counting the days.....

Assalamualaikum....

Hi dear silence readers :)

Currently i rarely updating my blog cz i dont wanna write anything without quality and the qualities come with my eagerness to write something...ok lets pretend that u understand what im saying here..hehe *bcz i know u dont* hahaaa...

Recently, i got the best part of mine *finally*..which is my thoughts turns into positive way, i less anger, less pissing off, and manage to handle some meshy bloody things well.. Alhamdulillah...

I really miss them like seriously!... and i am barely able to breath without them, *ok that was just a hyperbola* :P But to have back positive side of mine is something i really appreciate much. Finally Allah gives back my strength that i really need in my life... i felt closer to Him...i felt much lighter to spend my time to Him..Alhamdulillah again... Frankly speaking, i felt lost this couples of month..lack of motivational and enthusiasm. I hardly to woke up for subuh prayer and to perform my solat hajat as it used to be my routine before, and i think i didnt get full the act of filling whenever i homage my Creator...i felt shamed and week...

Then i realize that i less spent my time with Him...the One that i should hold a trust on...

Now..i can't wait for this 15 July... Dear Allah please dont let this servant of yours felt down again...i know You won't let me down...

No matter whats the result could be is....just please Allah, give me a strength so that i can face it and accept those qada' and qadar....

I cant wait to pursue to my next station of life... and this time, the main priority is MYSELF! i wont let my self down because of others... Except my family, education were the only thing i own for the rest of my life. A couple could ended up single, a marriage could brake up, a friend can turns into foe....so Raihan! please....first thing come first!...

Alhamdulillah ALLAH for this great feelings...i hope this will be continuous....

By this time, my graph of life is quite good with only some marginal rose of negative ions but the activity of positive ions are highly increasing... Alhamdulillah again... :)

And..oohh before i forget, i got some cat scratch last sunday and its a bit worst until i had to get an injection. But it is getting ok rite now...the bruise had gone and the wound dried already.. Alhamdulillah... I dont blame my cat though... they are innocent cz they are animal, i can still hugged and play with him after got back from hospital... The truth is, Allah is trying to lighter my sins....and i accept it as my kafarah dosa and it makes me redha eventhough i had to experienced the sickness until today and need to take the antibiotic for a week. *i pee, i burp semua rasa ubat,huhu* by this time i realize how suffer the life of person with chronic disease, they have to complete the course of medication everyday... and now i know why my bota doesnt like his medication whenever he fall sick... and he never complete the course until he fall sick again....

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One thing else, Tahniah kpd sepupu yang bakal menjadi milik org....rugi tak sertai, masa mak bg tahu tu...diorang dah duk depan pintu...dan aku masih dgn telekung solat...sah2 laa terpaksa ditinggalkan....tak pe...im so happy and i whispered to my self, that i will be as happy as my cousin is that nite...later.. Her time has arrived...and mine will be coming too someday..insyaALLAH... At this moment, i should concentrate to my study...i kept remind my self that i were just a kid.. and a good kid should fight for a better future in order to get a right man in her life....and im praying so hard that the right man will be my bota today! :)

Till then...tataa

*nahh..buat cuci mata.... :)

(p/s: Mungkin sesuatu yang kita inginkan itu nampak mustahil utk kita perolehi, dan remeh utk kitaa impikan mahupun tidak masuk akal...namun ketahuilah...di sisi Allah swt.....TIADA YANG MUSTAHIL...*kun faya kun*)