Malam ini

I dont know how to express this feelings....

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Aku, bukan mudah utk meluputkan kesedihan......

Malam yang indah pun tak mungkin dapat pulihkan aku....

Kadang-kadang terasa bagai aku hanya ada aku....

Ya...susah senang hanyalah pada diri ku....

Ku hanya mengharap pertolongan dri Nya....

Sesekali rajuk itu dtang lagi menerpa....

Ingin aku lari....

Ahh ikut kan hati mati, ikutkan nafsu,binasa.....

Semoga aku tak tersesat...

This

This is the saddest thing ever....
Ada yang boleh diluahkn...ada yang yang xmampu diluahkan.

Biarlah...andai itu y diperlukan....
Raihan u shud be strong...!
Because u r strong...
Biarlah manusia nak membuang kau...
Tapi Allah tak kan pernah buang kau....
Ikhlaskan hati no matter what....
Be sincere no matter what....
Allah will grant you something....

P/s: I really need someone to talk to right now...

:'(

Its pathethic and sad.....

I shud better get lost from here...

Because people dont like me anymore....

P/s

P/S: I love you......

Yesss youuu....

You....

You know who you are.....

I love u very much....

(P/s: bota :> )

Reminder....

Salam readers,
This is just a short thoughts from me..... Think it wisely and carefully....

Kalau tak dikerjakan sebendang sawah, jangan diharapkan seguni beras....

Get what I mean?

Yes...if u want something fight for it ! Dont just wait....

Sawah tak kan bertukar menjadi beras kalau tak dikerjakan sawah tu.... Kalau nak padi, kerjakan sawah tu dulu,bajak,jaga dan tuai bila dah kuning.....
Bila dah tuai kena tampi pulak...barulah blh dpt hasilnya iaitu beras.......

Kasih sayang jugak macam tu....
Hargailah seseorang itu sebagaimana anda ingin diri dihargai.....
Kalau tak suka diperlakukan lebih kurang, cek balik...adakah anda telah melakukan perkara yang sama?

(p/s: I got 3 type of medicine today...harap2 batuk ni pulih....sangat lemah bila batuk and I couldnt bare it for a long term... Allah, andai ini kafarah atas dosa-dosa aku,kuatkan semangat dan hati ku...aku perlu membagiakan mereka yang aku syg...)

Realiti vs mimpi

Aku teringin sekali pergi jauh....
Jauh dari realiti...
Kerna ternyata realiti itu pahit sekali utk ditelan....
Kadang kala aku ingin terus dibuai mimpi dan angan-angan kerna mimpi dan angan-angan bisa menemukan aku dengan impian... Impian yang sekian lama terpendam dek keterbatasan...
Hidup ini bukan mudah jauh sekali senang....
Namun aku tahu...
Semua ini harus aku gagahi jua....
Kerna realitinya.....inilah aku...
Sebuah cerita yang telah diukir di Loh Mahfuz....
Sesungguhnya sebelum aku ditiupkan roh....aku sudah bisa melihat masa depan ku....
Juga pengakhiranku....
Allah.... Sang Penciptaku.....
Matikan aku dalam iman...
Berikan aku sedikit pengetahuan itu tentang mati.....
Nescaya, akulah yang paling bertuah...
Allah, segala yang aku lakukn hari ini, moga bermanfaat di masa hadapan kepada saudara-saudara ku.....

(p\s: alhamdulillah diatas kesempatan yang diberi.... Moga terus dikurniakan kudrat dan hidayah sebab dunia ini hanyalah sementara..tiada yang kekal melainkan syurga.... Syaitan great job! )

If

If and only if I could without worry of getting fat.....
I love to eat
But I hate the fact that my body low in metabolism....

Rajuk

Salam....
Rajuk....perlu ?
Betul...aku sedang punya rajuk dlm hati...rajuk ini buat aku sering meminggir diri...
Jujurnya aku rajuk dengan laman muka buku...
Rajuk aku kerana manusia...
Jujurnya juga, aku sedar diri juga tidak seberapa....
Tidak punya hak utk membenci sesama manusia...
Apa lagi sesama saudara....
Jadi aku fikir fikirkan, ada baiknya aku timbul kan saja rajuk pada diri...
Bukan saja-saja
Bukan juga utk sesuatu yang sia-sia..
Aku rajuk kerna aku tidak mahu benci ini semakin bermaharajalela....
Jadi ada baiknya aku kurang kan bermuka buku...
Tidak mengapa dibuat sedikit pengorbanan demi sebuah kebahagiaan.....

Wahai manusia,
Jujurnya aku tiada niat utk.membenci...
Namun aku manusia alpa....
Tak bisa utk jadi sempurna....
Maaf kerana membenci...
Kerna itu Ku putuskan,
Biarlah hati ini rajuk......

(p/s: rasa berdosa pada diri sendiri...aku hanya pertahankan kepunyaan ku....although its not yet officially...but I have my right....Allah,ampunkan dosa hambaMU....
Biarlah aku berbakti hanya pd y memerlukan, dan tidak gusar pada manusia y melemahkan...)

Room make over

Salam readers....
First and foremost,alhamdulillah as my health getting better but I still have the cough....
Actually, I think I just put on some weight....and I rarely exercising so I came up with the idea to do the room make over....well it is just a minor make over....i just changed the furnitures position and it took me plus minus about two hours to finish. Its been a year j guess, I didnt do this kind of routine since I left home to further my studies at uum. Tonight, after I done it, Ive got the the same feelings as what I felt when I was schooling. I love that euphoria.... It reminiscing me how excited I am to wake up the next morning and to see the different of my room condition and felt so excited to chill at my own room after came back from exausted school day. Ohh what the sweet memory..... And n miss it very much...i love to do those kind of routine...i love to decorate my personal place! Ohh cant wait to have my own house.... =)
Mmmm....i think thats all for tonite,im getting sleepy now.....ahhhhh how happy I am to see my own room with new fresh air.... I must sleep soundly tonite...
Till then readers, tata...

(p/s: I just cant stop instag! Love it...and thanx bota for this new toy so can even post my entry while laying down....)

shortyyyyy like me

Salam readers :)

Im getting good.....
But i really hate this cough!
hm.... i still thinking what would be my new url eh..?
and yes yesterday i did my first mission during sem break which is to made kuih tepung bungkus...alhamdulillah ok la for the first try kan.... ill upload later the pictures...
Today i just wanna make a short entry..
Nervous plak rase...sebab pe eh..? hmm....hehee

ok la till then......

(p/s: i hope ill be happy)

bad sore throat

 Salam readers :)

It has been a week im home for the semester break holiday.... and yeasss i know, i rarely update my blog. Because im  too busy watching tv. HAHA... i've told you i just wanna watch tv during my holiday rite... So here we are.... watching tv till drop! Ok actually im not wasting my time 24 hours watching tv, i did something else actually.... im addicted into instagram now...so every hour will open the instagram and stalked..ehehe....

Ok what now..? I have nothing to share here YET.....because im not really in the good condition. I mean, im sick.. i have no voice until....  don't know when.... i have bad sore throat until i can't sleep soundly at night :'( cough just made it worsen, flu ni malu-malu kucing seems to appear now... headache, fatigue which made me wanna sleep all the time during daylight.

Actually, since i was at my collage lagi aku rasa all the sign but i thought it will be ok i mean it wont be long until i lost my voice because last time i lost my voice was during my form 5. I still remember at that time i didn't go to school until my best friend came to my house just to ask me to do his essay...yeahh i knowww terukkan?? but thats my bff...i love them and i dont care when they asked me to do their essay's homework because i did the same thing too to my math and add math homeworkk..muahahahaaaaa....  so fair enough 'aite?  That's what best friends for... HAHA... tapi adik-adik...seharusnya jangan contohi ahkak ok......bukan suruh kawan buat homework because u will forever tak pandaiiiiii.... suruh best friends ajarrrrrr the homework and you solve it by yourself....get it..? otherwise u will regret nanti like me who tak pandai mathhh sampai ke sudah.... tsl tsk tsk..

Eh, actually nak cakap pasal sore throat kann....hehe.. ok so i officially lost my voice for the time being and because of my unpredictable condition, i have to cancel my bff trip to Kelantan. Actually i just me who will not join.. Somehow rasa soooooooo rugi :'( but what can i do... Because i;ve told my self that i will not join if i dont have a good condition of health... tak nak la susahkan orang kalau mlm2 aku sakit...tak nak spoil the enjoyabe moment. Tapi by the time i type this rasa mcm terbayang2 je keseronokannya... Kesian my bff...they sooo want me to be there :'(i felt bad now!

Tak pe la....tak de rezeki i guess... ill be home je la and find some interesting activities here to do with my bff here and my bota here also... my bota yang ada trip to melaka during this holiday pun baru semalam call cakap tak jadi because tiba2 nama dia tak de dalaam list, haha aku guling-guling suka because dia dah confident sgt boleh prgi...HAHA....so dua-dua tak jadi yang kononnye nak ade friends bonding activities during holidays...tak pe tak pe...ada hikmah... So utk pujuk myself i keep telling that Raihan, maybe you should be here with those who needs you and have bonding time with them... it's ok kawan2 collage, u still can have bonding time during your time at uum, tp peoples here? they just have u when u are in holiday....so be with them.... :)


Did i tell you this sore throat sgt sakit? nak..nak lagi bila ak tido malam...haddoooiii menangisssss... nafas yang kau sedut tu bila melalui tekak kau akan buat tekak kau gatal and nak batuk and after batuk sakitttt...menangissss la kau...mauhahahaa...ok over. Aku tak la menangis tapi rasa macam nak menangis. Ada satu malam tu i was so sick.. tak boleh tido langsung malam tu sampaikan bila tertido mimpi mengaru-ngarut!..hahaha.. ok tak nak cerita psl mmpi tu..tak suke! Malam tu byk kali terjaga because sakit sgt and i kept drinking the plain water sampai asyik ke tandasss aje... So because of that night i've decided not to join my bff sbb takut the same thing happen again there which is lebih teruk lagi....lagi pun i went to see a doctor yesterday and she said....fever is on  their wayyyyy...haha yeahh i need to be readyy now.... Sore throat checked! Cough checked! Flu checked! Dizziness checked! tak lama lago domam la tuuu....

So...my point here nak cakap pasal i have to cancel my trip to Kelantan yang bajet nak dijadikan entry bonding trip with bff tu uder budget holidayysss... kononnn...fefilinggg blogger sangat kan! mbik kauuu...tak pe laaa kita cari apa yang interesting dekat Kemaman ni aje ye.... We have Cherating whattt....cantik kottt...baaru je semalam pergi sebab my best friend sambut birthday dia kat sana. Nasib baik Cherating dekat, kalau jauh memang tak larat la nak pegi...tapi tak nak la mengecewakan my best friend yang seskali je dpt jumpa...so daku gagahi juaaaa wlaupun tak larat. Dah kene angin pantai alhamdulillah segar jap...tapi balik je rumah terus hilang suara sekali dgn bad cough and flu!....hahaha......sampai bota ckp semalam dia rasa mcm tgh ckp dgn gf baru..haha kuang ajoo yeee! hehe...

One more thing, i might wanna change my link address... but i have no idea yet......still mencarii :))

Ok la tu je.....todaay weather forecast said it's going to rain...hmm let see....its 8:45 am now and bit gloomy....kalau hujan membutaaaa je la koje aku hari ni... ok la tu je nak cerita....

Till then...tata :)


(p/s: sem baru nanti tak mo buka fb........msti jeles ade gambar diorang trip kat kelantan! )

Home !

Salam readers :)

Im home.....yes.... home sweet home!
Alhamdulillah it was an easier journey except i didn't get a tight sleep...well it's normal i guess....
So lets not make it plain.....

im ready to back homeeeeee!!! hehe this picture was not taken at my room but at my friend's. haha. 2 back pack and on sling back... i thought i just wanna bring 1 back pack but lappy seems like need to treat more nicely than before so brought along its own bed.

i reached at stesen bas changlun at 6. so lets eat first..alone. the nasi goreng kampung was really nice :)

In the bus! at 7 pm.. i dare to take this picture because there are nobody but me.. im the only passenger from changlun :)

 

I reached Kunatan Bus terminal at 7.15a.m i guess, so while waiting my sister picked me up lets have hot chocolate first! yummiieehhh.. and i was sitting at the rapid kuantan waiting area and there is one guy approached me..mybe he thought i've lost. I purposely to sit there because i wanna see how they works! (rapid kuantan is the newest public transportation at kuantan) Started from December until april the rapid kuantan will be free of charge... i've got lots of info from one pak cik who asked me where i wanna go with the back pack. We talked a lot from the rapid kuantan thingy until floods at kuantan area last month. Ohh ive been so much friendly :) hehehe

This is my new baby. When i reached home, ill round all the home's area and i saw this cute lappy at the coffee table and i fall in love with it. With the silver colour and thin...sangat cantik. I thought it was dad's lappy but mom said it is for me..hehe dad bought it for me because my lappy dah rosakkkk....can't help it anymore! it can be fixed but will cost lots of money so it's better buy a new one. dah banyak kali buat perangai lappy tuu...but i miss u.. it was my first lappy mom bought it when i was form 6. :'(

Got this new sling bag! thank mom :) love it....

So.......that's my story for today... i gonna make this holiday as one of my best holiday ever!.... i wanna gain something. I wanna do lots of reading, i wanna brush up my english, i wanna brush up my Quran reading.... the thing is... i don't want to waste my 1 month holiday just like what i did before....Thanx a million mom and dad! Alhamdulillah..i so happy... sedih2 hari tu akhirnya happy jugak rase.....hehehe....i never dreamnt to get new lappy, its ok if ill just stay using my dad's lappy...tapi dah tetiba dapat ni..alhamdulillah sangat-sangat...

I just can't wait

Salam readers ... :)

I can't wait for tomorrow! I can't wait to finish my last final paper....
I can't wait packing up my stuff..
I can't wait to lay on my bed cuddles my comfy bear and watch moviesssss!
I can't wait to be home... :)

Pray for my last paper tomorrow... Family law sounds easy eh??? lots of casessssssssssss grrrr!!
Actually i can't really focus on my notes because i think my soul is already home...home since 2 days ago....
I can't wait to be home to see my family! my cats! him! and bestie!!!
I wanna be home and watch tv..
I wanna watch adam dan hawa in marathon

I just can't wait to do random things without thinking about exams.... :)

Awkward to write the date

Assalamualaikum readers :)

New year's spirit much eh?
Today when i was filled up the form for my examination, i felt a lil bit awkward because heyy it's 2013.... I almost wrote it as 2012... we are in 2013 now....2015 ill be graduating...
So when we talk about new year it's all about the resolution right? But im not going to talk about that because i don't want to revealed my resolutions yet....i thought maybe i should keep it for my self first...


So whats happened during the new year?
Me..? of course im not at the good condition at that time hahaha but lets not talk about it.
New year celebration? i celebrate it with tensed and Tort notes. I did listen somebody shouted during the new year which had caused such a nuisance to me. New year's celebration is never a big deal to me. Frankly, i don't celebrate new year...ok it would be lie if i don't like to watch the fire crackers.. i did, but to be in the middle of the crowded? i rather die..hahahahaa... i hate crowded so much, pening to be at such situation. I love the enjoyment of the quietness. So its up to u whether to celebrate it or not. As for me, as a muslim, i think it is way better if we celebrate more on Maal Hijrah. That is why im not really excited talking about new year....

hmm.....
Im sleepy actually, I should study now.....

So till then......

Happy new year lah.....

(p/s:they are coming....they are coming....they are cominggggg....)