara!

Today..??..
Menunggu perkhabaran drp seseorang yang xkunjung tiba, walaupon die dh janji!..oohh pleazee i hate this part of urs..and thnx cz u juz help me to distract my decision..Online kjap2 ngn lappy kjp2 ngn henpon..how bored!,xnak makan tp terpaksa mkn sbb aku dh rse senak perut y amat td..oohh esk aku xnk mkn nasik! ermm..ok klau mkn pon sekali je dlm pnggan y kecik..(hampehh!,ckp j la lau xnk diet tuu) and td bce blog dira then tetibe rse nk update blog y nazak ni..

Tomorrow??...
Got class! General Knowledge..cant wait to get lost from this bored routine..hoping aku gembira esok...

(p/s:helpp mee!!..lambat btol bln 12..looking 4ward 4 Kedah Trip..hrp2 mnjadi)

cehh xde kene mngena langsong ngan TAJOK!

boringness!!

01. what's your middle name?
-posh...haha,xnak la aku..

02. how big is your bed?
-queen size..so wut do u think?

03. what are you listening to right now?
-naah..

04. what was the last thing you ate?
-nasi...ooohh im getting fatter!

05. how is the weather right now?
-rainyyyyyy...zzzzzZZzZzz..

06. who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
-cegu..

07. what is the first thing you notice in the opposite sex?
-attitude,,,yeahh

08. favourite type of food?
-tom tom yam..

09. do you want children?
-ooowhh yes!yes!...gedik jee

10. what do you drink?
-air laah

11. fave holiday?
-idk...lame dh xg holiday..

12. favourite season?
-school season..uhhuukk??

13. have you ever cried over a boy?
-~speechless~ next..!

14. last movie you watched?
-transporter

15. what books are you reading?
-megubat 7 penyakit hati..

16. piercings?
-no at all....

17. favourite movie(s)?
-cant recall

18. what are you doing before filling this out?
-reading those blog

19. have you ever loved someone?
-yeahh always...ekekekeee...sounds gedik enuf haa??

20. are you hiding something from someone?
-ohohhoo yeaa...hehe

21. first thing you thought about this morning?
-solat first..

22. favourite hangout?
-idk..

23. 3 things/persons you cannot live without?
-spec,oxygen,money...harharhar...

24. what are you afraid of?
-Allah s.w.t..

25. what are your nicknames?
-wonder rae!

26. who would you tag?
-anyone
-who
-interested
-???

no title

speechless,bored,hurt,pissed off,betrayed...bla..bla..bla...end of the story....hahahahaaa!!!


p/s:getting nuts oredy...

over game

salam to all readers and bloggers..
seems like my blog dead again, yeah i know.. there are so many things happened recently and i really have no mood to blog at all plus 2 weeks xam y really show my stupidity, oohh the prob really bother me and i couldnt give my 100% focus on my study..

Tengok ahh nnti msti teruk gile result aku!...ahhh raihan stop it, i promise dis cuti ill study all sort of things y aku dh tertinggal mse lower 6 and after that focus on upper 6 syllibus, i still hold on my promise to perform well in stpm yeah i want, i need and i crave for 4 flat... and at the same time aku nk topup blk masa with HIM.. i don't know how to say but without HIM im no one... kesibukan aku dah buat hubungan antara aku dan Dia semakin renggang...bodoh btol diri ni! stupid! idiot! fool!....aku tak tau dah cane nk menzahirkan kebodohan diri aku ni..

Ok seems the xam is over so i think i need to start to re-schedule everything.. rase cam nk wat part time jugak do this do that....kalau blh aku xnk buang mase cam tu je cuti n bile dh duk saje tu disamping kerja ternak lemak badan ni msti nanti teringat blk sume kjadian2 yang berlaku...arghhh no way i wont let it ruin my life. yang pasti aku akan buat sesuatu yeng berfaedh spanjang cuti ni! yeahh... go..go raihan!!







(p/s:knape manusia xblh hidup dalam kejujuran??...even ngan diri sendiri pon nk menipu..ape daaa...ooohhh saya really nk pegi ovc!!)

confession........

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....



im so stupiD!.....yeah i know that..

sy tak sehat...

sayer tak sehat walau pon pd hakikatnye sayer nampak SEHAT..
Minggu y menyeksakan with those JARUM!..
malam2 tido sayer ditemani rase sakit yang amat!...2 hari dah sayer xtak gi skolah..sronok ke??? naahhh boring dayz with the pain..
sayer nak cepat2 sehat sbb mggu dpn sy nk g camp!!!
please my PEROT jgn sakit k.....

moral of the story....makan tu ikot jadual n no more heavy diet
cik itrie sy fhm dah ape awk rase bile awk kate awk gemok tp orang lain kate awk kurus...
adekah sy ni anorexian>>>,,,no way..full stop

caffeine boost me up :)

ok as i was regularly took caffeine lately so here are some information about 'em...

Caffeine is a drug that is naturally produced in the leaves and seeds of many plants. It's also produced artificially and added to certain foods. Caffeine is defined as a drug because it stimulates the central nervous system, causing increased alertness. Caffeine gives most people a temporary energy boost and elevates mood.

then, as i always felt whenever i took this drug..

Got the Jitters? (yeah n hate it so much)

Many people feel that caffeine increases their mental alertness. Higher doses of caffeine can cause anxiety, dizziness, headaches, and the jitters. Caffeine can also interfere with normal sleep.

Caffeine sensitivity (the amount of caffeine that will produce an effect in someone) varies from person to person. On average, the smaller the person, the less caffeine needed to produce side effects. Caffeine sensitivity is most affected by the amount of caffeine a person has daily. People who regularly take in a lot of caffeine soon develop less sensitivity to it.(thnx god i still can control it). This means they may need more caffeine to achieve the same effects.

Caffeine is a diuretic, meaning it causes a person to urinate (pee) more. It's not clear whether this causes dehydration or not. To be safe, it's probably a good idea to stay away from too much caffeine in hot weather, during long workouts, or in other situations where you might sweat a lot.

Caffeine may also cause the body to lose calcium, and that can lead to bone loss over time. Drinking caffeine-containing soft drinks and coffee instead of milk can have an even greater impact on bone density and the risk of developing osteoporosis.

Caffeine can aggravate certain heart problems. It may also interact with some medications or supplements. If you are stressed or anxious, caffeine can make these feelings worse.(oohh i never drink any coffee whnver i got the school test) Although caffeine is sometimes used to treat migraine headaches, it can make headaches worse for some people.

aha...i think my passion towards this drug still under control as i only take it whenever i was like hell need it, yeah there is tons of homework to be done nowadays...ohh can i hv the doraemon pocket plesh??..

but lately i took lots amount of caffeine i guess and i could feel the migrain attacking me rite now rite here. Hoping this could be stop soon...............

for those who can stay awake naturally, oohh never change it and never try to get addicted with it, trust me guys..

(p/s:u know what?... ape2 pon yang kite buat, control it instead of they control us..dats y im not really addicted with caffeine, juz have it when ive got tons of homework..till then...tata..)

happy belated bday guys...

okay as i promised before...to write a special entry to all my bff...(hanya utk mereka y smbt bday jew..huhu)..

first person...incik AMIRUL NAIM B. ROSLI..was born on 9th april 1991..
weyyhh...beso dohh mu tp aku still jd y sulong..ha3..k as ur bdy was on our holiday so i was nearly 4get...sorry broo...aku kan jd puteri lilin kat umah.. ok we hv befriend since 10 years ago..pergghh lame gak tu,since i was on standard 3 at skp..org ckp die charming tp aku cakap die mcm hantu!..har3 suke hati je kentot dpn aku (jgn mrh...) die ni bjak gak la,currently completing his diplome in electric engineering at uitm dungun..life die bg aku agak good in progression kot.. kerjaya yang mantap!(bkl tauke sate brjya ni..), awek y cun..(smpai aku rse cm xpdn lak ngn mu..ho9)...hobi die for sure suke mnyusahkan aku n kuat mrajok (oppps!..terlepas plak..) ok..happy bday to u..(belated actually) mayy Allah bless u all d time..and may our friendship last 4 evr..

second person..the twin..cik RAFIDAH N RAMIZAH RAMLI...4th july 1991..
ni rafidah je...gmbr ramizah xde..gile pyah nk amik gmbr dorang ni..huhu...dorang ni identical twin so korang agk2 je la cane muka mizah tu, mmg sejibik cam kakak die ni.. i called them as brainy twins...sbb dorang bijak..hehe we has befriend since form 1 n aku knl rafidah ni dlu then ramizah...cz ramizah ni cam criuz cket org nyer..huhu tp ble dh lme2 knl 2 2 pon sempoi.. currently rafidah in gambang matriculation while ramizah in johore matriculation gambang... u both, happy belated bday, be strong!...i know u 2 can face all this life challenge,study smart yeahh...!!

third person, cik ITRIAH AHMAD MIZAM..arrived on 16 july 1991..
mak cik ni sgt la mengade...ha3...ok we has befriend since we was 11...kemana saje sy pegi msti ade die...mengade btol...ske ikot saye..haha2 tp kdg2 sy yg ske ikot die...haha..bkn pe sy kan kuat,wlaupon agk kurang ktinggin...tp dlu kan mse skolah renndah sy lg tggi drp die..he3 currently she strive 4 her IB in kmb(tmpt jin tendang..)...utk mak cik tyah..happy belated bday...i owe u ur bdy present...6t ye sy kasi, sy sgt gmbira sbb brt sy dh nk same ngn awk..(did i told ya i lost 10kg??ha3...soho nye) smoga awk tabah n kuat 6t kite same2 g travel europe k..xpe sy blanje...haha (sy kn the most kind lady in the world)..

fourth..cik PUTRI EDZLINA BT ENDUT & EMIRA AKMAL JAMALUDDIN
each on 09 aug & 19 sept 1991..
haha aku suke nk combine kn space korang berdua...suke sgt gadoh he4...kwn ngn mira since standrd 3 n pu3 mse stndrd 6...mereka 2org ni study kat matrik gambang gak...sorang amik bio sorang amik fizik...okay....aku nk ucapkan happy belated bday gak ngn koranag...aku syg korang n persahabatn y dh kita bina slama ni...keep in touch n jgn pnh lupe aku...u all can do it n nr give up dear....

5th...incik SYED NORASNAWI SYED AHMAD...25 july 1991..
ni gambr lame tau...syed yang skrg dh smakin hensem n kurus...k kitorang kwn since f1...and die ni giler rajin n kreatif...so syed happy belated bday!...currently he also completing f6 same as me...chaiyook syed...i know u can do it!!....and do rmmber i alwayz here to listen to ur prob cz im still the old raihan dat u know....b positive and stand on ur own foot..

last...cik NAJWA AWATIF ARSHAD...06 aug 1991
sometime,cg tertukar ngn kami berdua..huuhu2..cam adk bradik kot. kami kwn since drjh 5, and one i noticed about her...she alwayz say somthing tht could comfort me..thnx najwa...she also in f6 same school as me....slamat hari lahir najwa,smoga awk sntiasa diberkati n dirahmati Allah...n kite kwn smpi ble2 tau..

(p/s:k dh hbs kot...haha prsan x mkin bwh mkin cket.ho2 nk jimat space n dh mlm sgt la ni n im getting sleepy...pe2 pon love u all....may our fs remain 4evr...)

!!!!!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!

a lots of friendship love,
oh ALLAH please keep our friendship remain forever
never let it dissapear as u make the plastic remain for another thousand years...

our iftar...

ok those picture was taken during our PPU's break fast..


syami,hafizuddin
left;zilalul,hafizat,along

wardah,dik piq n pian



wan,me and mai...bez mkn...


from left, zafirah,lea,najwa and im not sure who is bside her..
cni ade nini,nolie,arfah..xnmpk la spe sblh tu..hehe

from left aina;den;huda
ini adalah part of form 6 smc la..they r amazing and sempoi slalu...bez geng ngn korang...hu9, k there is nothing much to say...HAPPY EID MUBARRAK..strive for our stpm next year!...daa..

(p/s:at the time..aku rindu gak geng2 lame y len, slamat hari raya buat korang jugak...wherever u r, do rmmber our friendship...)

salam AIDILFITRI...

assalamualaikum...
(entry kali ni xde gambr cz gmbr raye sempt amik drp kamera k.ya...dh ade 6t aku upload)
salam aidilfitri kpd semua...
actually kebzan melanda...seskali blh la update blog,nak update hari2 cam dlu really pyah sket la...bkn xleh tp ade perkara lain y mesti didahulukan lagi so its ok la...lagi pon blog ni xde la mati lagi pon...huhuu..
Ramadhan dah pergi tgl kan kita...kadang2 rase hiba, ramadhan thn ni x begitu terisi dengan cinta kpd-NYA dan terganti pula dengan perkara2 lagha,astaghfirullah...entah kan dapat lagi aku temui ramadhanMU ya ALLAH....tiada siapa yang tahu esok lusa kita dipanggil menghadapNYA dlm keadaan diri yang entah ciap entah tdk...umpama baju tak berjahit...malu sungguh aku pada diriMU ya Allah...
Aku hari ini masih aku yang dulu, mungkin keadaan sedikit sebnyak merubah diri ku...ohh raihan, people do change...cuma sama ada ke arah kebaikan atau keburukan itulah yang manjadi persoalan nya...
Sehingga kini aku tak pasti dengan diri aku lagi...raihan seorang yang baik???...u'r absolutely wrong when u say that...raihan yang dianggap baik masih tercalit kejahatan pada dirinya...raihan yang dianggap selalu mengambil brt akan org lain msh punya kesellfishan(soory cegu bm ku...) nya... raihan yang dianggap rjin msh juga ada malasnya...raihan yang xdianggap sombong msh jg ada riaknya,raihan yang dianggap bijak msh terlalu bodoh lagi jahil dgn ilmuMu,Raihan yg dianggap cth masih ggl tnjukkan cth y sempurna,raihan yang dianggap penyayang masih ada kejamnya ..ooohhh tuhan, begitu halus panahan iblis Mu..
Tapi...seburuk mana pun aku,aku akan cuba menjadi y terbaik sebaik mana yang mampu aku gapai. Aku tak menjanjikan y aku mampu menjadi baik namun aku berjanji utk berusaha ke arah itu...
Di kesempatan ini aku mahu memohon ampun dan maaf zahir dan batin, menyusun sepuluh jari dr hujung rambut ke hujung kaki...ahhh terlampau banyak dosaku umpama buih di lautan..
maaf yang tak terhingga sekali diucapkan kpd mak dan abah,maaf anakmu ini msh lagi gagal memenuhi impian mu...
maaf juga buat keluarga tersayang..abg,kak pih,kak nor,abg kml,abg amir,kak ya,kak ikin,kak limah,abg syed,ain,farhan,dik noor...maaf krana daku juga msh gagal menjadi seorng adik dan saudara yang sempurna..
Tak dilupakan seribu kemaafan diatur buat saudara2 ku yang lain...rehan mnx maaf ehh.. untuk peanut,zila,ja,angah,along,ewan,athirah etc..etc...weii aku tau aku xsalah tp aku mnx maaf gak la...haha.. esp peanut yang aku sayangi (oohh ni aku tipu j,wat sdp ayt) u owez b my best kuzie..
Buat sahabat2 dan org tersayang (oopss!!) rehan mnx maaf byk2 ats kekurangn diri ini, aku tau aku sgt lah xsempurna malah tak layak mungkin utk mnjadi teman terbaik kalian semua...utk beberapa org yang xdpt aku nk sebutkan name korang(case senctive kan...) aku mnx maaf atas segala apa yang dah jadi antara kita semua. Mmg aku xpnh mahu sme ni jadi...please 4give me for my wrongdoings,aku tau kdang2 aku terleka dgn keindahan dunia sampai lupe nk jage hati korang tapi satu je yang aku bagi tahu...seseungguhnya aku xdapt nak puaskan hati semua orang sedangkan hati aku sendiri terluka tiada siapa yang peduli..and i need to nurse my own wound..give me some space to fix it..frankly ake sangat sesali ats ape yang berlaku but please i beg u to understand me and my situation..

Last but not least...
maaf buat diriku sendiri...

(p/s: hari tu termimpikan kota metropolitan Australia...jauh btl aku pegi...dalm mimpi tu aku further study kat sane...hrp2 mimpi tu kan menjadi ala2 dejavu,siapa tahu suatu hari nanti kan ku jejaki kaki ke sana sbg palajar...yeahhh raihan study hard yet smart!!..u can do it...aku xnk kecewa lagi............)

HE testing me...

assalamualaikum...
wud dap..hola??..erkk..ok stop those crap!
duuhh..!! just thought to upload some pic with besties during our dinner last time and i connected the thumb drive to the lappy and u know what there is about 200 something viruses in it..damn!! for the sake of my thumb drive mahal..keh3! i allowed the avira to repaire them all and the results,all my files gone! wut daa...
hantu btl la..byk fail penting dlm tu..!!!..ok and i have to admit here that its all my school's pc fault! my presentation also gone and all the pictures..i mean those precious pictures..oohh my.........
mne nak carik blk ni...
penat je s .impan..cegu please la clean the pc ok!
really spoil the mood la haizzzz..

p/s:btw, went to shopping today and bought new sandals..love it!

hardworking plus lazy equal to hardlazy..??oops..

the caffeine doesn't working yet....hurry up!! i need my insanity to keep me awake....
hu5 wutever...
ok the flow today was so-so lahh... not really sleepy and not really energetic..juz fine and u know what ive got some breathing problem,whenever i breath out i could felt the pain somewhere around the liver i guess and mom said i was caused by the angin in my body...yeah i think it could be a possible reasons cz recently i've got difficulties to belch..(adehh..terseksa jiwa raga denn..) but now its getting better i guess cz i always belching all the time..pheww!! goood progression..tp org tego..eyy ko xpose eyy???...haizz.. so narrow minded lahh seb baik it was juz a silently wind..hoho3..(xde bau petai k..)
oww yeaa...im not sure whether im facing with the health problem or i juz change into a health freak, cz i noticed that ive found so many problem regarding my healthiness and i started to skip my meal whenever i felt euuwww i look fatter than yesterday...thats horrible!.. i dont wanna be an anorexian..!! k enough...
with the happy face yet broken heart..(cesshhh cam putus cinte jee..haha) i accepted the request from my teacher to enter the public speaking...wut daa.hh.. owwhh, i though khusyairie will be selected cz to be frank the titlle given was not attracted me much!...i dont really like to talk about the corruption cz i do not hv enough information about that as i dont like to read those thingy. I dont know y, whenever i read the newspaper i hate reading about the corruption so muchh.. i never got my eye sticked on that kind of issue..huh! shame on me..okayy..next is...
the picture of today....lets find something interesting in my picture folder...the rule is, pick the fourth picture from the bottom..make sure its not the pic from the internet..

ok this was the last year's picture snapped by yo i guess..no teacher during this period and they was bz answering the sejarah question..from the right:najwa,fidah,mira,tna...im not in the picture but if u can c, there is a lengan beside najwa..thats my lengan lahh..haha..really miss this moment..

p/s:ok raihan start doing ur homework!..

how many rotation that ive done???

This is what will be happened to me if i study while the lappy on with the internet... once i post an entry ill be addicted..cant stop!..i dont know y... and i still not finish read the hikayah ahmad muhammad yet!..(wut daa...) k... recently we had a mini pantun competition between sastera claz and i acted as a jurupantun..(cari helah ni aku mls nk berpantun..) and we snapped some pictures which is looked ehhh...nape...lain btol aku... hoho2.. well i dont know am i looked really lain or i it juz my fantasy...but i swear i looked different in f6 school's uniform...

sometimes, idk y i wore the tudong that way...really diffrnt from my f5 last year..this is how i look a like last year...

well maybe bcz of my spectacles...it juz help to shape my tudong..diffrent spec make me look diff while wearing the tudong..but my tudong thiz year were not really mesra with me la..i always facing with difficulties every morning to handle it..(haha...still want to blame the tudong..)

next...

this pic was taken after the final stage of that mini competition..with out sastra teacher

i think i juz had a conversation to mai only, but it seems like everyone was looked at me..and idk y...ase nye slow je ckp..huhu..weirdoo
p/s: love them..love my studies...raihan, work hard ok!!

pink u pink me..ntah pe2

happy dayyyyyy..... well today just another one fine day,

but damn sleepy during the claz..haha..
and today i got lots of assignment to be finish b4 tomorrow..
need to read and try to understand the hikayat ahmad muhammad and do the presentation about what I've understood about that hikayat and present it to the claz argghhh!!..i can do it!!..
thinking of not sleeping tonite..(sometimes i become a bit insane..) and do averything while others sleep. But for sure ill be not in the good mood tomorrow..ok maybe ill sleep but a bit late cz i juz drank some hot nescafe..(yumm..yumm..)...
and yes someone did gave something precious to me today...and im hell love it and happy!!..(weeee~~~ ade gak org yg ingt aku...huhu)...well eventhough xde la mhl sgt but yet, i appreciate it as if it is a diamond..

here u are....thnx my dear!!..(ho7!!)comel!...cam tau2 j aku dh smkn mnt ngan pink...

p/s:cik tyah....jgn jelez k....

yay nas dh 18 blh g tgk wayang nihh...

tues day!!...8 sept 2009,18 ramadhan 1930 Hijrah....
alhamdulillah hidop lagi den...
so today i would like to dedicate this entry to my very best friend.... Mohd Nasrullah b. Jusoh, its ur birthday dude!...ok lets find some picture of urs in my folder.....

ok found it

well, this mr nasrullah or his glamorous name, mr nash is my best friend and we hv befriend since i was in primary school in sk pusat (bukan pusat tahanan k,rekod sy bersih) we are really can be along together in any kind of situation esp during the add math test..(har3!! thnx dear 4 ur ans..) and we are the gossipping-mate actually..(well die nie la ske sgt ajk aku gosip2, aku layan je...) currently he is completing his diplome at uitm petak in fashion designer (waahhh bangge aku!) and we are rarely to meet nowadays...(waaahh rinduu duit eh diri kamu).. so i wish he will be the successfull person as he want it to be, found someone special and marry her and having the kids, be my designer on my wedding day(muahahaaa...) and be my bussiness partner ok mr nash??...hoho..ok best of luck dude....slamat berpose n slamat hari raya!!

p/s:cik tyah,cik pu3 and mr syed msti marah pnye ni cz aku xdedicate pon dlm blog diorang mse bdy diorang bln lps...huhu...my dearssss...soryy i was bz la...ill promise to write a special entries to all of u...k??..

till then...daaaaa

lame nye xupd8!

Lately lappy wat hal lg...tenet xblh nk smbg...hantu btoll and byk gile keje yang tertanggoh.
k skrg pon sbnrnye mls gile nk update blog..tp xpe la ari ni update gak..
ari ni nk ciapkan hmwork yang mggunung n cari bahap psl corruption..aduiihh...k frankly not in the good mood..so dont make me mess k..haha

bla...blaa..

im MAD!!! and PISSED OFF!!..
bangang,bitch punye org! ooo aku tye kate xtau eaa.. HIPOKRIT kau! and another you... BACK OFF ok.. jgn nk cebok aku bg jurus 14 kan masok KUBO la kau.. people nowadays cannot be trusted even FRIEND... jgn sampai aku sebot bodoh lagi kesiyalan ok..! and lets me remind YOU, dont u ever dare to playing a FOOL with me and take a chance.. or u r finish!

p/s:sorry for the improper words..really marah ni.. so dont make me mess!

xam tomorrow

and i still lepakking here...just need some more time to makes the caffeine working then ill study all sort of sastra thingy..huhu...still sweatin out on my first xam! still blurr gile seyhh.. xtau canne nk jwb esk..huhu... hoping for the best tomorrow..

p/s: the moral of the story...need more practice,practice,and practice, and practice....

updated..

its 2.52 a.m...whoaa!!.. im nocturnal today... just drank a cup of the old town nescafe...uummm yummy!!..haha.. and the result.. CANT SLEEP!!.. well im doing this for a reasons.. need to study some of the history thingy..arghhh... but online instead of study...hhohoo..

well lame gile seyhh since my last post...i dont know what happend to me actually just lost the passionate on bloggin since bestie leave for her kmp.. currently there is no addiction towards the internet...but today post gak la sumthin for my dear readers...

ok best thing happend....
1-having damn freak yet fun frenzy..
2-shia!!
3-reader digest is back!!..juz read thru..
4-ppu's guys awesome!
5-new nephew..umar anuar

im lookin 4ward for...
1-4.00 flat FYE..**weeee**
2-ramadhan al mubarrak
3-catch up all the study thingy..
4-reschedule my life...hoho..!

okay...ppu's life syokk!!... we just had a futsal & badminton match recently and its damn fun!..

bab kne catch up b4 d xam
study..onl9 ats katil..muahahaa..and yehahh RD in d houze!

p/s: someone annoy me rite now!...hey.. stop doing that ok...its nothing but jerk!..

hectic la sis

well life bz.... so cm malas je nk onl9 slalu.. klo onl9 pon kejap je..xrase nk tls2 blog nih..
okayy...life f6 is awesome!... the dudes and the chicks are damn sporting..huhu tiap2 ari ade je drama... balaja pon sronok sbb no more hard killin math subject!..yeah..and last but not least thnx to my orlando as cheering my life!..ngeshh2!

sunday...monday..thingy

Nothing much happens today except feeling sleepy all the time as the history class started..well bkn xmnarik but i woke up as early as 3 am this morning and did all sort of sastera thingy and some of the general knowledge..duhh b4 that slept around 10pm...damn tired man! yesterday blk2 je dr skolah trs kms rmh... (haha..bkn bersepah juz kasi cntk lg je..) cz my taiko blk kelmarin bwk skali ngn 2 org geng2 yang cam sengal cam abg aku jugak..huahuahuaa..
Ok tujuan diorang blk cz smata2 nk dtg melawt mak...mom was admitted to the hospital yesterday due to the hypertension, im damn cuak that sunday morning..but thnx God as mom just being warded for one day and one nite only.. and now she is fine already..im hoping and always praying for her good health and longevity.ooohh i love u mom and i dont think im ready to live without u.
ok this pic ws taken during raya 2007..there are another 5 family members was missing in action..ermm ignore my chubby face there is no way ill look kurus as i always put on some weigh every month..ahaks!..well now dh agk maintain kot but still dieting..haha..klakar je..im hoping that raye thn ni and another nest raye we will always b able to take a family pic together..

p/s: last but not least..happy father's day to all the fathers outside and to my one greatest dad in the world..i love u bah!..thnx 4 everything u did to me..

taggeddd!

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ape2 saje berkenaan diri saye dn disekeliling saye..hoho

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blog ni??..x sbb sy begitu bersungguh2 wlaupon dh byk siri hapus blog sblm ni

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cerita si Kontot..

Mase mula2 lahir die mmg dh kontot...cam xde ekor tak sama dengan ibu die, si Kommy yang ada ekor panjang. Name kontot tu pon scare spontan je kitorang bagi...senang sket sebut je org dh tau yang mne satu. Kontot ni mmg jenis bising...klo mnusia tu kite ckp byk mulut high pitch plak tu..pgl je name kontot sampai rmh jiran sebelah blh dengar "mioww" die tu..Tp kontot mne pun keadaan fizikal die...die tetap cute. Rmai org yang dtg rumah ckp kontot xcantik dan kate buat pe smpin kucing cam ni dah la xde ekor..but as me...it doesnt matter!!.. yang penting kontot mampu memeriahkan hari aku dan paling penting lagi dialah satu2 nya waris kucing kesayangan aku yang pertama, Kommy. Klo korang slalu ikuti blog nih korang mesti perasan mase mule2 blog ni dibina aku ade tulis entry yang bertajuk 'Memoir Teman y Setia'.. tu kisah Kommy, makhluk Allah s.w.t yang dah jadi sebahagian drp hidup aku...when she's gone i felt like half of my soul gone too..cz we hv been living together for 7 years...and there is no way i could forget Kommy..ok back to the story..
Kontot ni aku label sbg very protective mother..klo time die pregnant die akn slalu jilat2 perut...macam seorang ibu mengusap perut tanda dirinya sayang kat bakal ank nye yang bakal lahir tu..Bile nak beranak plak..ya ampuuunn...dua hari dua malam aku xdpt tido...bising nye mmg xleh buat ape...nk ltk kt luar kesian plk kat die..in case la klo die terberanak kat luar tu plak kan.. once die dh beranak ok lah...tp strt anak die dh pandai berjalan...hadooii trouble again...asyik bising je...tp kadang2 seronok tgk sbb kite blh lihat seolah2 yang die sbnrnya sdg bg arahan kat ank2 die yang baru nk knl dunia ni...which is do's and dont's..walaupon xpaham ikot bahase tp klo dilihat dr mata hati kita mampu faham interaksi sesama mereka..
Satu perkara yang aku xthn psl die....suke sgt cakar sofa kat umah...biasa kalau die cakar aku sound je kat die..tp lagi die buat sampi la aku bangun die pon trus lari cam laps kudong..(die nk main2 ni sbnrnye) Kelakar plk.. Time aku nk munom air die pon sibok gak nak minum air...dah la tu nk minum drp gelas plak tu...(ceshh demand btoll)....
Die ni suke sgt tido atas hud dapur elektrik ksyangan mak (mane xsyg mahal lee...) alih2 aku gak yang kene marah..klo xlepak ats hud dapo die mesti suke tido atas meja makan...(xsnonoh..sapa la tuan die)..slalu je kene tibai dik mak..(hua..hua3)..

Tapi kan...hari ni, esok dan smpi bile2 pon semua ini dah jadi kenangan..xde lagi panggilan 'Kontot' dalam rmh ni...xde lagi yang brani tido ats hud dapo letrik..xde lg bunyi bsng2 time musim kcng bunting..xde lg y ske tido ats meja makan..xde lg y ske join skaki time aku minom air...xde dh gelagat protective yang ditunjuk..xde lg y ske main cakar2 pastu lari cam lipas kudong....semua tu dah xde..sbb smalam kontot dah MATI..kene langgar..xtau la sape y langgar..xpe lah mlm2 mgkn driver tu pon xprasan..TAPI klo die dh nampk tp saje2 buat xnmpk...CELAKAlah die..(xde maap bagimoo..muahaha)...ok gurau je.. xbaik plak mcm tu...redha je la..one day yang hdp psti akn mati jugak kan....

the place where i buried her last nite..

sory...xde plak gambr keadaan die pas xcident...i smpi ati nk dikongsi...ape yang blh dikata mata kirinya tersembul keluar...lidah terjelir..byk kluar darah kot hidung..xde sbrg isi perut atau otak y terkeluar..so aku tafsirkan kontot ade inner bleeding..and maybe kpale kene tayar kenderaan tu..
Satu perkara yang membawa hikmah tgt kejadian semalam..waktu aku tgk bangkai kontot..tetibe dtg je fikiran kenapa cita2 aku nk jd vet tak tercapai..selain drp result spm y terlalu la 'gempak' y aku dapat...there is another reasons.. maybe andaikata aku jd vet..aku mungkin akan rase down gile saat ape2 binatang yang aku rawat xdpt diselamatkan.. which is they ended up...mati!..so things hapend 4 reasons....and ill miss kontot so muchh!.. mgkin kontot blh jmpe kommy nanti..

p/s: so now im no longer thinking why i couldnt be a vet..

i am...

Engaged Idealist

Engaged Idealists are extroverted and helpful. Others find them to be very congenial and inspiring - especially as they are always willing to see the best in the other person. Their humour, their energy and their optimism attract other people. Engaged Idealists are very good at communicating and are good at convincing and firing on others. That is why it is a matter of course that they often take over the leading role in groups. This personality type often produces very charismatic persons.

Engaged Idealists have an unusually strong ability to empathise. They are tolerant and generous towards others; they sometimes tend to idealise their friends. They always try to suit everybody and want their relationships to be harmonious and satisfactory. To achieve this, they are prepared to invest a great deal and to put their requirements last. As Engaged Idealists are very considerate, there is the danger of them sacrificing and overexerting themselves for others. In their job, they therefore have to be very careful not to develop a burnout syndrome.

Engaged Idealists are reliable, well organised and love structuring complicated situations. They have difficulty accepting criticism; they quickly feel hurt and misunderstood. Their perfectionism also influences their love life - they look for the perfect relationship for life. Once they have made their decision, they are faithful, well-balanced and loving partners. However, should they get involved with the wrong person, it can happen that they allow themselves to be exploited for a long time before they end the relationship.

mengantok thp gaban!

Setelah seharian blogspot membuat kesewelannya akhirnye ari ni blh la gak aku mengepost...oohh ari ni kne hbskan homwrk...tp...ya ampunnn tetibe ngantok la plak...menyampah btl!!..ari bese xde la plk ngantok nye..ooohh by hook or by crook kne ciap kan homework ari ni gak!..ok2 focus raihan...

p/s:Menyampah tahap dewa dgn seseorang!..(oowwhh apsl aku syik mnyampah je ni??)...criuz weyy...arghh..!!

to-day,two-day...

owhh..wut should i describe for today??..sucks??..ok im the one who sucks!..i broke my promise by not finish up all the homework.. tomorrow should be the last day for the homework thingy cz i need to start doing revision after that. UUhh.. Pre-u life were awesome.. just love all the dudes and the chicks as the way they are. But now the problem is i dont really like the loooooooooooooong holiday cz it makes me malas manjang and the worst is bosan ahh!!.. thnx God cz laptopy dh owkay..so i can onl9 jee...BUT still bowsan cz most of my besties gone for their matriks..oohh need to find RAMAAAAIIII lg kawan... as the holiday started last week something happend la..duuhh...wut da heekks!!..xmo citer 6t cik tyah tau plk...hahahaa~..till then..daaa..

p/s:omg really addicted to the facebook..i can sticked my eyes for 2 hours without eating and plug-in my ear with the repeated kelly clarkson's songs..haha...MY LIFE WOULD SUCK WITHOUT U!..best..~

sy rase GUMBIRA di hati...yay!!

yay!!...at last internet connection dh ok...
laptop pn dh convert ke vista blk...syok arr...
blh onl9 puas2 lorrhh...xde lg cuti y bsn thp dewa!..xde dh disconnect offhanded...haha.. spnjg cuti byk mse sy di abeskan ngn sorang MAKHLUK y kononnye katenye sorang permpuan cantekk... uweekkk!!...tlg la ye dh hmpr sebulan sy rase luga je manjang..tp ape blh buat dh die BEST FREN sy...so terime jee.. ni antare sorotan gmbr2 y kami amik mse tgh KEBOSANAN TAHAP KRONIK!...

^ok..shot ni buat kami lbh putih..haha
^ diye mmg sengal ok!

^haha...sy btl2 senyum ok...cik tyh j y PLASTIK!



^sy bkn minah moto ok!!...

^nmpk je cm burok tp byk jase ooo...haha..

^cik pu3 indera kayangan.....

^hah kasi cuci mate sket...haha

ok...credits la kpd best fren SENGAL sy iaitu CIK TYAH cz die tlh termurah ati blnje kami pizza..dan tdk lupa jgk pd best fren sy sorang lg (kang ngajok die) iaitu cik pu3 sbb die pn dh blnje sy pizza jugak...waaahhh betuah nasib bdn...asik DIBELANJA je...haha..! syok ok...walaopn korang ni SENGAL OTAK tp korang jugak BEST FREN sy...huhuhuu..

please take a note

ooppss!!!! seeems like the super wonder Rae not in the mood rite now...so dont make her mess or ur finish..she will come back wth the NEW resolution of her NEW life.. she is facing with her BIGGEST FEAR rite now.. GO!! GO!! RAE!..

BTW...THNX 4 VIEWING MY PROFILE

nurse my own wound..

seems like since zaman batu i didnt write anything...well still with the connection problem..
and now im online through the desktop with the dial-up connection..haha old school btl lah..
well rite now there is something annoy me!..dduuhh.. i cant and i hate face it.. ya ALLAH dktkan lah diriku dgn diriMU..! rse cm mau merantau jauh2...jauh2 drp semua org yang aku knl!!! plus.. aku smkn mmbenci some part of mine.. i really hate myself rite now!... oohh ALLAH i know U know i can face it but how?? please show me the rite way... ok there is some short listed about what i want rite now....
1- merantau jauh2 drp semua yang aku knl..no fmly+frens juz me and God..
2- turn back the time..!
3- the old parts of mine!...i miss the older raihan
4- miss my pingu!...kak ya... (im criuz ok..if u read thz dont b kmbang lah..haha)
5- miss my kak ikin... im counting the 28/6..
6- miss my buddies..korang wey aku xleh lupekan korang la...
7- miss my beach life..
8- buang thz tension!!!
9- miss my ain and farhan!
10- miss the laptop
11- wanna cry ok!..ooowhh my bad..

Ya ALLAH... please lead me to the best way!...aku xnk hanyut...
ok can i NANGIS now?????????..

p/s: the feelings really KILLING ME SOFTLY!...ya ALLAH please help ths servant of yours..
oowhh really hate this moment............why me huh?

not in the mood at all

yeah last day of our orientation week..
not much to tell..there is something annoy me rite now..!..
duhh hate this.. one problem solved another one came out..
well this is life, aint easy as we expect it to be.

p/s:jerk Astro!..

day [3] as a Pre-U student..

ok today is the third day of our orientation week..
its look like i cant transfer to SIS..when thinking back..never mine lah..

Dad went to PPD just now and the officer told him that its kind of a big lost if i transfer to SIS since my current school which is SMC or name galamernye TEPCES is a premier school. So if i did ill not be able to use all the facillities cz gov didnt provide them to SIS..

Well intelectually, yea he is rite..BIG LOST!
then ok lah ill stay..maybe my rezeki is here not there..
Now im really redha' with it..its not an obstacle but a big oppurtunity!..yeahh DON'T GIVE UP!!! Raihan move on!.. keep it up!..u r the best!!...


p/s: yo asked me along to go to smkbm this Sunday for the teacher's day celebration..owhh fren im the smkcian lah no longer mentokian..ive got my own responsiblility lah. I dont think mom will allow me to go there though.. (but actually i wanna go lah..haha)

Day [2] as a pre-u student

Since we are still in the orientation week so there are lots of information and interesting programme be held..

so how it goes in day 2....
I went to school around 7.15am and straight to najwa's house to fetch her. I noticed that she's been a bit worried if in case i forget to fetch her first..huhu..its ok ill nvr brake my promises la..then we arrived around 7.40a.m and yeah we are late for the daily assembly..tak pe la kan,kitorang tak tahu pon. The in-charge teacher said that we should be here in 7.20a.m which i thought gile awal.. and one more thing the parking area is a bit far from the entrance gate. Adoii kurus den..moto tu berat la yeop!...then i went straight to the hall and i could see how the prefect and the teachers manage their coco assembly...well frankly i think my former school is better in managing our coco, daily or weekly assembly. When i saw the prefect gave his command personally he is not really good doing that to be compare to Naim which is our school's KP. Naim's voice really like a commando and i started to remember how was cegu Malaid, our coco teacher checked our line with his rotan..waahhh, i thought our school did worsts but then i realize we are amongst the best..cayalah!..bangge2!..tetibe la au rindu ngn SMKBM!

The first slot was by the school's chief counsellor..blh thn la..funny la..the thentative booklet said that he will expose us about the ipta and how muny pointer we should achive to pursue our studies there but im a bit dissapointed when he said its too early to be told..yeah maybe yes for certain person but not ME.. well its ok la..small matter though..

Then the GPK gave her speech. Yea i like her..she's looked so sporting and i like the way she delivering her speech in english..haha..i love english!..After that the GPK HEM took over..ok i like him too cz i used to listen to his speecheed during the maulidur rasul at my former school.

It was a recess time. Ok im a bit nervous cz i promised my mom,dad and sis to go to the school's office and ask them bout my transfer to SIS..here how it goes...

Me: errmm..akak, blh x sy nk mintak borang pertukaran sekolah? ( actually i was like confiused whether she is an office worker or a teacher..)

Akak: awk kne pegi jmpe ustaz dlu.. (well she's not really looked friendly to me at all..)
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Actually there is another two girl who hv the same intention as me..so we enter the GPKHEM 's room. Well im a bit worried and started thinking what excuse should i give in case he ask me why i wanna change to SIS.. and yea it did happend..

Ustaz: Awk pulak kenapa nk tukar ke SIS? ( dah agk daa..adoi.. cuak gile plak..xpe chill beb)

Me: errr.. sy ade sedare kat sane, klo sy tkr sng sket nk pegi skolah..( aku mmg pndai reka2 criter nih)

Ustaz: Owhh.. awk tgl kat mne? ( aku sgaje xmentioned y ak tgl kat area Gong Pauh, so tht he will puzzling where's that place lg pon Gong Pauh besar but my neighbourhood not really closer to smc though)

Me: Sy tgl kat tmn mohd noor.

Fuhh no more question..thank GOD he treated us nicely..then the principal accidently ade kat c2 gak..gile cuak aku.die nmpk cam garang je.. i thought die nk mrh tp nsb baik x..she just said that the f6's transfer thingy are not under their management so if wanna do that we need to link to the JPN..duhh pulak dahh..

After that the next session was with the seniors..ok its kinda interesting we played mummy2 thingy and rebut kerusi then buat ala2 kotak beracun..yeahh..syok gak la..wlaupun simple. The seniors looks sporting and it not really a big deal for me to befriend with them cz most of them are from my school though. We ended our slot with the school song..duhh gile malas aku nk hapal! then slot dismissed...yay balik!..

p/s: Segala2nye y brlaku kat SMC ari ni mengingatkn aku pd my beloved former school SMKBM!.. dan its really make me appreciate my former school and i came to know that eventhough SMKBM is not a premier school as the SMC does but in certain things my former school is the still the best!!..

WELL DONE MENTOKIAN!...

killing me softly

Criuzzly the transferring thingy really bother me!..arghhh!!.. really need the solution.. thnx GOD abah willing to help me. A week like a year!...

Frankly this problem not gonna happend if i did well last year.. sesal dahulu pendapatan sesal kemudian tdk brguna ... really got no mood at all..

Thinking of becoming a peguam syari'e... oohh celaru+cacamarba sgale info dlm hotak ni..need someone to fix it.. aku dh blur ngn cita2 aku... really feeling like to cry.. oohh ive got kesusateraan stream...i dont know lah...thinking of change it into geography and history.. its not that the malay literature aint interesting but learn those prosa klasik really can make me lentok all the time as i used to be whenever pn.ramlah told us to read it. and one thing i realize is im not really into the tatabahasa-person..i mean im too lazy to understand those rules of malay grammar jgn contohinya kerana anda org melayu... dilemma killing me softly!...

day [1] as a pre-u student

Started my day with curiousity and frankly i was like thinking about my first day after spm, yeahh..its holiday. Time passed very fast.It was like i just started my long holiday yesterday but today need to get ready for a new routine as a sudent. I went to smc at 0815a.m cz the registration was at 9a.m. After the registration the chantek-teacher said u can go anywhere u like but need to be here at 12...ok but as for me i felt like quite menyusahkan . But its ok la.. forgiven! haha..

Ok ill make it short. The first programme started exactly at the time. As i thought cegu Aziz was the one who took over..ok at first i was like terkejut cz the emcee said he is the school's counsellor(spell??) ...actually he is the former counsellor at SID and been worked there for ages so im a bit shocked when he been transfered here, well good in progression i guess.. owh and before that rmi cegu pre-u bg ceramah about this and that and of course the scholar thingy attracted me..haha..

The ice-breaking session was quite interesting, we need to nyanyi2 and intro ourselves but it was like living in hot pouch..panas siot!, yeah nowadays we cant really expect the weather..

The first day programme ended at 1410 p.m... and i cant wait to back home to re-fill my tummy frankly i didnt took my breakfast cz i was like lost my appetite..

Ok to be FRANK once again...i didnt really excited at all cz im hoping of transferring to SIS as soon as the learning session start next week. But now im feeling like BLUURR je and im quite scared to ask the teachers for the transferring process.. nanti ape plak die kate, bru msk dh nk tuka.. but really it bother me and i cant stand it for any longer.. tomorrow i need to go to the school office by hook or by crook!.. oohh God give me the strength..

p/s: i miss my precious time with the buddies at smkbm...korang rock!.. and sometimes im thinking whether i could get the same friends y gile2 yet chill je...can i??.. time will answer it~
do supporting me ok!

at the end of the loooong holiday

ok its a long time since my last post...
mim alif lam sim attacking!..

first, ill be schooling back tomorrow..owwhh...frankly never thought ill be schooling TOMORROW..cz i thought pre-u start around June...so im not mentally WELL prepared schooling around may...but its ok cz i strt to feel the exitedness of become a pre-u student tomorrow...yeahh!..

Second, thnx yea my dear fellow friend RAIS cz ingat nk PULANGKAN balik jam aku tu...b4 u head to gambang tomorrow..(sory aku ter-SUMPAH kau tadi..haha2..! u deserved it~)

Third, poor my pu3..sory about ur baju kurung...my mom will do her best..u will wear it in couples of week (kot..)..

Fourth, oowhh cuti ended with joy!..me,sis,bro headed to megamall yesterday and we played bowling for two hours i guess...sis still cant beated my big bro so she treated our lunch. ok aku mngaku aku KALAH but i DON'T CARE at all....cz i get new school's attire plus new NIKE bag!..best siot..haha.btw..thnx to my sis...i lov u!..and i promise to perform my best this time..INSYAALLAH~

Fifth, ill miss all my buddies..pu3,fidah,mira,mizah,lina,rais as they r going to further their studies at gambang and johore matriculation collegue tomorrow..chaoyook guys ill pray 4 ur success..insyaallah...do remember me ok..(except 4 RAIS, aku xheran mu lupe aku pon..haha!)

Sixth, im looking for a new LIVERPOOL pencil case cz mine is going to hancow already..i need the xtra size ok..!(ok..ok need to control my red madness)..

Seventh, need new visor for my helmet...anyone???..haha~

Eight, my Steven Gerrard (stand for my red legend motorcycle ye..) needs new cover set..i still want the same colour yet different style...bro?? xnk sponsor k?..ngehs5!

Ninth, still not ironing my school's attire yet!..cik tyah xnk tlg??..dapat pahale tau.~

Tenth, fall in love with ths CUTE+HANDSOME+MACHO+STYLISH guy...LAH AHMAD.. criuz sore die best..merdu..ok i know ure taken but if u read this CALL ME DUDE!..ahaks..

p/s: ill be bz for the whole week..need to re-scheduled everythings!...oowhh im eighteen!.. dh bole kawin daa...ngesh5!.. ok please take a note that im not going to call my form six as 'school' but ill be call it as 'PRE-U'..yaa..its the facts..huhu!
ok last but not least...happy mothers day to my MOM RUSENAINI IBRAHIM ure the bestt mom ever and i will always love u more than u love me till my last breath!..and happy sweet sixth bday to my niece NURUL AIN mak su will oweyz pray for ur success and i hope u perform ur best in ur entrance xam...use ur intelligence well! lastly..limit ur gedikss.. ye..haha..jgn marah..

Rahsia Pemakanan Genius Islam

Formula pemakanan genius-genius Islam silam yang menjadi rahsia keajaiban daya intelek mereka. Formula ini terpendam di dalam kitab-kitab tradisional dalam bahasa Arab. Tersembunyi dari pengetahuan orang Arab dan umat Islam sendiri. Namun akhir-akhir ini ada usaha-usaha untuk mengetengahkan kembali kepada umum. Sekarang semacam ada kecenderungan di kalangan ilmuan Islam dan bukan Islam untuk mengkaji dan menguji keabsahan formula ini. Ini didorong oleh penemuan - penemuan saintifik yang membuktikan kebenarannya, khususnya terhadap susu, madu dan telur. Berikut adalah formula pemakanan genius - genius Islam yang telah terbukti berupaya meningkatkan kepintaran dan kekuatan daya ingatan :

1) MADUMadu adalah makanan yang sangat berkhasiat. Al-Quran mengiktirafkannya sebagai “shifa’” iaitu penyembuh penyakit. Manisan madu digelar “Raja Ubat”, dapat menyembuh kebanyakkan penyakit. Ia adalah makanan untuk kesihatan keseluruhannya. Ia mengandungi pelbagai jenis vitamin, mineral, protein, antiseptik dan enzim yang meningkatkan ingatan dan kecerdasan mental individu. Madu juga mengandungi pelbagai zat galian yang penting seperti kalsium, sulfur, fosforus, zat besi, karbon, magnesium, potassium (kalium), kuprum, silika, klorin, mangganese dan belerang untuk memupuk tenaga dan kesihatan fizikal-mental. Rasullullah s.a.w bersabda, “Siapa ingin hafal, hendaklah ia minum manisan madu”. Madu didapati berkesan untuk merawati penyakit - penyakit mental di mana ia boleh menghindarkan kepenatan kerja otak seperti berfikir, membaca, merancang dan bermesyuarat.

CARA MINUM : 2 sudu teh pada waktu pagi dan malam.PANTANG : Jangan makan tembikai semasa menggunakan madu. Sangat merbahaya !

2) KISMISMengandungi zat besi yang amat diperlukan untuk membina darah bagi memastikan bekalan oksigen yang mencukupi untuk disalurkan ke otak. Kekurangan oksigen menyebabkan seseorang mudah mengantuk, pelupa, lembab dan mengalami kelemahan dalam berfikir.

CARA MAKAN :i)Menghadap Kiblatii)Baca “Bismillah” dan selawat ke atas nabi (3 kali)iii)Baca doa penerang hatiiv)Makan secara kemam seperti makan gula-gula. Tidak berkesan jika dikunyah seperti makan kacang.v)Makan sebiji-biji sebanyak 21 biji setiap hari.

3) SUSU SEGARSusu berguna untk kesihatan otak, mempertajamkan ingatan, membekalkan tenaga mental dan fizikal. Susu mengandungi tiga unsur semulajadi iaitu keju, lemak dan air yang amat diperlukan untuk pertumbuhan badan dan otak. Susu adalah makanan yang paling lengkap dan berkhasiat. Ia mengandungi enam kelas makanan yang amat diperlukan oleh tubuh iaitu karbohidrat, lemak, protein, semua jenis vitamin, mineral dan air. Ia berkhasiat untuk merawati kesihatan umum dan merupakan penawar kelupaan yang berkesan. Rasullullah s.a.w menerangkan susu boleh menguatkan belakang, menambahi akal, memperbaiki penglihatan dan menghindari penyakit lupa. Susu yang terbaik untuk ketajaman minda ialah susu kambing, biri - biri dan lembu yang segar. Susu hidup lebih berkhasiat dari susu debu.

CARA MINUM :i)Sekurang-kurangnya segelas pada sebelah pagi dan malamii)Baca “Bismillah” dan doa minum susu seperti yang dibaca oleh Rasullullah s.a.w

4) TELURBermanfaat untuk menambah kekuatan otak, badan dan menjaga kesihatan keseluruhannya. Ahli - ahli kesihatan mengakui ia merupakan makanan yang lengkap dan berkhasiat. Ia mengandungi protein, mineral, vitamin, kalsium, kuprum, magnesium, fosforus, kalium, sulfur, natrium, klorin, zat besi, air, choline dan bahan ekstraktif. Sabda Nabi s.a.w, “Sesungguhnya seorang nabi a.s mengadu kepada Allah (kerana dia)lemah badan. Maka Allah s.w.t memerintahkannya supaya memakan telur”. Telur terutama telur kuning, berupaya mengatasi masalah kelemahan tenaga fizikal dan minda sekaligus. Telur yang terbaik ialah telur ayam kampung dan yang masih baru.

5) HALIAIanya sangat mujarab untuk gejala kelupaan. Ia boleh dimakan mentah atau dibuat halua. Halua ialah halia yang dijadikan manis - manisan dengan merebus dan mencampurkannya dengan gula.

CARA MAKAN : Dimakan sedikit sahaja pada waktu pagi.

6) LIMAU ORENBerkhasiat untuk mengemaskan urat-urat jantung dan menambah kekuatan fikiran menurut hadis Nabi s.a.w. Limau - limau jenis lain juga elok untuk diamalkan.

7) BUAH DELIMAUntuk penerang hati. Sabda Nabi s.a.w, “Barangsiapa yang memakan buah delima keseluruhannya, sesungguhnya Allah menerangkan hatinya selama 40 hari.”

DAGING BURUNG MERPATIIanya banyak digunakan oleh bijak pandai Islam dan Melayu dahulukala. Ia mengandungi protein, lemak, kalsium, fosforus dan kalori. Sangat efektif untuk meningkatkan kecerdasan terutama kanak - kanak. Kaedah ini sangat popular dan berkesan. Kanak - kanak yang diberi telur burung merpati didapati dapat bercakap lebih awal dari kebiasaannya.

9) OTAK AYAMBoleh dibuat sup dan dicampur dengan halia. Otak ayam yang segar juga boleh dibuat penawar sementara bagi gigitan ular. Perlu diamalkan memakannya.

10) DAGING AYAMBerbanding dengan semua jenis daging, ayam dianggap mengandungi kadar zat pemakanan yang paling tinggi. Daging ayam betina dara terutamanya berkhasiat meningkatkan prestasi otak dan membaiki darah. Abu Musa r.a meriawayatkan bahawa Nabi s.a.w memakan daging ayam betina.

11) DAGING BIRI-BIRIMenambah darah, sesuai untuk orang aktif dan bekerja berat serta dapat meningkatkan kekuatan hafazan.

12) HATITerutamanya hati ayam dan lembu. Mengandungi pelbagai jenis vitamin dan bermanfaat untuk kesihatan mental dan fizikal.

13) KEKACANGBeberapa jenis kacang seperti gajus, berangan, kacang soya, pistachio dan lain-lain. Kacang pistachio dipercayai sangat efektif untuk meningkatkan kecerdasan terutamanya kanak-kanak. Memakan kacang pistachio merupakan amalan pemakanan seorang pelajar genius berbangsa Melayu yang tinggal di Melaka. Kekacang mengandungi nilai protein yang tinggi.

14) BUAH BADAMUntuk meningkatkan kecerdasan.

15) ZA’FARAN : KOMKOMA (CROCOS SATIVUS)Sejenis bahan berambu merah. Dimakan sedikit sahaja. Dijual di kedai-kedai runcit India dan sesetengah kedai runcit Melayu.
16) KEMENYAN PUTIH (kemenyan serani/luban/kundar)Ditumbuk halus-halus dan dimakan dengan gula.
17) BUNGA KOBISTerdapat sejenis asid amino untuk tenaga mental.

18) BUNGA CENGKEHDitumbuk sehingga halus lalu diamakn sedikit sahaja.

19) LABUBerfaedah menambahkan keupayaan fikiran dan akal. Sabda Nabi s.a.w., “Makanlah labu kerana ia mencerdaskan akal”. Baginda juga berkata, “Jika kamu membuat sup (atau kuah), dianjurkan memasukkan labu ke dalamnya kerana ia menambahkan kemampuan fikiran dan akal.

20) BUAH KEDEKAI (MAJALAWI)Menguatkan hafalan dan menguatkan kekuatan badan.

21) MINYAK SAPIDimakan terus atau dicampurkan dengan masakan dalam kuantiti yang kecil.
22) SAYUR-SAYURAN DAN BAUH-BUAHAN SEGARJuga membantu meningkatkan akal dan

p/s: sources is the courtesy of Rahsia Kehidupan

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luahan dan perkongsian dlm khidupan

okeh ni ak nk lepas geram gak la..
walaupun mgkn orang tu xkan bace blog aku..(aku ni sape kan..bdk skolah je..)

dulu kan aku ske sgt kat die...aku adore lah die ni. Tiap kali jmpe msti kitorag akn beramah mesra tambah2 plk die nk mmg ramah la..ngn mak..abah dan adk brdik y lain. Pendek kate, wlaupun die ni biasa je tp kami senang sgt2 ngn die...tp lps die dh dpt pegang jawatan besar dimana yang memerlukan die mnjadi ketua yang slalu kne bg arahan ni..die totally change!..

criuz,tegas je manjang..btl la anda tu bos kan tp jgn lah ngn kami2 yang mmg terrelated ngn anda ni pon nk dibuat cam kami ni org bawahan ok!..aku mmg xsangke btl la die blh berubah..! imm totally miss the old one of urs..mybe diri anda yang dulu xsemenarik dan tak secantik anda yang sekarang..tp its ok, kami xde mslh ngan itu..kami rindu ngan diri anda yang comel dulu, tp sekarang anda mmg dah cantik tapi dh hlg kecomelannya.Tp xpe mgkn anda rse lbh yakin dgn penampilan anda y tiptop skrg, mklumlah anda bekerja dgn org y berpangkat besar..malu pulak rse nye kan klo anda tampil xmenarik..personally aku mmg rindu diri die yang lame. Dlu aku xrase terasing pun bile ade depan die..tp sekarang dh lain..aku macam orang lain j..frankly aku rse terasing!.. mcm kite xpnh knl..
Tahniah atas perkahwinan tadi...alhamdulillah semua selamat..kami semua gembira dan bersyukur krana dapat ahli baru..tp mse dkt kenduri tu kan, aku rse lain like no chemistry at all dgn die..hanya sekali aku berckp ngn die tu pon mse dh nk blk...first and last bersalam sepanjang 2 hari(lbh-kurang la..) kat umh die. Ms memula mmg aku jmpe die tp die seems too bz nk bersalam..ntah..bersalam mgkn dh jadi semakin mahal utk diberikan kot..sedih tau! aku dpt rse cam aku ni sekadar tetamu je smata2 kat mjls tu..tak tahu nk buat ape...cam terkial.rse cam org bodoh pn ade..well to b frank, aku lbh suke kiranya aku turut sibok memeriah mjls tu..(like tlg msk ke ape ke..) ni tak aku rse cm org luar. Jauh sgt drp situasi mjls kluarga saudara lain..dimna sme fmly pn cbok buat keje gak..perasaan dan situasi ni rse asing krna xpnh jd cm ni tau..since gne catering so mmg la xde kje sgt kan..(i hate catering..no cooperation btween fmly la klo cmtu..) ntah la..at least kan senyum pun jadiah..ni xpon kami sekadar berpandangan tp xde senyuman dilempar..ooh kamu xbegituu dulu..kamu berubah sungguh jauh..

Die rapat ngn abah dulu..tp since dh berubah, abah jd kecik ati ngn die..(ade incident la..xyah cite eh..huhu) abah walaupun kuat tp perasaan die ckp sensitif..aku mkn paham tentang abah..after inciden tu la abah dh strt xtye die ape2 dah..abh senyap je..kadang2 kesian plak aku tgk abah..ye la die tu kirenya ank sedare kesayangan abah jugak la..abah kate die btl2 kecewa dgn perubahan y ditunjukkan..krg mmg dh blh nmpk abah mmg dh xckp ngn die..

Kate abah jugak manusia ni tak kan sedar selagi die tidak menghadapi kesusahan hidup yang sangat memeritkan..yang begitu terkesan dlm hidop..nauzubillah~..
Dalam kalangn sepupu pn die agk lbh ngn si A ni sbb mybe A ni mmg agk standard..

Entahla...kami akan selalu doakan kebahagiaan diri anda..dan semoga anda dapat kembali ke diri anda yang asl dulu..kerana kami sangat rindu ngan kak***** yang lama!..

p/s:semoga rezeki yang bakal Allah kurniakan kiranya aku berjaya suatu hari nnti tdk akan menenggelam kan aku dalam nikmat dunia yg sementara ni..insyaallh~