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kadang-kadang terasa mcm nk berhenti..nk putus asa, nk putus harapan, nk lepaskan semuanya...nk pergi jauh2 dari sini....................

Allah....aku merayu padaMU, kurniakan aku kekuatan agar inilah jln y terbaik buatku.....amin...

being upset

I can't understand why certain people hard to accept a good criticism regarding our own religion. I know im not good and still ignorant about Islam. I know that very much. I know im not that good, i know sometimes my act worsen than ever but at least everyday i learnt on how to be a better muslim. Everyday i pray to Allah to give me hidayah.....

Actually there are some incident happened few days ago... A friend of mine posted a wall picture regarding the final exam...and that picture stated something about "crossing the fingers" for this final exam. Im not hurt when that particular person didn't tag my name, definitely NOT. The thing is i felt like that person can't accept my criticism. I dont think that i gave it in the wrong way yet prudentially but the acceptance was bad. After about an hours, i saw that person's status stated something about religion...well actually i felt annoyed with certain of the status. I know im not good when i talked about hukum-hakam agama and so on and so fourth, but that doesn't mean that i know nothing.

Well actually i gave a comment asked that person to delete that picture because "crossed ur finger" means a cross... you did a cross sign...can u get it?....tanda salib!.... and the sentence in that picture means, u pray others for their final exam in the christian way....i don't know to explain.

Actually before i know about this fact, i kept used this sign for fun...at that particular time, as for me crossed finger means, i say no... but when i know the truth, i never use that sign anymore!...

and ive got no other intention except to share with those who don't know this... i have no intentions to degrading anyone. You know what, its about our aqidah. kalau tak, aku pon malas nk ambik tahu hal org. Till now i still can see that wall picture, that's mean, it's not being removed and also means that, that person just ignored my comment......owh how sad... :'(

well, maybe i wrongly judge that person's status too...mybe it just a coincident. Mybe its actually not for me...i dont want to say bad thing about that person because that person is always being nice to me... but no action being made regarding that picture, that was the thing make me upset...very much...it's ok...may Allah guide u....i dont blame u...

(p/s: kadang2 rasa penat tapi bukan bermakna aku berputus asa.... cuma rasa dim itu lbh baik...)

......

Ya Allah, Ya Rabbi....

Please give me a strength to stay awake until dawn....

Please give me a better understanding......

Please put away those negative ions from me....

Please make me strong until 9th Jan....

(p/s: i hate when people force me for something i hate very much!)

taksedardirilagi

Salam everybody....

Good morning...yes morning...i woke up early today... actually i planned to wake up at 2 am last nite, but i dozed off until 6 a.m...hua..hua..hua...

nak buek macam mano....setan kuat sgt...adoii...

Ok today i plan to study on 'acceptance' and 'intention to create legal relation'.....but im so freaking out on my computer's assignment damn much!....gilooooooosss!

i cant focus on my study if i still stuck with it...ohh damn. why?????.... dear lecturer, can we just forget about this assignment?.....we pretend like u never give me this assignment ok...?....pleaseeeee..........

satu hape pon aku xstudy lagi ni..*ok tipu* tapi aku study xmasuk kot! sbb aku asik pk asnmt ni jeee.....tido pon aku ade rase berdebar2..tp still continue tidow jugak laaaa *xdekesedaran*

ok la..ok la....aku nk study dulu!

(p/s:taparpipiakukuat2bolehtak???????)

post lagho...

Salam uolsssss......

hehe....it's a study week... and my progression is so slow....

suddenly, rasa haruslah study betoi2 malam ni memandangkankan carry mark cukup2 makan je....

suddenly lagi, rasa nak tgk drama kat tonton so that i won't feel lonely as my room mate off to her kampung..untunglarumahdekatje**

suddenly lagii.... oohh tv 3 got new drama... pinoy's drama.. which is starred by dindong dantes and marian rivera...damn! i love this couple!!!... previously, im so in crazy with marimar... oohh why?? meyesal aku bukak tonton..kan dh rasa gila nk tgk drama ni...

currently im watching this drama while studying contract law 1, uhh..uhh...i know, its not really works..hehe..nk tgk jugak!!...

As my first glimpse of this drama..i think its not too heavy drama compared to marimar..marimar was so sad.. because i was cried when i watched it..**rahsiajgnbagitahusape2*

this drama seems like funny.... homer starred by dindong dantes is so nerdy and marimar, im not sure her name in this drama sbb baru je keluar dlm scene y aku tgh tgk while typing this...hehe.. but she is damn funny...energetic and boyish yet beautiful adorable yawww~~ oohh yes it is so dangerous... very dangerous one....because i tend to put aside my contract law which im gonna have the exam on 31st dec... so dangerous.....

nanti mula laaaaa nk emo tak tentu pasal dengan bota sbb tension tak habis study pastu mula la cuti tak senang duduk sebab pikir takot kene repeat memandangkan hari2 mase ade kelas law aku tgk ade senior yang maacam brilliant gila tapi terpaksa duduk ngn kitorang sbb mereka semua repeat paper tu dan mula lah aku terpakasa lupakan hasrat nak apply jpa scholarship utk sem depan oohh damn tak mahu sila lah tampar pipi saya ni sampai berdarah darah mulut ni pon tak pe supaya saya sedar diri ok dah titik

.so kalau nk tgk, silalah login tnton..tp kene sign up dulu...maka berbahagia lah hidup korang tu pon kalau line xslow....

(p/s: i love red like damn crazieeehhhhh...)

sigh...

Bila aku sayang seseorang tu...

aku akan pastikan aku bg yang terbaik utk dia...

Segala-galanya...

Kalau aku salah

bagi tahu aku..

sebab aku tahu aku tak layak nk bagi nasihat kat org...

(p/s: im sorry if im wrong...saya cuma nak bagi yang terbaik utk diri kamu sbb sy nampak apa yang kamu mungkin xnampak...)

inspirations

Salam Jumaat everyone....

Feels like,it was just yesterday i have my Jumaat and i met with Jumaat again today....Allah....how fast the time goes.. It's already December...feels like it was just yesterday i got the proposed letter from UUM. Not more than a month i will complete my first semester here.... Ya Allah, feels like it was just yesterday i finished my last paper on STPM... Allah..Allahh....The Almighty.. <3

Recently i've got drowned with so many workloads and i got stucked when i dont know how to handle it...seriously i felt like crying...crying like a baby...sometimes i dreamed to be a baby again... but i know that wouldnt happened again....it's a life cycle....we will not ever get a chance again to be who we are yesterday....yesterday was just a history... today is the time to create who we are for tomorrow...ooh what am i crapping about?...

I dont know what i am talking about..i just wanna share something. Yesterday i read my senior's blog.. i love it very much...very inspirational one... she is from semester 7 in our school of law.. i like her character, the way she spoke and the way she managed herself to survived in this law school..ohh Allah..please, please let me be like her...please give me a chance to be a best servant of yours... please put me away from those lag'ha things...please give me strong heart if i have to let go something that i love much....please ya ALLAH, i beg You....

(p/s: always sleepy whenever i wanna start doing my works... ='( ......)

tak tahu

Salam...

Aku nak cerita ni....aku tak tahu sama ada aku patut bersyukur atau tak....

tapi aku tahu ini kurniaan ALLAH...

Aku seakan ada sixth sense... bila ad sesuatu yang buruk akn terjadi atau sudah berlaku pada org yang aku sayang, aku boleh merasainya....aku tak suka! sbb aku terseksa.....aku jadi terfikir kan semua benda,,aku jadi risaukan semua orang yang aku syg....terseksa wehh....

walau pun xselalu jadi tp kebayakannya mmg aku boleh rasa...

emmmmm...aku tahu ada yang yang memperlekehkan cerita aku setiap kali aku bg tahu mereka yang...''......patotla aku ada bad feelings jee..."... tapi guysss... im noy lying! its totally true!...dan aku terseksa dgn perkara ni...aku tak tahu ni kelebihan atau sebaliknya....

aku tahu ada yang tak percaya malah perli lagii....

tak pe lahh...aku redha..aku aggap ni semua kelbihan dariNya...

emmm....i really out o mood now....

carry mark aku utk final sem 1 mungkin akan dipotong...sem 1 penting...tapi....hmmm...

(p/s: sy syg awk....sangat2!......terlalu....amat...sungguh....!!)

wordless wednesday

i miss to hug my cats....very much!...i miss the smells of them...very much! ok done with it...actually i couldnt belive that im wasting my time at this library...im not a library-person but i do love reading. But what can i do...i got some stuff to be done by this saturday but heyy look at me, im typing this.......such a wasting!

(p/s: hey girl...dont play2 with me cz i can play bettr than u!)

ehjidiwduchaeisudc

aku tensionnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kbye!

si gebuku

saat ini...

aku rindu si gebu itu...

terasa mahu aku gomol-gomol mereka..

mahu aku cium-cium mereka...

saat ini....

aku sepi...

tika dahulu merekalah pengubatnya...

aahh rindu lagi aku pada mereka...

saat ini...

aku hitung kembali kenangan dulu..

aahh sakit lagi aku...

aku rindu mereka...pada si gebuku...

wahai pencipta..

seringkali aku bertanya pada diri...

mengapa mereka sungguh penting buatku...

walhal mereka hanya si gebu...

si gebu ohh si gebu...

aku sayang pada kamu... terlalu...

walau kau tak bisa bercakap..

namun kau bisa mngerti perasaanku...

si gebuku...

mungkin ada yang mengatakan aku gila...

melayani kerenahmu bagai anak kecilku...

dan meratapi tika kau pergi...

si gebuku...

mengapa kau begitu dekat dengan jiwaku...

walau kau selalu kagetkan aku dengan karenahmu....

namun kamu tetap aku sayangi...

bagai ada sesuatu yang menyihirku...

mungkin....

aaaahhhh!!! si gebuku...ingin saja aku peluk,gomol,cium kamu!

f**ckin perfect

***the song i used to hear and sang out loud whenever i felt like crying..***

Made a wrong turn

Once or twice

Dug my way out

Blood and fire

Bad decisions

That's alright

Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, missundaztood

Miss "no way it's all good"

It didn't slow me down

Mistaken

Always second guessing

Underestimated

Look, I'm still around...

Pretty, pretty please

Don't you ever, ever feel

Like your less than

Fuckin' perfect

Pretty, pretty please

If you ever, ever feel

Like your nothing

You're fuckin' perfect to me

You're so mean

When you talk

About yourself

You are wrong

Change the voices

In your head

Make them like you

Instead

So complicated

Look how big you'll make it

Filled with so much hatred

Such a tired game

It's enough

I've done all I can think of

Chased down all my demons

See you do same

Pretty, pretty please

Don't you ever, ever feel

Like your less than

Fuckin' perfect

Pretty, pretty please

If you ever, ever feel

Like your nothing

You're fuckin' perfect to me

The world stares while I swallow the fear

The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer

So cool in lying and I tried tried

But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time

Done looking for the critics, cuz they're everywhere

They don't like my genes, they don't get my hair

Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time

Why do we do that?

Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,

Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel

Like you're less then, fuckin' perfect

Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel

Like you're nothing you're fuckin' perfect, to me

You're perfect

You're perfect

Pretty, pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less then, fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing you're fucking perfect to me

(p/s: tak pernah sesaat aku meragui apa yang telah aku lalui...dan tak pernah sesaat aku sesali apa yang aku alami, aku nikmati...)