i need to filled the empty road...

Assalamualaikum....

Dear friends, how are you guys been doing??....i hope you guys been blessed by Allah swt....

Im doing good right now except, received a love letter from JLKN. It's annoyed me, i mean badly annoyed...lets forget it....i've came with an idea how to deal with it, the next step..lets just see whether its working or not.. *i pray very hard!*

ok... go for the next agenda....Well,guys, have u seen this blog had changed a lots?...well, the skin.....the pictures bla..bla.. but the thing is, i wanna say about the language that ive been used..lately i used about 97% fully english except for the "p/s". Actually, i wanna sharpen my english skills as im gonna step into uni's life someday and i pretty sure im gonna use lots of english later. Well people,actually im the kind of person who love english very much. But i know my skills isn't that good to be compared with others. So that is why i came with a decision to sharpen my english through blogging as im a school leaver who doesn't have an english classes as i used to have it everyday while i was in the form 6. By hook or by crook, to have a better english progression i need to do something and one of the ways is write in english. It's like writing an article in MUET except this way is much easier as i just have to write anything that i like and never worried about the grammatical error... and i dont have to worry about the marks too....*wink*

Guys, i know if the one who read this got a PhD in english(as if they will read this..~), im pretty sure that they will traced this entry with so many grammatical error,wrong sentence structure and bla..bla.. but the moment i made my mind to do this, i said to my own-self that nobody was perfect at their first try.. so in order to be a good english user someday, i need to get through this worst part first... learn from mistakes rite?...so i just dont care about the grammar...ill learn from one step to another...

But guys, im OPEN for any constructive comments.... do comment about my english progressing.. inshaALLAH, the worst part from mine, while the others from ALLAH swt.. :)

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(p/s: laptop diri sendiri rosak..bota sgt baik hati sbb tlg hantar baiki, lg baik hati bila dia bg aku pinjam laptop die..bota ckp sy blh buat cam harta sendiri cuma jgn rosakkan lptop die cam ape y dh aku buat kat lptop sndiri....syg awk bota!.....sy tetap akan byr kos baiki laptop tu wlaupun awk kate xpayah...*oh bota,kenapa awk sgt sweet u perkara y sy xjangka???...*touching* tetibe rase bersalah tgt perangai aku y kuat merajuk!..maaf ye bota syg.... Tp kan best plak pkai laptop ni....laptop bota lptop baru....nk pnjm lame lg la blh x????,,teheee~~ )

(p/s: masih terasa annoy dgn PLKN...tp ignore aje...sedang berfikir dan mencari kekuatan secara telus :)

(p/s: Allhamdulillah, dh dpt Medsi!...semoga ALLAH murahkan rezeki aku untuk dpt progrm perguruan walaupun hati masih lagi berbelah bhagi sama ade aku nk mnx ngn tuhan y aku nk course perguruan, lawyer atau english studies....ya ALLAH, al-Qahhar(maha menentukan), ar- Razzaq(maha pemberi rezeki), al-Alim(maha mengetahui), permudahkan urusanku ya ALLAH.)

(p/s: makin terasa cintaNYA dan cintanya.....alhamdulillah.)

(p/s:gambar2 tu sebagai inspiration yee...haha)

free from pms but still feeling down

Assalamualaikum...

Hello and hi dear readers, im back...

Well there are lots of things i want to share with you guys since my last post, but unfortunately there is something 'unlucky me' happened these few days..well it's like too personal to be shared, so it's gonna be in other more personal diary instead here.. As what i could say is, i felt terribly humiliated, embarrassed, and always burst into tears whenever it's appeared in m mind. Even though im getting better now, but it's still hard to be accepted and i will remember it for the rest of my life.

So,lets forget those meshy bloody thingy... and the thing that i really want to share since last months was.......I DROVE FROM KMN-KT!..haha ok, it looks lame but as im a new competent driver so im so glad when my parent hold a trust to let me drove from Kemaman to K. Terengganu to picked up my sis there...and of course, i've got mom as my co-pilot there... :)

Really excited and alhamdulillah my journey was blessed by ALLAH swt... and you know what, i dont stop recite any do'a that i know during my first kilometer...hope it will be one of my must-do-things forever and ever...

mmm...Cik Itriah,(if u read this) don't get jealous ok..please..i beg you...and never lose hope to get a chance like me :P..

So rasenye....tu je kot...tiba-tiba aku rase pening and nk tdow kot...cz tonite,everything seems to be so boring....fb...blog..tv....hurmm... bored......

(p/s: mlm2 cani,teringat lak time2 tuisyen mase f6 dlu...bez je rase...got friends around, got him, teachers, aku paling suke tuisyen sejarah dunia...rindu cg wan zainun..tehehhee..if u read this (i know u won't though...) i miss u la...bile nk blanje mkn?..i've got A for your paper ok...!..huhuhu..*bile dpt A sejarah...tetibe plak rase nk jd cg sejarah like her...huhuhuuu)

Uneasy =(

Assalamualaikum,

Dear friends, u know what.... i felt uneasy this few days and there is no doubted to point to PMS. It's all your fault!....you just ruined up my days, i mean, i should enjoy every moment as enjoyable days without felt any burden....*sigh*...

Frankly, i'm still feeling guilty for not being a responsible person as i should be. If i could reverse the time, yes i'll fix everything...and make it perfect to everybody. Unfortunately, i couldn't cope to go against the faith.

I'm feeling weaker day by day. I turns into paranoid to face the future. I'm so negative right now. I wanna change and i badly need it...

Well you know what, someone who like me turn to be the opposite side. Well i dont really care if u dont like me, but please, i do got feelings....dont pretend like im not there whenever i stood there. I felt such a loser well like im invisible to you. I dont mind if u dont wanna greet me, but please, do respect me as your guest instead of invisible man. Hey! im not invisible okay!... NOT!... You make me felt, loser and suck..you make me hate my self like im the most bad person in the world just because of one misunderstanding.. Im too bad to you haaa???...ok fine, i'll accept that..thnx for giving me the best viewed of you at my first glimpse and now i realize im not good enough to be your friend...You make me invisible than ill make invisible too...fair and square rite??... ermm, you....i know u wont read this unless you stalked me, but if u do read this just no offence,bcz this is what i felt about u....i mean i wrote this just to show what did i felt all this while when u attended me that way...thnx anyway....

Till then, im sleepy...salam..

(p/s: period buat sy rse jauh dgn Nya....by reciting the holy verse, i felt so calm...)

HOMESICKNESS

Assalamualaikum......

Dear friends, I may look tough, strong, fierce,rock etc..etc... but the real is, im so weak!...weaker than evaahh!...im not strong enough, yes! i admit that ive got fierce facial expression that good enough to make others thought that im not a mummy's girl. I may looked independent from the way i spoke, but the reality is....hell im not! dudes, babes, please take a note, im not like what you guys think....im suffering from....

HOMESICKNESS

amik kau..aku kasi besau! bold! merah lagiii..... haiizzz..... since my first day with nanny, my first day at kindergarten, first day at primary school, first day at secondary school, first day stepped into pre-university, till now..............

I even feeling homesick whenever been away from home or mom, tido umah spupu aku pon rase nk meleleh air mate niii....! hadoooiii paraahh..parahh...

So???.....HOW CAN I AVOID FEELING HOMESICK???!...help me!..please....gimme something... i need motivation....

tu je kot nk kate...til thenn...tata ;'(

(p/s: ngedate hari ni best sbb ngedate skali dgn ma si bota, adk2 ipar..errkk..bakal ..haha,abah si bota....kire, double,trilpe date la..*sorry 4 being a lil bit bimbo...)

I am a DUMBO

Assalamualaikum....

Dear friends, this week....im not happy at all...

Im truly hate PMS!... it make me so stupid!....everything was sucks!!... i dont have any good feelings at all, i felt lonely, easy came up with anger,sulked, irritated, pissed off ...bla..bla... and i also hate my self!... why those negative thingy came to me at the same time?!...

I ruined up my sis's vacation- Having an Europe trip may be once in a life time chance.. Everything was ok at the first until i accidentally forgot to insert her camera's memory card back to its place. wth~! i was so careless..and now my sister really upset.. and hell no for me to borrow her camera again...no..no..no even touch it!...believe me, i know my sister very well.. im so stupid!!! i shouldnt make that kind of mistakes...served me right!...i give a slap to my own cheek for tht silly mistakes...mybe shes going to hate me after this?? im a bad sister,yes i know that...

At this moment i feels like, i am the bad girlfriend to him . He was so busy with his work and i kept asked him to have a time with me...i know, im bad...im so sorry...

I dont feels like writin more now...i need to nurse my own wound, i felt so lonely, pms killing me, im pissed of. im sad...im so negative right now...u know what?.. i failed to be short listed in MUnsyi .

So, i will not ever borrow any gadgets belongs to her...and im pretty sure she will not ever let me borrow them again...not anymore...its ok, i know, im wrong....

Second, i dont want to bother him, forcing him to have a time with me....if he need me, ill be there for him...

That's all....i need some time to get better...till then, bye......

(p/s: raihan, be strong.....Dia sentiasa ada... :)

Kerja satel...

Assalamualaikum....

I've been thinking to start any new post with salam...which is something i rare to do when posting an entry. So i think this is a good start to blogging again.

Dudes, babes...i know i let this blog wilted for sometimes, because the beginning of 2011 doesn't went well to me. Im deeply struggled with my own emotion, feelings, heart...etc,etc.. So i just stop blogging for a while to get some space. Im not the kind of person who enjoy telling the public anything including personal matter. My blog is just a place for

me to share something not-really-into-personal...i mean, the things that i've been through is really personal....

Ok lets get into main point which is kerja satel.. kerja satel here is refer to this blog. Can u see the changes??...At last i give some fresh air to this blog to breath. Simple is nicer. ive been tired using blog skin which is not showing my self..i know the blog's header doesnt looked well, but i just love the way it is....let me express my self through this blog, the dumbo trying to be smarter!...haha..

Im thinking about making my self more creative while blogging...i mean the entry not just only a plain text talking nonsense. Ill put some motivational words refer to me

and you, or mybe putting some picture....so here we are..

But i realize that i am the kind of person who always sighted when things turn into chaos. Ive got no strength to be a person who really strong to accept it with smile...im praying so hard that i will be tht kind of person someday..inshaALLAH...

Till then.....~ salam..

(p/s:Kebelakangan ni aku rase sgt la mls....asyk nk tdo je keje....hishh...aku cm xde motivasi langsung nk stay up pagi2 after subuh...hmm,harus berubah!)