this is LIFE!....

final dah habis!!

2012-01-08T21:37:00.000-08:00

Salam readers...

Fuhh.....syukur Alhamdulillah.... my first semester has ended now..My last paper was computer application in management...i went out 45 minutes earlier because it's cold plus im bored plus i cant wait to go back! hahhaaa...

i will head to Perlis this evening and spend my 2 nights at my room mate's house...10 girls gonna visit the entire Perlis! yehaaaaaaa!....

aku nk shopping sume kedai dekat padang besar sbb murah........!!!!

but still not done packing yet!.....ohh im so hapy! but im sleepy!....jom pack skrg!... i will update my vacation later..! wit the pictures....pinky promise!

stid's eve...

2012-01-08T00:41:00.000-08:00

Salam everybody....

I just finished watching the latest episode of Dangerous Love...damn it! its getting tough, im scared enough to see what will happen next.. Seems like the bitch Sheila just found out the truth that Homer were the one who to collaborate with Proserfina...ooo damn u damn u....its getting difficult for them to escape!... Rado killed auntie Digna and he wanted to separate Proserfina away from Ulysess.... i hate to watch it but im too eager to know more...! and Aris was caught red handed by his mom while dating Athena, at the same time Cassandra argue with his mom after found out that her husband was just a cleaner..ok what elsee...ummm, Proserfina also knew that the woman is not her real mom..

Look...im so good in telling you the summary of drama that i've been watched today instead of summarizing the case of Arkitek Tenggara that i-should-concluded-in-my-contract's essasy-last-sunday-and-i-forget-about-it! *sigh* i think i should be a writer...grr!

Ok...i washed my bed sheet today! tadaaaaaa......can't wait till tomorrow! i will packing tomorrow after my last paper and head to Perlis! yahoooo.....

ermmm but as im typing this, im crying inside.... i dont want to blame others...i know its my fault... i wanna stop advice people for the temporary time..i wanna improve my self first. Maybe im not good in giving an advises and im not a good person too...im so upset.... i know Allah give me this feeling for the sake of my own life. semua perkara ada hikmah....i know that...i know ALLAH love me so much so He gave me this piece of indecisive and weak heart.... thank you Allah for everything. I will accept all this with my willing heart...insyaALLAH...

till then....

(p/s: motif betol aku ni, drp cerita happy,jd sedih...ok la nk lyn perasaan dlu)

hey 2012...

2012-01-05T10:31:00.000-08:00

Salam readers..,

It's 2012....i know it's already 6th Jan 2012 but it's never too late to say happy new year people!!!! Well as for me, the new year's eve didn't give me much reasons to be celebrated. I don't felt guilty for not treated the new year's eve well as i was damn need struggled with my final exam yawwww!...

It's like the first time in my life faced with this kind of situation. Before this i was just a school kid who got nothing to do except prepared the school's thingy for the new school's session on the next day. If not my mistaken, my first school's session started on 1st January but this year they started their session on 5th kot..... jealous aku! and me on the other hand need to face with those meshy bloody things! 3 law papers on the row so i've got no time for that bloody thing....huhu actually aku study last minute tu yang jadi lagu niii....sumpah lepas ni aku tak nak buat keje gila ni lagi!...

Ok2, back to the main point....so talking about 2012, it's like a tradition to made a new resolution. Everybody was busy prepared their own resolution even though only a few that really achieved their aim, even my own self hard to fulfill my resolution. Actually i already made my resolution on Awal Muharram... I hope that i could be more ISTIQAMAH through this life. I wanna be the best servant of HIM, best student and apply for the scholarship on my second year..Insyaallah... i wanna challenge myself!...

and this 2012...there are something in my mind that keep bothering me. I can't reveal it now..let it be a secret till the suitable time has arrived...because i need to ask from HIM. It's about a thing that will change my life 180 degree or even 360 degree... What im thinking right now is a good thing but may arose an objection from some particular person who is contrary of my thoughts. I don't know.....so in order to make it as the best decision, i will take this one whole year to think deeply and prepare my self......please don't coax me...i won't tell yaaa...haha...bajet celebrity je aku ni...

Later ill update on how 2011 has treated me.....

and how 2012 welcome me...mybe tomorrow cz im so lazy....im sleepy...its already 3.16 am...

what i wanna say, i felt so relived that ive done with the my 3 law paper...so i got another 1 paper to go..paper computer kot....haha...will be on this Monday....1 paper lagiiiiiii!!...org lain byk lagi hahhaaaaaaa.....adil la....aku 31 dh strt exam....xde gap plak tu.....hahhaaa...sukanyaaaaa, nk tgk drama je esookk!

till then...sala...tataa

(p/s: Ya Allah...please show me the way.....)

:"(

2011-12-28T13:38:00.000-08:00

kadang-kadang terasa mcm nk berhenti..nk putus asa, nk putus harapan, nk lepaskan semuanya...nk pergi jauh2 dari sini....................

Allah....aku merayu padaMU, kurniakan aku kekuatan agar inilah jln y terbaik buatku.....amin...

being upset

2011-12-28T11:44:00.001-08:00

I can't understand why certain people hard to accept a good criticism regarding our own religion. I know im not good and still ignorant about Islam. I know that very much. I know im not that good, i know sometimes my act worsen than ever but at least everyday i learnt on how to be a better muslim. Everyday i pray to Allah to give me hidayah.....

Actually there are some incident happened few days ago... A friend of mine posted a wall picture regarding the final exam...and that picture stated something about "crossing the fingers" for this final exam. Im not hurt when that particular person didn't tag my name, definitely NOT. The thing is i felt like that person can't accept my criticism. I dont think that i gave it in the wrong way yet prudentially but the acceptance was bad. After about an hours, i saw that person's status stated something about religion...well actually i felt annoyed with certain of the status. I know im not good when i talked about hukum-hakam agama and so on and so fourth, but that doesn't mean that i know nothing.

Well actually i gave a comment asked that person to delete that picture because "crossed ur finger" means a cross... you did a cross sign...can u get it?....tanda salib!.... and the sentence in that picture means, u pray others for their final exam in the christian way....i don't know to explain.

Actually before i know about this fact, i kept used this sign for fun...at that particular time, as for me crossed finger means, i say no... but when i know the truth, i never use that sign anymore!...

and ive got no other intention except to share with those who don't know this... i have no intentions to degrading anyone. You know what, its about our aqidah. kalau tak, aku pon malas nk ambik tahu hal org. Till now i still can see that wall picture, that's mean, it's not being removed and also means that, that person just ignored my comment......owh how sad... :'(

well, maybe i wrongly judge that person's status too...mybe it just a coincident. Mybe its actually not for me...i dont want to say bad thing about that person because that person is always being nice to me... but no action being made regarding that picture, that was the thing make me upset...very much...it's ok...may Allah guide u....i dont blame u...

(p/s: kadang2 rasa penat tapi bukan bermakna aku berputus asa.... cuma rasa dim itu lbh baik...)

......

2011-12-28T11:20:00.000-08:00

Ya Allah, Ya Rabbi....

Please give me a strength to stay awake until dawn....

Please give me a better understanding......

Please put away those negative ions from me....

Please make me strong until 9th Jan....

(p/s: i hate when people force me for something i hate very much!)

taksedardirilagi

2011-12-26T16:09:00.000-08:00

Salam everybody....

Good morning...yes morning...i woke up early today... actually i planned to wake up at 2 am last nite, but i dozed off until 6 a.m...hua..hua..hua...

nak buek macam mano....setan kuat sgt...adoii...

Ok today i plan to study on 'acceptance' and 'intention to create legal relation'.....but im so freaking out on my computer's assignment damn much!....gilooooooosss!

i cant focus on my study if i still stuck with it...ohh damn. why?????.... dear lecturer, can we just forget about this assignment?.....we pretend like u never give me this assignment ok...?....pleaseeeee..........

satu hape pon aku xstudy lagi ni..*ok tipu* tapi aku study xmasuk kot! sbb aku asik pk asnmt ni jeee.....tido pon aku ade rase berdebar2..tp still continue tidow jugak laaaa *xdekesedaran*

ok la..ok la....aku nk study dulu!

(p/s:taparpipiakukuat2bolehtak???????)

post lagho...

2011-12-24T07:44:00.000-08:00

Salam uolsssss......

hehe....it's a study week... and my progression is so slow....

suddenly, rasa haruslah study betoi2 malam ni memandangkankan carry mark cukup2 makan je....

suddenly lagi, rasa nak tgk drama kat tonton so that i won't feel lonely as my room mate off to her kampung..untunglarumahdekatje**

suddenly lagii.... oohh tv 3 got new drama... pinoy's drama.. which is starred by dindong dantes and marian rivera...damn! i love this couple!!!... previously, im so in crazy with marimar... oohh why?? meyesal aku bukak tonton..kan dh rasa gila nk tgk drama ni...

currently im watching this drama while studying contract law 1, uhh..uhh...i know, its not really works..hehe..nk tgk jugak!!...

As my first glimpse of this drama..i think its not too heavy drama compared to marimar..marimar was so sad.. because i was cried when i watched it..**rahsiajgnbagitahusape2*

this drama seems like funny.... homer starred by dindong dantes is so nerdy and marimar, im not sure her name in this drama sbb baru je keluar dlm scene y aku tgh tgk while typing this...hehe.. but she is damn funny...energetic and boyish yet beautiful adorable yawww~~ oohh yes it is so dangerous... very dangerous one....because i tend to put aside my contract law which im gonna have the exam on 31st dec... so dangerous.....

nanti mula laaaaa nk emo tak tentu pasal dengan bota sbb tension tak habis study pastu mula la cuti tak senang duduk sebab pikir takot kene repeat memandangkan hari2 mase ade kelas law aku tgk ade senior yang maacam brilliant gila tapi terpaksa duduk ngn kitorang sbb mereka semua repeat paper tu dan mula lah aku terpakasa lupakan hasrat nak apply jpa scholarship utk sem depan oohh damn tak mahu sila lah tampar pipi saya ni sampai berdarah darah mulut ni pon tak pe supaya saya sedar diri ok dah titik

.so kalau nk tgk, silalah login tnton..tp kene sign up dulu...maka berbahagia lah hidup korang tu pon kalau line xslow....

(p/s: i love red like damn crazieeehhhhh...)

sigh...

2011-12-22T23:59:00.000-08:00

Bila aku sayang seseorang tu...

aku akan pastikan aku bg yang terbaik utk dia...

Segala-galanya...

Kalau aku salah

bagi tahu aku..

sebab aku tahu aku tak layak nk bagi nasihat kat org...

(p/s: im sorry if im wrong...saya cuma nak bagi yang terbaik utk diri kamu sbb sy nampak apa yang kamu mungkin xnampak...)

inspirations

2011-12-15T21:23:00.000-08:00

Salam Jumaat everyone....

Feels like,it was just yesterday i have my Jumaat and i met with Jumaat again today....Allah....how fast the time goes.. It's already December...feels like it was just yesterday i got the proposed letter from UUM. Not more than a month i will complete my first semester here.... Ya Allah, feels like it was just yesterday i finished my last paper on STPM... Allah..Allahh....The Almighty.. <3

Recently i've got drowned with so many workloads and i got stucked when i dont know how to handle it...seriously i felt like crying...crying like a baby...sometimes i dreamed to be a baby again... but i know that wouldnt happened again....it's a life cycle....we will not ever get a chance again to be who we are yesterday....yesterday was just a history... today is the time to create who we are for tomorrow...ooh what am i crapping about?...

I dont know what i am talking about..i just wanna share something. Yesterday i read my senior's blog.. i love it very much...very inspirational one... she is from semester 7 in our school of law.. i like her character, the way she spoke and the way she managed herself to survived in this law school..ohh Allah..please, please let me be like her...please give me a chance to be a best servant of yours... please put me away from those lag'ha things...please give me strong heart if i have to let go something that i love much....please ya ALLAH, i beg You....

(p/s: always sleepy whenever i wanna start doing my works... ='( ......)

tak tahu

2011-12-14T04:13:00.000-08:00

Salam...

Aku nak cerita ni....aku tak tahu sama ada aku patut bersyukur atau tak....

tapi aku tahu ini kurniaan ALLAH...

Aku seakan ada sixth sense... bila ad sesuatu yang buruk akn terjadi atau sudah berlaku pada org yang aku sayang, aku boleh merasainya....aku tak suka! sbb aku terseksa.....aku jadi terfikir kan semua benda,,aku jadi risaukan semua orang yang aku syg....terseksa wehh....

walau pun xselalu jadi tp kebayakannya mmg aku boleh rasa...

emmmmm...aku tahu ada yang yang memperlekehkan cerita aku setiap kali aku bg tahu mereka yang...''......patotla aku ada bad feelings jee..."... tapi guysss... im noy lying! its totally true!...dan aku terseksa dgn perkara ni...aku tak tahu ni kelebihan atau sebaliknya....

aku tahu ada yang tak percaya malah perli lagii....

tak pe lahh...aku redha..aku aggap ni semua kelbihan dariNya...

emmm....i really out o mood now....

carry mark aku utk final sem 1 mungkin akan dipotong...sem 1 penting...tapi....hmmm...

(p/s: sy syg awk....sangat2!......terlalu....amat...sungguh....!!)

wordless wednesday

2011-12-13T21:34:00.000-08:00

i miss to hug my cats....very much!...i miss the smells of them...very much! ok done with it...actually i couldnt belive that im wasting my time at this library...im not a library-person but i do love reading. But what can i do...i got some stuff to be done by this saturday but heyy look at me, im typing this.......such a wasting!

(p/s: hey girl...dont play2 with me cz i can play bettr than u!)

ehjidiwduchaeisudc

2011-12-06T11:15:00.001-08:00

aku tensionnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kbye!

si gebuku

2011-12-01T23:54:00.000-08:00

saat ini...

aku rindu si gebu itu...

terasa mahu aku gomol-gomol mereka..

mahu aku cium-cium mereka...

saat ini....

aku sepi...

tika dahulu merekalah pengubatnya...

aahh rindu lagi aku pada mereka...

saat ini...

aku hitung kembali kenangan dulu..

aahh sakit lagi aku...

aku rindu mereka...pada si gebuku...

wahai pencipta..

seringkali aku bertanya pada diri...

mengapa mereka sungguh penting buatku...

walhal mereka hanya si gebu...

si gebu ohh si gebu...

aku sayang pada kamu... terlalu...

walau kau tak bisa bercakap..

namun kau bisa mngerti perasaanku...

si gebuku...

mungkin ada yang mengatakan aku gila...

melayani kerenahmu bagai anak kecilku...

dan meratapi tika kau pergi...

si gebuku...

mengapa kau begitu dekat dengan jiwaku...

walau kau selalu kagetkan aku dengan karenahmu....

namun kamu tetap aku sayangi...

bagai ada sesuatu yang menyihirku...

mungkin....

aaaahhhh!!! si gebuku...ingin saja aku peluk,gomol,cium kamu!

f**ckin perfect

2011-12-01T23:32:00.000-08:00

***the song i used to hear and sang out loud whenever i felt like crying..***

Made a wrong turn

Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, missundaztood
Miss "no way it's all good"
It didn't slow me down
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I'm still around...

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me

You're so mean
When you talk
About yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices
In your head
Make them like you
Instead
So complicated
Look how big you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred

Such a tired game
It's enough
I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
See you do same

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing

You're fuckin' perfect to me
The world stares while I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and I tried tried
But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cuz they're everywhere
They don't like my genes, they don't get my hair
Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?

Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less then, fuckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing you're fuckin' perfect, to me
You're perfect
You're perfect
Pretty, pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less then, fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing you're fucking perfect to me

(p/s: tak pernah sesaat aku meragui apa yang telah aku lalui...dan tak pernah sesaat aku sesali apa yang aku alami, aku nikmati...)

pot..pet..pot...pett...

2011-11-30T22:36:00.000-08:00

Salam and hye guys.....

well actually i wanna say happy December guys! it's 1st December... ombak rindu dh keluar..hekhekhekk....

Ok sorry, forget that because that is not the main point im here.. lots to share la i think....

Firstly, since we are in December so the final exam is just around the corner...on my counting, i got another 29 days to get prepare for the final....and since i got homesick like hell, so i challenged my self to stay focus within this 29 days to make my self well prepared and another 9 days to give all out for the final exam so that i can enjoy myself thoroughly in the semester break. Alhamdulillah it has been almost a semester i live here. Hope Allah will help me.....

Well guys, recently i went for a short vacation in Perlis... Sintok and Perlis is just 30 minutes away if you know the directions. We rent a car and we are headed to Kangar-Kuala Perlis-Kangar and passed the Arau... i just snap a little of my own pictures and sunset as i drove the car, and not to forget to mention that i was there with my 4 lovely girlfriends which is mira, sha, ilah and aisyah...it was an enjoyable short vacation.. i loved the sunset when we stopped at Kuala Perlis for a dinner, and i also loved the dinner that we have that evening. yummyyy!! super deliciouss.....

a bit exhausted, but i love it... we shared car rent+dinner+petrol, and each of us just paid rm26++... and i planned to have another budget vacation...to gain experience and knowledge...

makan ikan bakaq tepi lauttt =)

tak sabar nak g langkawi lagi

subhanallah...cantik lukisan Allah

Before we went to Perlis, i got a chance to handled a short course...actually i just a treasurer of my team but play one of the big role too.... We invited Avon to be an image consultant and they give goodies to our participants in return...and got it too....the special one..alhamdulillah...

Lastly, yesterday i went to changlun. They got a night market on every wednesday night. Besaq jugak laaa... tp still ta sebaik psr mlm dekat kemaman lagi... the place is a bit dirty and i think they should close the road along the night market..maklum la malang tak berbau kan...fuhhh tergugat iman aku tgh diet2 ni... but my main reasons is to buy a handbag as mine previously dah putus oredy..... ingat nak jahit tp, dh xdpt diselamatkan daaaa.... so here we aree....

jgn terkezzzuuut! hehehee....

ok done my part today....tata....

(p/s: diet...diet..diett!!)

~~~

2011-11-29T01:10:00.000-08:00

time rajin yg biasanye seminit 2 je...

bila xde mood, ngantok,malas,menyampah,

Meja yang berserabut menunjukkan otak yang berserabut...~

memoir....

2011-11-26T04:22:00.000-08:00

Can i do wordless Saturday....??

i dedicate this post to my pets....*i know it sounds crazy...

with Love.Miss...

(p/s:binatang juga ada hak utk disayangi...)

Rawwrrr...........!!!

2011-11-22T02:11:00.000-08:00

Salam dear readers,

It's so hard to get the internet connection this few days and when i got stuck with the books, i need some refreshments. I need internet to get into fb or doing some blogwalking. I get mad when i unable to reached the connection though i tried so many times to load the web page, and i gets into double anger when i saw my roomate able to access the internet easily. When i get the connection, i was frustrated because it is so slow compared to before and my frustration became triple when it was disconnected off-handed before i can do anything. Another thing is...the facebook.I really dont understand why i cant commenting.Recently, my lappy got attacked by virus, and im truly mad rite now cz i just reformat my lappy 2 weeks ago! this time i swear i will never use avira again!! argghhhh!! this is stressful!!!!!

(p/s:im sorry for complaining a lots..it's not that im not be thankful for i've been bestowed but im so stressfull with my exam,and i easily to get mad! rawr!!!)

Pagi raya terasa syahdu...

2011-11-05T18:00:00.000-07:00

Salam Aidiladha Muslims....,

Yeah, today is the raya's day. Alhamdulillah i still be able to breath for Aidiladha this time. Thnx Allah for this rezeki. But you know what, Aidiladha this time were so much different than the last years...not really merrier...i felt so dull.... Because not everybody that i love is here.... Kak ya is working.. My elder brother also not here, and without my two kiddy's here which is my niece and nephew, xmeriah ahh rumah...

Bota also not here....hmm... i miss him very much. This is my first raya without him, and i felt so different since several days ago...rindu nya nk jumpa dia! :'( xpe lah..jauh di mata dkt di hati...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILAHDA MUSLIMS..... :')

(p/s: xde mood nye nk beraya...ermm.. :'( )

We are separated by the south China sea...

2011-11-02T04:10:00.000-07:00

Salam and hiii peoples....

Today is my 7th day at home... and this is my second time being home after enrolled in uum..

The first time was 2 weeks after the enrolment as im home just to say give a warm goodbye to him before he flew to Sarawak. At that time, im so excited to go home...

And this time, im home for my mid-term break...2 weeks would be a boring weeks if you just stay at home,watching tv,eat,sleep,up,watching tv again and bla bla blaa... This time is so different!..

At first yes im excited to go home..i miss mom badly! families yeahh...! miss them a lot... but after reached home, i felt relieve....no more felt missing them... But there is one other thing... and right now i feel incomplete....it's him.....

I miss him badly! i miss my bota so much...! i thought i wont feel this way, but im wrong.. Whenever i went out, ill think of him...because before this, lots of things we did together. Sometimes he accompany me to find the groceries...buy this buy that, shopping this shopping that bla bla blaa... almost everyday we will have lunch together.. and he loves kfc so much.. we really have a good time together, chatting this chatting that...laughed like crazy... fishing, accompanied him at the workshop, shared everything, talked to the phone till 4 am....oohh i miss those moments very very much! Ya Allah, please make us strong for another 4 years... after we complete our studies, insyaALLAH if the jodoh is ours, we will get into the next phase of life.. i know i just need to be patient, our time may not arrive yet...Allah asked us to wait....

Right now, he is damn busy with his assignments, we are no longer can spent our time talked to the phone until 4am... but still, alhamdulillah we can manage our pjj....it's not easy, ive got no confidence at first but he give me lots of strength...alhamdulillah again... honesty and trustworthiness is very important here.. and Alhamdulillah, we can put them to us... i thankful to Allah as he love me and i love him either...

and i also thankful to Allah because HE put us away from each other so that we can feel the true meaning of missing someone you love very much and make our love stronger....this may be one of the test for our relationship whether we are loyal to each other or not...well i know, Allah always know what is the best for us..HE love us, and HE dont want us to be so in love until we forget what is forbidden... Yes we are still so in love...and i can feel the love is even stronger....

Allah....permudahkan jalan kami sekiranya ada jodoh antara kami...amin..

ok ni gambar sblm stpm...Alhamdulillah fasa pertama dah selesai, sekarang fasa kedua kat universiti plak...degree with first class honour!

(p/s: Sorry kalau post ni agk feeling2....sukeatiakulaaaabloaku!..ehheee...)

:'(

2011-10-18T02:04:00.000-07:00

Im Paranoid....

Im afraid of losing something that i love more than myself....

:'(

I couldnt face the world if that happen..

Somehow, i know i should be strong no matter how hard it is in my future....

(p/s:Terima kasih ALLAH kerana berikan ak sense of sensitive y tinggi.....wlaupun ak selalu bersedih ats sedikit pun musibah y terjadi ke atas diri ak tp ak tahu ada hikmah Engkau jdikan aku begini...)

Tekanan akan sentiasa ada....

2011-10-11T03:37:00.001-07:00

Salam....

Just a short post to share something..

Alhamdulillah, aku gembira kehidupan disini...cukup makan,minum,pakai dan roomate y memahami...

Tp sgt2 stressed out on something...

1) Dr hari pertama strt kelas smpai la skrg, setiap saat, setiap ketika akan selalu terfikirkan akan kmampuan diri aku utk survive dlm course ni.... tkt sgt rasa...org study 2 jam je tp aku study 6 jam pon blm tentu masuk... bila luahkan pada org, mereka ckp..raihan u can do it...tp jauh di sudut hati..aku kurang yakin... :'(

2) Markah utk tutorial. Sbb lack of confident la aku jd pasif dlm tutorial session sedangkan...ohh plezz aku ada byk mnde nk bg tahu!... so skrg aku bmbngkan mrkah aku...n tkt nnti pointer aku pon turut tersangkut.. how bad.. :'(

3) Assignments. Seriously, aku xde group utk subjek MLS n Contract Law 1... Sedih sgt2 rase skrg ni bile kite xde group nk buat assignments....mane lagi nk pk group, mane lg nk pk kes,satelkan assignments...n aku tension sgt2 pasal hal ni... :'(

4) Body figure.it may sounds stupid but im not kidding... frankly aku stressed pasal ni..aku pelik...aku xmkn sgt, aku aktif, tp knape p aku blh chubby bila duk sini...aku trauma jd gemok :(

sbb bila aku gemok..aku jd xconfident.

5) Exam. Mid term dh xlame...n tup tap tup tap..dh nk final.cepat nye mase berlalu...aku msih merangkak lg..boleh ke aku dpt pointer baik..?

6) Family, Home.. I dont know how to describe how i miss mom very much, i miss my sis very much...setiap kali call mak mesti rase nk nangis....and hari2 pk nk call kakak aku tp cm xde keberanian sbb aku dh buat dia mrhkan aku...this is bad..!

7) Miss him... Sory la kalau korang meluat tp aku mmg rindu dia...beci weh tgk ramai student kat sini asyik berkepit ngn psangan masing2 ke hulu ke hilir...tp ape2 pon aku bersyukur, mngkin ALLAH nk uji kami...mgkin dgn berjauhan, kami akan lbh mnghargai antara satu sama lain....4 tahun je lagi.....sabar ye raihan...xlame dh....

8) Kesihatan. Sejak kebelakangan ni aku mmg slalu rase xsihat... mostly pening kepala dan sakit perut. Hari ni its getting worst bila aku xdpt pon nk berjalan ngan betul. Nasib baik kelas computer batal. Mid term dh xlame...final exam pon bln 12 ni, kuiz dan assignments,tutorial makin byk... ya Allah kurniakan kesihatan yang baik buat diriku... Hari ni rase xtahan je...so terpaksa call jugak mak utk ngadu..mmg seboleh2nya xnk pon ngadu kat mak, tak nak sshkan hati mak....tp aku kalah...aku terpaksa call mak, utk dptkan sedikit semangat utk lawan kesakitan2 yang tak terduga ni...aku redha, mngkin ini kafarah dosa...andai ilmu aku akan lebih berkat dengan cara ini.....aku xkisah selalu sakit2 pon. :')

9) Pemusnah. Benci ngan pengganggu kebahagiaan org...

tu je....dah lame xpostt something... actually ive experienced those pain when i faced too much pressure before...and i afraid if those pain were cause by the same reasons...

Please pray for my survival here.. ;)

(p/s: Nak beli kamus elektronik...mmg agak pricey tp aku pk aku sgt perlukan kamus tu skrg...so nk beli jgak...)

Alhamdulillah... :) indeed !!

2011-09-14T17:41:00.000-07:00

Salam readers,

Its been 8 days here in Sintok....err rase cam dh lame je... hehe... and as the time goes by, alhamdulillah i felt like im getting used to it *claps**claps**!! I think this is a blessing from my mom's praying..thnx mom, i know everyday u will pray to Allah so that i can adapt well here as i never been this far from home for such a long period...

I will be here for a 4 years to complete my degree in Law.. and i hope i can cope well with all the circumstances so that my new me will be produced in next 4 years ahead!..inshaALLAH!

So what can i say living here? Alhamdulillah, here got good facilities, good friends, good lecturer and lectures and very nice view.... i enjoy the view after rainy because i could see the hills and the mountains here was fogginess....subhanallah, very peaceful one and cold! its totally different from my first thought about uum before i reached here. Thank to Allah swt that i could adapt myself with the 100% English environment here... Actually, i never thought that i can speak better English here with all the chinese, indians and some foreigners,who cares about the grammatical error???? haha....Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah.....!!...

My weekend tomorrow gonna be fun! its gonna be filled with so many interesting activities such as a big Merdeka Day's celebration on Friday and go-kart thingy on Saturday!..yeayy...so that i xla teringat sangat dgn Kemaman and those people i left there......

^ My only breakfast on my first lectures started

^ Raihan(me), Mia and another Raihan =p

^From left: Eylaa,Aisyah,me

^with miaa,the kelantanese sweety

^Mia and my another Raihan(ann)

^They are awesome!

^On our Pledge's day...

^our uni's pasmina for the pledge ceremony :p

^on my enrollment day....i didnt cried!

Ok thats all....i got my Contract Law class later on 12.30 till 2.00...so need to get ready with the notes and some brainstorming so that i won't lost in Dr. Timothy's class.*ok he is freaking hot! hahaha...Let's do Dhuha first!

(p/s: Doakan sy agar solat hajat, qiamullail dan dhuda menjadi ibadah wajib buat sy..insyaALLAH)

Regards from UUM,Sintok...

2011-09-10T19:44:00.000-07:00

Salam all the readers....

Salam from Sintok, Kedah....

Yes...it has been 5 days im here since the registration day on last wednesday...

so far....sometimes im good and the other side, im suffering from homesickness...

i've started my first basuh-baju-byk2-pkai-tangan..haha bcz, ive got no coins nk gne msin basuh...amik kauu!...xpelah...first2 ni, ssh2 la dlu.... kan?

And now, im so bored...so tringt2 la back at kmn sane..

ok laaa...nk upload pics rase mls lgi...6t dh rajin ill upload...

doakan kejayaan saya di sini.... till then ...salam...

(p/s: yeayyy!...dpt msuk kelab go-kart utk ko-k!...eventhough my first choice was kelab kembara..but go-kart still in my wishlist range..so, happy! sangat....)

EID MUBARAK MUSLIMS :)

2011-08-05T07:38:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum, salam ramadhan dear fella readers :)

First and foremost, i would like to say Eid Mubarak to all muslims..

Alhamdulillah, Allah still grant me with a chance to meet another Ramadhan, Alhamdulillah again.

When i was a little, i don't really like Ramadhan because it is a fasting month. Hahahaa... you know rite...kids... what do you expect ha..? But as i get older, i learnt to love Ramadhan and now, i love Ramadhan very much. There are something different in this Holy month. I could feel the difference... There are something...yeah..i don't know how to tell you guys..but that 'something' gives me an excitement. I love the Tarawikh part and Alhamdulillah as far as 5 days we are fasting, i didn't failed to perform my tarawikh yet.*bestfrenXdtgLagi* :D

But guys...you know what...i hope this Ramadhan will remain longer than the usual. Because when Syawal come, that's mean im leaving here... pathetic... :'(

I hope...everything would be fine....insyaALLAH...

ok la... SELAMAT MENJALANKAN IBADAH PUASA KEPADA MUSLIMIN DAN MUSLIMAT SEKALIAN.... Puasa tu jgn puasa je semata-mata, SOLAT jgn tinggal...kalau tak, buat penat je puasa tapi tak dapat ape2...Peringatan utk semua dan diri sndiri jugak... Teringat kawan aku ckp dlu mse kitorang puasa form 5..."aku jahat,jahat la jugak..tp aku tak tinggal smayang, aku hormat mak aku..." hahaa..mcm2 kan?...

Tp bg aku pokok pangkalnye,jgn tgl solat...soal jahat ke baik ke seseorang tu...insyaALLAH solatlah yang akan membentuk dia nanti...NAK CUKUP SOLAT, KENE PAKSA DIRI TAW!

(p/s: Ya Allah,bersempena dgn bulan Ramadhan yang mulia ini..kurniakan aku dengan segala kekuatan diri Ya Allah! Kuatkan diri aku utk menerima segala perubahan ini....Tidak kira apa pun dugaan dan ujian dariMu utkku..Aku mohon....BERIKAN AKU KEKUATAN!..amin2 ya robbal alamin...)

i made a proverb for myself!

2011-07-29T22:33:00.000-07:00

Salam readers...

Im sleepy, truly sleepy and when that happened laziness strikes me. Whenever i felt sleepy when the times is i shouldn't felt so, i called it 'doesn't make sense sleepy' ok i know it may sounds over exaggerating but yeaahhh...aku tulis kan, so ske hati mak leer..hehe

Ok, so one month back, i found out something useful for myself.. Actually one day, i was woke up early in the morning which is around 5 a.m . I wanted to had some exercises with my buddy, mira at 7 a.m. So i don't slept back. Since i finished my school, i rarely wake up early, so it makes me terribly sleepy indeed. So i fbing but still it doesn't worked. So i decided to update my blog. I write something and it works!! Since i used English to write an entry, so it makes my brain work harder and i no longer felt sleepy yet energetic!...It came with a conclusion, "You will get doesnt-make-sense-sleepy when your brain isn't working" perghh..hebat tak peribahasa aku baru cipta ni??..haha...

So now i feel better....i can continue my work folding up all this clothes!

Till then..tata :)

(p/s:rindu lappy aku!....entry bosan xde gambar kan?...xpelah...6t aku kasi byk gambar once my lappy has been repaired!)

Different but still the same...

2011-07-28T06:51:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum fella readers! a bright smile for all of you =)

Ok i wanna share something that peoples are currently mad about tonite.... it's FOOTBALL timeeee!!!!!!!! well i rather like to call soccer than a football because it maybe look awesome..ngeehh,ngeeehh,ngehhh...~

How i called it and how you pronounced it, does not the matter. The thing is, this game brought me,you,them,they a similarities. Still dont get it? haaiiyaa.. let me give you some simple example, u cina, i melayu, dia pulak india...see, we are different races rite?...but no matter what the tradition we embraced off, those Malay, Chinese, India.....they LOVE FOOTBALL! Am i rite?? Ok please correct me if im wrong.. So this is the gist that im trying to tell you guys, different but still the same. Mmg power lah sukan bola nih!...

Why......................?

ill tell you the reasons...

1. My dad didn't slept early as he used to whenever there are a football match happened.

2. My elder sister became energetic and she won't sighed about her back pain, headache etc..etc..

3. My brother betted with his wife which team gonna win.

4. My friends talked something useful instead of gossiping.

5. 2 person with different ideology of politics could sat at the same table talked about football match.

and the last but not least....

6. itu wa punyaa balakk ignored my sms+es...grrrr!!!

That is why i write this...because i've got pleeeeeeeeeeeeenty of time...ngeeee~~ happy sgt! kan...? kan..? bota?...awk tgk la bola tu..pastu smbung citer hindustan plak k...xpe...sy xksh pon.. =)

till then..tata...

(p/s:tak bermaya je rse hari ni..ngantok mnjang...mm..ok ape2 pon kpd skuad Harimau Malaysia, good job!...tak berjaya pon xmngapa,cuba lagi next 4 years! chaaaiyookk!!!...bukan kalah tp msh blm brjaya...jgn rsau..aku ttp soskong Malaysia beb!..ok dahh, pedih perut tetibe..nk tdooo laaa..ngantukk...salam,gudnitess ;)

UPU RESULT

2011-07-26T06:26:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum....
greetings to all my fellow friends =)

It's been a while since my last post...the emo one..hehe....

At this moment i didnt say that im in the normal condition of emotional..im just in the so so mood, which is im gonna be fine with those motivational words and ill easily get spoiled if someone pissing me off..honestly my level of happiness is down, the negative ions are currently friendly sticking at me...

ok back to the main reason i write this....

i wanna tell you something..the good one maybe...

Last week ive got the result...my UPU result...

I didnt get a placement at UPM to study in education field, which is im bit frustrated because i hope i can fulfill my dad's dream...

On the other hand, i've got Law at UUM...which is my dream when i was doing my STPM. So here, i dont know what should i feel...im happy yet frustrated...

It doesnt worked as planned...

Im excited to study Law but im sad to leave here...

I never left my hometown since i was a kid...i never went to a boarding school or even staying at the hostel when i was schooling.. because i avoided that... i rather love to stay at home with my family..Frankly, i never stand on my own feet...

My mind setting before i get the result was....im gonna study at west area which is just 5 hours away from my hometown and i can even back home every weekend without any hesitation...

But it turns into another way...i've got at the north area, which is 16 hours in one single bus trip to back home...so i need to take a deep thinking to decide whether to back home or just stay plus with the monetary factors...i might back home only once in a month...insyaALLAH..

Im gonna miss my hometown damn much!..im gonna miss my family..my mom, my dad, my sis, my bota, my friends here...those good things...

My bota might further his study at UiTM Shah Alam..which is one in the west, and the other one in north...so we are going to change our close distance relationship into long distance relationship.. I dont know whether i can make it or not because we are not just a couple but also a best friend indeed! We shared everything, we did our activities together...i cant imagine how my life would be after this... There are no dating, fishing, gardening after this... im gonna miss those sweetest thing...He is my best buddy ever...

Im leaving this September 5th...my enrollment day would be on 7th September.. so plus minus, there are about a month left....

Guys, dont worry i wont leave here with hard feelings..currently im working so hard to boost up my enthusiasm, my level of positiveness, my eagerness, my strength and im also working hard to say bubye to my dear bad homesickness... i hope i wont cry on my enrollment day.

And im thinking about to get a new handphone which is way canggih ever than i currently used, to get an electronic dictionary because damn! ive found the other law-to-be student who got superb english and the senior too..they also got wallah english beb!.. i need to improve my english skills, get to know all those current issues, those law terminology and also the social skills..

ok lah...till then... tata

(p/s: inginkan hiburan!...sape2 nk bwk aku pegi jeram?..main netball..?..bowling..? waterpark..? please...do it now...i need it..badly need some entertainment!..oohh xde pic..sbb lappy rosak! syg knape rosak..please la behave ok..after this xde dh orang y rajin2 nk tlg baiki awk taw, im gonna be far from bota,physically)

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2011-07-14T03:51:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum....

Hye all... in just fine here =)

Today is 14 and tomorrow gonna be 15...

15...and everything will be revealed tomorrow...

I put aside that one first...

I wanna share something today...

5 July was my best friend birthday, and i forgot about it..shame on me!

How can i forget that?!

Im too busy with my life until i forget about others..

She never failed to lend an ear whenever i've got problem...

She never failed to accompany me where ever i asked her to accompany me...

She never failed to give me an advises whenever i told her my problems...

She is the one who support me when i was in my depression time last year...

and you know what?...she didnt even failed to wish me on my birthday last 24 march..

but me?...i forgot ='( im so sorry buddy..this is not me.... gazillions of sorry!

IM SO SORRY.... Happy birthday Hasmah..wish u all the best in life... ill always pray for your happiness...

that's all at this time...

(p/s: Seksa sgt bila kita terlampau sygkan seseorang....im so sory for being this way...oohh puasa hari ni..tp xde selera langsung nk mkn...kenapa mcm ni?....hmmm...)

Allah sentiasa ada...

2011-07-07T10:57:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum......
Malam....malam itu indah...ya indah....ciptaan Allah swt yang sgt berharga....

Malam telah dijadikan oleh Alah swt sebagai suatu waktu untuk hambaNya beristirahat. Berhenti seketika daripada kesibukan duniawi....

Yang punyai keluarga, inilah waktunya untuk berkasih sayang,bermanja ceria dan bergurau-senda...

Yang punyai perniagaan hatta sebesar lombong emas hitam sekalipun...harus gunakan waktu malam untuk berehat dan berfikir....

Tujuan Allah memberi malam kepada hambaNya juga bukan bertujuan untuk sia-sia semata...tidur...bergembira;...malah kita disuruh menangis...Menangis menghadap penciptanya di sepertiga malam.....sedikit waktu harus diluang kepada pencipta kita...mengadu domba akan segala hal dunia.....

"Andai kita punya teman seperti malaikat...

Allah jua tempat mengadu yng memberi manfaat...."

Menjadi gembira...itulah yang didambakan oleh setiap makhluk ciptaan Allah....

Namun disebalik kegembiraan kita...pasti ada yang bersedih....

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Manusia.....

Makhluk ciptaanNya yang paling istimewa...

Manusia.....

Kadang kala ego bermaharaja di dalam hati...

Manusia...

Sentiasa inginkan kemenangan...

Manusia....

Engkau terlalu sukar untuk ditafsir!

Aku sendiri...juga manusia....

Aku sendiri, sukar utk ditafsir....malah sukar utk menafsirkan sesuatu...

Kadangkala aku gembira tanpa sebab...

Kadangkala aku menangis juga tanpa sebab...

Lalu ku manghadap yang Maha Esa....

Aku butuh kan jawapan wahai Pencipta!

Lalu ku mulai mengerti....

Inilah dinamakan KEHIDUPAN!

Kadangkala hatiku penuh waja...

Aku tidak gentar menghadap hari esok,semuanya bakal ku tempuh dgn penuh semangat!

Namun ada ketikanya hatiku gelap gempita...

Aku takut untk bertemu dengan hari esok....

Aku terlalu gentar dengan apa yang bakal aku hadapi pada hari esok...

Aku seakan kalah dengan kelemahanku sendiri...

Aku tahu....Aku sedar...

Suatu ketika, aku akan ditinggalkan sendiri.....

Sendiri tanpa arah dan tujuan....

Aku jua tahu aku pasti akn menemui jalan buntu...

Setiap hari..aku cuba gagahi diri ini...namun seringkali aku menemui kebuntuan...aku terlalu takut....

Aku cuba katakan perasaan ku ini...namun tiada yang mengerti...aahh mungkin perasaan aku ini hanya dipandang enteng....aku perlu pakar jiwa!... Allah pakar jiwaku.....

Kdangkala aku terasa sendiri....

Aku takutkan kesunyian ini....

Jgn tglkan aku...

(p/s: Hidup penuh cubaan dan dugaan....hanya satu yng kupinta Ya ALLAH,...kuatkan hatiku walau sebesar mana pun badai yang melanda........)

Terima Kasih Semuaa....

2011-07-02T07:18:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...hye babes hello dudes...

Im back...yes back for another short entry maybe..

I know, it is so hard to find me writing consecutively, but yeaaa i did today because ive got something i'd love to share with...*ohh please spread the love now...* :B

Today... i was so happy! happy indeed ! I attended a friends gathering...

Actually, it supposed to be our reunion for ex-students Mentokian but unfortunately half of them cant make it...so we just decided to call it as 'The Friends Gathering' but still, i felt excited because some of them who came was my ex-classmate back in my primary school..so still the 'reunion thingy' did happened though...

Well...im happy to see most of them are running towards the exceeding of their life. I could see in the future each of them will be a physicians, an engineer, chemist, educator (hope ill be in the list too) etc..etc.. * im proud of them! they did well! *lets pray ill be like them too!!!!*BERSEMANGAT!

Hey you know what?.... all the girls are pretty indeed and the boys are gentle...i could see th

e way each of them spoke....it was so in polite way and down to earth which is much way different compared in our school's time. Now i understand what the old folks said..."People changed as the time passed by" How much the changes are and in which way they will be is dependence on how oneself relying to their Creator..

Ok lets make it short cz im getting sleepy and i cant wait to continue to read 'HOUSE RULES'...

But sorry guys, the photos isnt available here...i didnt bring my camera, if u wish to see those pictures, u still can see it through my Facebook..i thought i can save it from there, but it cant...So sorry guys for such a lame post without pictures !

No matter what...im happy today....alhamdulillah! Gembira dapat berbakti walaupun sedikit!..

*nah ambik buat tatapan.gambar lame kwn2*

Till then...see yaaa... :0

(p/s: Ada azam baru...wajib nk habiskan novel house rules ni no matter what ! Semoga berjaya mencapainya dengan redhaNya tanpa melalaikan kewajiban yg sebenar)

counting the days.....

2011-06-30T22:52:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum....

Hi dear silence readers :)

Currently i rarely updating my blog cz i dont wanna write anything without quality and the qualities come with my eagerness to write something...ok lets pretend that u understand what im saying here..hehe *bcz i know u dont* hahaaa...

Recently, i got the best part of mine *finally*..which is my thoughts turns into positive way, i less anger, less pissing off, and manage to handle some meshy bloody things well.. Alhamdulillah...

I really miss them like seriously!... and i am barely able to breath without them, *ok that was just a hyperbola* :P But to have back positive side of mine is something i really appreciate much. Finally Allah gives back my strength that i really need in my life... i felt closer to Him...i felt much lighter to spend my time to Him..Alhamdulillah again... Frankly speaking, i felt lost this couples of month..lack of motivational and enthusiasm. I hardly to woke up for subuh prayer and to perform my solat hajat as it used to be my routine before, and i think i didnt get full the act of filling whenever i homage my Creator...i felt shamed and week...

Then i realize that i less spent my time with Him...the One that i should hold a trust on...

Now..i can't wait for this 15 July... Dear Allah please dont let this servant of yours felt down again...i know You won't let me down...

No matter whats the result could be is....just please Allah, give me a strength so that i can face it and accept those qada' and qadar....

I cant wait to pursue to my next station of life... and this time, the main priority is MYSELF! i wont let my self down because of others... Except my family, education were the only thing i own for the rest of my life. A couple could ended up single, a marriage could brake up, a friend can turns into foe....so Raihan! please....first thing come first!...

Alhamdulillah ALLAH for this great feelings...i hope this will be continuous....

By this time, my graph of life is quite good with only some marginal rose of negative ions but the activity of positive ions are highly increasing... Alhamdulillah again... :)

And..oohh before i forget, i got some cat scratch last sunday and its a bit worst until i had to get an injection. But it is getting ok rite now...the bruise had gone and the wound dried already.. Alhamdulillah... I dont blame my cat though... they are innocent cz they are animal, i can still hugged and play with him after got back from hospital... The truth is, Allah is trying to lighter my sins....and i accept it as my kafarah dosa and it makes me redha eventhough i had to experienced the sickness until today and need to take the antibiotic for a week. *i pee, i burp semua rasa ubat,huhu* by this time i realize how suffer the life of person with chronic disease, they have to complete the course of medication everyday... and now i know why my bota doesnt like his medication whenever he fall sick... and he never complete the course until he fall sick again....

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One thing else, Tahniah kpd sepupu yang bakal menjadi milik org....rugi tak sertai, masa mak bg tahu tu...diorang dah duk depan pintu...dan aku masih dgn telekung solat...sah2 laa terpaksa ditinggalkan....tak pe...im so happy and i whispered to my self, that i will be as happy as my cousin is that nite...later.. Her time has arrived...and mine will be coming too someday..insyaALLAH... At this moment, i should concentrate to my study...i kept remind my self that i were just a kid.. and a good kid should fight for a better future in order to get a right man in her life....and im praying so hard that the right man will be my bota today! :)

Till then...tataa

*nahh..buat cuci mata.... :)

(p/s: Mungkin sesuatu yang kita inginkan itu nampak mustahil utk kita perolehi, dan remeh utk kitaa impikan mahupun tidak masuk akal...namun ketahuilah...di sisi Allah swt.....TIADA YANG MUSTAHIL...*kun faya kun*)

Morning Glory :)

2011-06-29T15:10:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum.....

Hai friends!...morning all....

I woke up early today! yuhuu yehaaa...! Alhamdulillah....

I promised my bff to have some jog today and we wished to start from 6.30 am this morning...terbaeeekkkk!!... and i woke up around 5.15.... and failed to sleep again even though i still sleepy by this time...So to make my brain works even faster, i decided to write thiss!!...Yeah i knowww...its been a while since my last post.....

Ok tak nak ckp byk...i feel less sleepy rite now....so its true, if we lets our brain works it wont sleep,plus they woke up 2 hours earlier than our eyes open!

err...

2011-06-23T09:37:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...

OK aku tipu....aku tak tido pon.....

Aku cuma nk..nk...nk...nk bg tahu yang...yang...

aku

GEMOK! AKU BENCI! AKU TAK SUKA BILA AKU RASA AKU GEMOK! AKU BENCI TGK CERMIN WEEHH!! AKU BENCIII...tp aku rasa nk mkn hamlet...ye aku taw..hemlet tu menggemukkan.....

(p/s: aku loser.......... aku terasa nak belajar drift je... AKU NK MSUK WWE esok...tu je kbai!)

Entry hangit cam shiiiiiit je...

2011-06-23T09:13:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum....

Aku tahu kamu sihat!..Bgus! Alhamdulillah...Aku bersyukur kepadaNya...

Malam ini...aku boring...yang teramat boring...

Mak takde,pergi lawatan JKKK katenye...Kakak besar pun takde,bermalam di trg...

hurmm...yang ada kat rumah cume abah dan 2 org kakak y lain...

Bagai jatuh ditimpa tangga...yang sorang gila korea,dr tadi duk layan k-pop...grr...

yang lagi sorang..study tak habis2...Abah?....pergi mesyuarat tingkap...

Aku dari bilik sendiri berhijrah pegi bilik mak,lepak2 situ....ermm terasa sunyi bila mak takde...rumah terasa kosong..kakak besar takde pon sunyi jugak...tak tahu nak buat ape dik nun!...

Aku tgk tv...semua channel aku bukak...takde 1 pon y berkenan...aku tutup...aku bukak laptop...baru 7 minit bateri dh out..aku mls nk gi ambik charger...aku pegi ambik bola aku main bola...aku pegi kat luar rumah,aku main kasut...aku taw...ape yang aku sedang buat ni mcm shiit je...jd aku tinggalkan...aku masuk balik rumah...grrr! gila bosan! Masa ni la aku terfikir... BESTNYA JADI LELAKI! Mulut aku rasa nk makan...aku bukak peti...3 kali kot aku bukak!...xde mkanan....aku xnak mkn nasi sbb aku dh mkn...Aku terasa nak mkn hemlet!..mmg kegemaran aku...aku teringin nk hirup milo shake!...shiit..milo dh habis!..Last2 aku minum air kosong je...aku hirup kuah gulai tempoyak aku buat ptg tadi (sdap wehh..haha) aku ratah ikan bilis goreng...sob..sob..sobb tetibe aku tringat mak..tsk..tsk.. aku rindu mak...Aku terasa mcm loser je....

Kan best kalau aku dah kerja?...mlm2 minggu mcm ni aku terasa heaven gila sbb boleh tido...mslhnya skrg...aku xngantuk...aku cuba tido tp xboleh!...

Aku baca buku,buku tu cerita sedih.buat aku lagi ingtkan mak..kenapa aku mcm ni ha??

Bosan...aku xd cerita ape pon sbnrnye...sbb tu aku jarang update blog ni..sbb xde pon y menarik...

Tapi aku hargailah kau orang sanggup baca sampai sini...

Tu je kot.....aku nak cuba tido sekali lagi....

(p/s: aku bosan..aku rindu mak,aku rindu kakak besar,aku rindu bota..... mungkin mereka sedang bersuka ria... aku harap mlm ni mmpi indah!..esk aku xnak tido lepas solat sbb aku nk lipat kain,nnti abah marah...tu je..kbai!)

i love peace!

2011-06-19T10:42:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum.....
hye dear readers?....how r ya doin?...
im good here...sorry for rarely updating this blog..with this kind of dull life, what do u expect from me to tell ya???...huhuu...

right now ive got some problem that killing my soul slowly...

ermm...i just need my own pace, really own..yes i know that i kinda isolated my own self from others just to get some relaxing mind...

it is indefinable...and im depressed indeed...

at this moment i just want to close my eyes, deeply breath, and listen to the tranquility of life...and i hope as soon as i open my eyes, everything gonna be fine as it used to be before...

pray for me... ~

(p/s: mendoakan agar DIA terus menerus mngurniakan diri dgn kekuatan hati dan sifat memaafi yang menebal....err dan sabar dgn ulcer ni..aduuuh sakit taw!)

errmmm....

2011-06-14T21:16:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum.....hye!

Today is a day with a good weather but not really a pleasant day for me...

im dropping by here just to tell you that im not really happy today..since last few days im down with motivational, and last nite i came to know something tht i better dont know about that...and SY SGT TERASA HATI!...

Thnx 4 those who just ruined my day... im just fine to see u happy...argghhh!!!! AKU DH SEMAKIN XPERCAYAKAN ORG!..

tu jee.....k,bai..

(p/s:i just need my dear bff here...)

Happy Teacher's Day!

2011-05-16T00:12:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...guysss!!..im backk cz i feel like blogging now :)

I just back home from my former school, celebrating the Teacher's Day...

As i write this,an idea crossed my mind...i think im gonna write an entry specially about Teacher's Day~ but not now, maybe later cz i need to be focused...

So now im gonna share with you something from today...haruslah ade photos kan???

This time i put the smaller size of photos. No reason, just playing around to see which sizes looks better in my blog. Ok this photo was taken after the ceremony, there are me and Jehan with our form 3's history teacher...Pn. Faridah... i got B for her subject during my PMR day but she wasnt the one who taught me. Oppss....!! by the time i typing this i just wondering where is my teacher for this subject?...i didnt see her just now..Pn. Siti Ramlah....how can i missed forgot her??..my bad :(...Emm...by the way, can you see Jehan?...Shes pretty adorable rite? i like to look her face..suci...hehe...~~shes already taken dude~~ hehe...

This was from my random photos during the Teacher's Day celebration previously. Actually i was ashamed to go forward and snapping around so that is why i just hentam kromo je amik gambau...~

This one was the photo's of me and Cikgu Raja. Actually she never teach me, but i came to know her when i was joined the Persatuan Silat Cekak Ustaz Hanafi 5 years back. By the time she was the teacher at smksi and she is very closed to my 2 elder sisters. When i met her just now to say some greetings, she smiled at me and mentioned my name like i am very close to her like my sisters. I was like happy cz she dont even know me but the way she talked to me like she know me very well...i love to see her actually, kecil molek....canteek! ank die cantek dan ~~hensem~~ jugakk..hahaha~ :p

Whereas, this with Pn Zaimah and Pn Faridah.. Pn Zaimah is our counsellor...From right, Naim and Nas....

The boys with our ustaz Muin... The teacher who taught us addmath but also the one who always will started his lessons with tazkirah or cerita teladan for us...I like him very much. He gave lots of advices, somehow i miss his joke although i hate addmath... :)

As i safely arrived home, i saw thisssss!!!!! heheeee.... oohh i got the parcel from Lipice! Wanna know further how do i got it???...simply visit www.facebook.com/MyLIPICE... You will know what the process you should do until u get the free sample...oh i got the strawberry lipice,same as i ever bought before.. You know what?...you will experienced minty lips after smudged it on your lips... :) i just love it!

Till then...salam...

(p/s: Oh mengantuk laaa....pagi td tetibe bgun dgn kepala y sakit!..migrainnn, please behave ok!)

i love whenever i felt i love blogging :)

2011-05-15T06:33:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum....

Hye guys....How are you doing??...

Its been a while...and for sometime i miss blogging very much!.. :)

So since i got the mood to blog tonite, without any delay i grabbed my memory card to upload some pictures....

Ok i know my birthday was in March and its Mei already...and this was really so last yeaaarrhh... but since i already promised to tell ya something from my bday...so here we aree....THE PRESENT! ... ehhemm..its from the loved one! <3 :) He bought this present like one month earlier... what is inside???... guess...guessssssssss....! its a lovely cutie adorable pretty bear!.. but waiitt...actually i got 2 things but let it be a secret alright?..hehehee...sorry..~and the bear?? dont wanna showing off :P . Thnx bota! i really appreciate it.. And received smses from close friends was one of the touching, happier thing ever...i dont care about the present, it just enough if u guys remembering my important date in my life and also your sincere du'a for me... Alhamdulillah, thnx ALLAH for granted me with such amazing friends :)

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Some random photos...

This photo was taken weeks ago. Recently, i love chilling at the beach and she is the one who always accompany me. *sila jgn jelez ye munirah!..hehe* thnx darl :) Do yo see?..ive got lots of pimples! arrgghh!

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ahaa...since jobless, i love to cook err actually cooking is must-do-routine everyday except for weekend..so here is one of the menu. local people at my place called "ikan barat" but i dont know and im too lazy to find what is it been called in english...i just know fews like, calamari and catfish!! aha...cz they are my favorite! :) its just a sweet sour dish... sdap mkn mase panas!

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This is actually the sauce. The chilies was not cooked well yet and i didnt add any addition ingredient yet to make it perfect....Hey this menu were so easy man, i bet u know how to make this..err what, u dont know??...go goole it!,thats what i do whenever i felt 'argghhhh what is for today's menuuu?????!!!!'.Guys, unfortunately i didnt snap the result...hehe sorry..~ sedar2..dh hilang separuh, but trust me..it's awesome! delicious!! :)

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Mean while, this menu is specially for those who on diet!..that's me!!... today i started diet again. Since i stranded here jobless, so i need to keep watching my weight. My normal weight during my f6 was 43 kg, but now seems like i gained 2 kg.... which is my weight now is 45 kg... and i started to felt uncomfortable because seems like i got some spare tire here and there...So no more dinner or supper!...ill cut some carbo and start exercise over again...i know it just 2 kg but 2kg can become 12kg..20kg..no!....its all about discipline yourself~ ;)

R E F L E C T I O N . . . . .

~Some people said, never take something for granted cz u will hurt at the end of the day, badly hurt. Even though i realize the truth, i still can't change the fact that im the person who always take something for granted. Im the kind of people who full with hope deep in my heart, i never stop hoping even for something i less sure.. i ever hurt before but it still doesnt change anything but keep hoping and holding..but it taught me a lessons, the valuable one.... :)

(p/s: Selamat Hari Guru!...Esk nk g skolah lame, nk nyibok sambut hari guru..hehe. Weh..mate xngantok lagi!...rindu botaa laaa... tlg la mata...please ngantok k???...nak wat pe ntah? agk2 kul 3 bru blh tdow ni...grrr!!..angsa ni bising laa....!)

surVey! :)

2011-05-04T08:33:00.000-07:00

Check it ouuttt babes.......

a. 5 names that friend call

1. rehan

2. raihan

3. rai

4. han

5. dik han

b. 5 most important date in your life

1. 24/3

2. 22/8

3. 5/4

4. 11/11

5. 17/6

c. 5 things you have done yesterday

1. cooked

2. slept

3. ate

4. sulked

5. wasted time

d. 5 ways to be happy

1. solat

2. reciting Quran

3. think positive

4. family

5. bota

e. 5 gifts you would like to receive

1. henpon canggih drp la nii...

2. sony vaio

3. purse*bota kate nk beli!!hehe*

4. hand bag

5. wedges/sandal

f. 5 favourite hobbies

1. chillin wit bota

2. blogging *depends on mood*

3. reading

4. cooking

5. mioww..mioww..!!

g. 5 places you want to go for vacation

1. vacation harus u berpoya2 kan??..haha so, New Zealand

2. Europe

3. Malaysia's island

4. Netherlands

5. Morocco

h. 5 favourite drinks

1. Tea

2. plain water

3. watermelon juice

4. coconut shake

5. ape2 laaa...

i. 5 things you always found in your room

1. bantal busuk

2. bunk

3. those bears

4. books

5. closets

j. 5 favourite clothes colour

1. white

2. red

3. pink

4. pastels

5. black

k. 5 favourite bands

1. backstreet boys

2. nsync

3.westlife

4. blue

5. the beatles

l. 5 favourite people

1. parent

2. family

3. bota

4. friends

5. tun mahathir

m. 5 hangouts

1. sungai binjai hehee..

2. pantai

3. m&m

4. rumahhh ajeer

5. kdai mee sup tmpt dating tegar! haha

n. 5 person you love so much

1. family

2. bota

3.friends

4. them

5. u!..hehe

o. 5 reasons you answer this survey

1. munirah la ni bg...hehe

2. aku suke jwb survey :)

3. bosan

4. ade citer nk gtau kt blog tp mls nk upload gambau dr cmera..so bia la dlu

5. tgu bota blk ngail

las nie keliru sikit. nak tag loser k winner?

xkire laa....loser..winner...ape2 pon we r 1 malaysia ritee..teheeee*tetibe

p. lastly, please tag 5 winner and not loser

1. tyah

2. x

3. kire

4. la

5. saper

(p/s:well actually i got some untold story to be published here....but since im too lazy plus sleepy, so here...survey from munirah's blog as requested! thnx :p )

i need to filled the empty road...

2011-04-22T06:48:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum....

Dear friends, how are you guys been doing??....i hope you guys been blessed by Allah swt....

Im doing good right now except, received a love letter from JLKN. It's annoyed me, i mean badly annoyed...lets forget it....i've came with an idea how to deal with it, the next step..lets just see whether its working or not.. *i pray very hard!*

ok... go for the next agenda....Well,guys, have u seen this blog had changed a lots?...well, the skin.....the pictures bla..bla.. but the thing is, i wanna say about the language that ive been used..lately i used about 97% fully english except for the "p/s". Actually, i wanna sharpen my english skills as im gonna step into uni's life someday and i pretty sure im gonna use lots of english later. Well people,actually im the kind of person who love english very much. But i know my skills isn't that good to be compared with others. So that is why i came with a decision to sharpen my english through blogging as im a school leaver who doesn't have an english classes as i used to have it everyday while i was in the form 6. By hook or by crook, to have a better english progression i need to do something and one of the ways is write in english. It's like writing an article in MUET except this way is much easier as i just have to write anything that i like and never worried about the grammatical error... and i dont have to worry about the marks too....*wink*

Guys, i know if the one who read this got a PhD in english(as if they will read this..~), im pretty sure that they will traced this entry with so many grammatical error,wrong sentence structure and bla..bla.. but the moment i made my mind to do this, i said to my own-self that nobody was perfect at their first try.. so in order to be a good english user someday, i need to get through this worst part first... learn from mistakes rite?...so i just dont care about the grammar...ill learn from one step to another...

But guys, im OPEN for any constructive comments.... do comment about my english progressing.. inshaALLAH, the worst part from mine, while the others from ALLAH swt.. :)

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(p/s: laptop diri sendiri rosak..bota sgt baik hati sbb tlg hantar baiki, lg baik hati bila dia bg aku pinjam laptop die..bota ckp sy blh buat cam harta sendiri cuma jgn rosakkan lptop die cam ape y dh aku buat kat lptop sndiri....syg awk bota!.....sy tetap akan byr kos baiki laptop tu wlaupun awk kate xpayah...*oh bota,kenapa awk sgt sweet u perkara y sy xjangka???...*touching* tetibe rase bersalah tgt perangai aku y kuat merajuk!..maaf ye bota syg.... Tp kan best plak pkai laptop ni....laptop bota lptop baru....nk pnjm lame lg la blh x????,,teheee~~ )

(p/s: masih terasa annoy dgn PLKN...tp ignore aje...sedang berfikir dan mencari kekuatan secara telus :)

(p/s: Allhamdulillah, dh dpt Medsi!...semoga ALLAH murahkan rezeki aku untuk dpt progrm perguruan walaupun hati masih lagi berbelah bhagi sama ade aku nk mnx ngn tuhan y aku nk course perguruan, lawyer atau english studies....ya ALLAH, al-Qahhar(maha menentukan), ar- Razzaq(maha pemberi rezeki), al-Alim(maha mengetahui), permudahkan urusanku ya ALLAH.)

(p/s: makin terasa cintaNYA dan cintanya.....alhamdulillah.)

(p/s:gambar2 tu sebagai inspiration yee...haha)

free from pms but still feeling down

2011-04-18T07:45:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...

Hello and hi dear readers, im back...

Well there are lots of things i want to share with you guys since my last post, but unfortunately there is something 'unlucky me' happened these few days..well it's like too personal to be shared, so it's gonna be in other more personal diary instead here.. As what i could say is, i felt terribly humiliated, embarrassed, and always burst into tears whenever it's appeared in m mind. Even though im getting better now, but it's still hard to be accepted and i will remember it for the rest of my life.

So,lets forget those meshy bloody thingy... and the thing that i really want to share since last months was.......I DROVE FROM KMN-KT!..haha ok, it looks lame but as im a new competent driver so im so glad when my parent hold a trust to let me drove from Kemaman to K. Terengganu to picked up my sis there...and of course, i've got mom as my co-pilot there... :)

Really excited and alhamdulillah my journey was blessed by ALLAH swt... and you know what, i dont stop recite any do'a that i know during my first kilometer...hope it will be one of my must-do-things forever and ever...

mmm...Cik Itriah,(if u read this) don't get jealous ok..please..i beg you...and never lose hope to get a chance like me :P..

So rasenye....tu je kot...tiba-tiba aku rase pening and nk tdow kot...cz tonite,everything seems to be so boring....fb...blog..tv....hurmm... bored......

(p/s: mlm2 cani,teringat lak time2 tuisyen mase f6 dlu...bez je rase...got friends around, got him, teachers, aku paling suke tuisyen sejarah dunia...rindu cg wan zainun..tehehhee..if u read this (i know u won't though...) i miss u la...bile nk blanje mkn?..i've got A for your paper ok...!..huhuhu..*bile dpt A sejarah...tetibe plak rase nk jd cg sejarah like her...huhuhuuu)

Uneasy =(

2011-04-10T09:28:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum,

Dear friends, u know what.... i felt uneasy this few days and there is no doubted to point to PMS. It's all your fault!....you just ruined up my days, i mean, i should enjoy every moment as enjoyable days without felt any burden....*sigh*...

Frankly, i'm still feeling guilty for not being a responsible person as i should be. If i could reverse the time, yes i'll fix everything...and make it perfect to everybody. Unfortunately, i couldn't cope to go against the faith.

I'm feeling weaker day by day. I turns into paranoid to face the future. I'm so negative right now. I wanna change and i badly need it...

Well you know what, someone who like me turn to be the opposite side. Well i dont really care if u dont like me, but please, i do got feelings....dont pretend like im not there whenever i stood there. I felt such a loser well like im invisible to you. I dont mind if u dont wanna greet me, but please, do respect me as your guest instead of invisible man. Hey! im not invisible okay!... NOT!... You make me felt, loser and suck..you make me hate my self like im the most bad person in the world just because of one misunderstanding.. Im too bad to you haaa???...ok fine, i'll accept that..thnx for giving me the best viewed of you at my first glimpse and now i realize im not good enough to be your friend...You make me invisible than ill make invisible too...fair and square rite??... ermm, you....i know u wont read this unless you stalked me, but if u do read this just no offence,bcz this is what i felt about u....i mean i wrote this just to show what did i felt all this while when u attended me that way...thnx anyway....

Till then, im sleepy...salam..

(p/s: period buat sy rse jauh dgn Nya....by reciting the holy verse, i felt so calm...)

HOMESICKNESS

2011-04-09T07:41:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum......

Dear friends, I may look tough, strong, fierce,rock etc..etc... but the real is, im so weak!...weaker than evaahh!...im not strong enough, yes! i admit that ive got fierce facial expression that good enough to make others thought that im not a mummy's girl. I may looked independent from the way i spoke, but the reality is....hell im not! dudes, babes, please take a note, im not like what you guys think....im suffering from....

HOMESICKNESS

amik kau..aku kasi besau! bold! merah lagiii..... haiizzz..... since my first day with nanny, my first day at kindergarten, first day at primary school, first day at secondary school, first day stepped into pre-university, till now..............

I even feeling homesick whenever been away from home or mom, tido umah spupu aku pon rase nk meleleh air mate niii....! hadoooiii paraahh..parahh...

So???.....HOW CAN I AVOID FEELING HOMESICK???!...help me!..please....gimme something... i need motivation....

tu je kot nk kate...til thenn...tata ;'(

(p/s: ngedate hari ni best sbb ngedate skali dgn ma si bota, adk2 ipar..errkk..bakal ..haha,abah si bota....kire, double,trilpe date la..*sorry 4 being a lil bit bimbo...)

I am a DUMBO

2011-04-07T22:41:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum....

Dear friends, this week....im not happy at all...

Im truly hate PMS!... it make me so stupid!....everything was sucks!!... i dont have any good feelings at all, i felt lonely, easy came up with anger,sulked, irritated, pissed off ...bla..bla... and i also hate my self!... why those negative thingy came to me at the same time?!...

I ruined up my sis's vacation- Having an Europe trip may be once in a life time chance.. Everything was ok at the first until i accidentally forgot to insert her camera's memory card back to its place. wth~! i was so careless..and now my sister really upset.. and hell no for me to borrow her camera again...no..no..no even touch it!...believe me, i know my sister very well.. im so stupid!!! i shouldnt make that kind of mistakes...served me right!...i give a slap to my own cheek for tht silly mistakes...mybe shes going to hate me after this?? im a bad sister,yes i know that...

At this moment i feels like, i am the bad girlfriend to him . He was so busy with his work and i kept asked him to have a time with me...i know, im bad...im so sorry...

I dont feels like writin more now...i need to nurse my own wound, i felt so lonely, pms killing me, im pissed of. im sad...im so negative right now...u know what?.. i failed to be short listed in MUnsyi .

So, i will not ever borrow any gadgets belongs to her...and im pretty sure she will not ever let me borrow them again...not anymore...its ok, i know, im wrong....

Second, i dont want to bother him, forcing him to have a time with me....if he need me, ill be there for him...

That's all....i need some time to get better...till then, bye......

(p/s: raihan, be strong.....Dia sentiasa ada... :)

Kerja satel...

2011-04-05T10:40:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum....

I've been thinking to start any new post with salam...which is something i rare to do when posting an entry. So i think this is a good start to blogging again.

Dudes, babes...i know i let this blog wilted for sometimes, because the beginning of 2011 doesn't went well to me. Im deeply struggled with my own emotion, feelings, heart...etc,etc.. So i just stop blogging for a while to get some space. Im not the kind of person who enjoy telling the public anything including personal matter. My blog is just a place for

me to share something not-really-into-personal...i mean, the things that i've been through is really personal....

Ok lets get into main point which is kerja satel.. kerja satel here is refer to this blog. Can u see the changes??...At last i give some fresh air to this blog to breath. Simple is nicer. ive been tired using blog skin which is not showing my self..i know the blog's header doesnt looked well, but i just love the way it is....let me express my self through this blog, the dumbo trying to be smarter!...haha..

Im thinking about making my self more creative while blogging...i mean the entry not just only a plain text talking nonsense. Ill put some motivational words refer to me

and you, or mybe putting some picture....so here we are..

But i realize that i am the kind of person who always sighted when things turn into chaos. Ive got no strength to be a person who really strong to accept it with smile...im praying so hard that i will be tht kind of person someday..inshaALLAH...

Till then.....~ salam..

(p/s:Kebelakangan ni aku rase sgt la mls....asyk nk tdo je keje....hishh...aku cm xde motivasi langsung nk stay up pagi2 after subuh...hmm,harus berubah!)

its 24th March 2011...

2011-03-24T06:48:00.000-07:00

First of all.....alhamdulillah, as my life has been this far....
im 20...yes 20...
Semoga ALLAH sentiasa merahmatiku....

p/s:im not really in write-a-pos mood since my card reader broken...haha...i promise,ill write about my bday laterr....which is lots to share!!...lots..yeahh...till then..salam

abc

2011-03-17T05:50:00.000-07:00

I dont know what to say...

im extremely bored!

thnx~

(p/s:ermm..hati menangis xsiapa y tahu....)

tetibe...

2011-03-14T06:34:00.000-07:00

Sangat rase tak sabar nak sambung belajar balik!....

Undang-undang atau pendidikan....?

harap dapat masuk universiti yang sama ngn incik bota!!...

counting........

insyaALLAH...~

(p/s:counting on 24 mar.....rindu incik bota,farhan dan ain!...)

malas....

2011-03-02T03:05:00.000-08:00

seriously it's been a while since my last post...

well...to much work with so little time erkk i know its sound lame like i am a student...

Being a school leaver were not that cool....im jobless...nothing to do but house chores.. bored!

I just can't wait for the next agenda......i meannn.... FURTHER MY STUDY!...yaahh..

pray...

prayyyy....

prayy hardd....

pray harder..........

and harderrrrrrrrrrrr......................

tu je nk ckp....thnx!

(p/s:well currently life treated me so nice except for some annoying things..... =.='...ok tu je kot)

ooo mama sy mau kaweenn...haha

2011-01-02T05:55:00.000-08:00

Now....mood dh bertukar cam arnab..*arnab cumeell...*bolleehhh laaa wlaupun aku cam annoy gila sal pagi td...still annoy tp teringat kate incik bota aka doraemon aka hero aka superman **haha..xpe2 aku taw gedikk gile kau bce kan..** kate beliau...dh la tuu.....jgn negatif sgt, xde pepe laaa, relax k jgn pk...positif sket....haha lebih kurang la tuu.. so aku ni pon terkial2 la disaat beliau xde nk mmpositifkan diri balik...ok back to the main point...Aku malas nk citer sedih2 nii..penat hotak aku...

So today cam bosing boran*ayt haniss...i lykee!!* sbb incik bota dh start keje... so aku cam mnghabiiskan mase ngn tdow..nikmat giler tidow td..cam enakkk weehh tahap mkn nasi panas2 time lapar!...ok ape point aku sebenarnye??..aku nak kawenn...haha like seriously..yeaahh betol aku xtipu..aku bukan gatal, aku cume trfikirkan sejenak,ye sejenak pon dh cukup buat aku sedar...aku nak kawenn wehh... haha agak korang pe yang parents aku akn ckp ok.ok jom aku gambarkan.....

aku: mak,abah...nk kawen blh?...tak ponn.. maaaakkk..nk kwen..nk jugak..nk jugakk!! *smbil tarik2 baju mak*....atau...mabk,abah...im growing upp n im turning 20 can i get married?....or last2... mak..u look gojes todayy...abh..wahhh pesall smart sgt ehh smnjak mnjak ni?...nk kawen la rase.... **haha..ape korang rase mak abh aku akan ckp?**

mak: Lu pehal gatal tak bertempat tahap xde ubat ?...result pon xkuar lagi...tak pon kene body language *paaanngg...!!!** hahah

abah: haaa..pedieee nk kawenn??? ade duit ke??..*abah aku cm sporting sket kan so xde la sadis sgt jwp die...

last2 mak abh aku akan ckp.... *dahh2..mengigau xabes2..pegi basoh kaki,tdoow...tu la jdnye lau asyik duk tgk muvie romantik jee...** sighhh... dlm hati*mak org btol2 la niii....

haha...cam bodoh je kan...aku tak tau pon cane abg2 aku ckp kat mak n abh y diorang nk kawen..sbb y aku tau last2 mak ckp *mak nk dpt menantu baruu ni..*

Point aku ckp nk kawen ni bkn sebab pe...aku terpk la kan...berkat muda mudi y kwen muda kerana nk elak maksiat ni...so thats the point!...aku xnk terus bermaksiatt..yeah i mean saling pandang memandang pon je kan dh kire zina mata..ape lagi lau duk lebiuu u lebiiu me...dating kt kfc*haha sv bdget* xpon tepi sungaiii ala2 60-an bagai...mancing udang tp xdpt2 **sbb aku byk mulut tye tu tye ni...jakunn wehh aku ni jarang sgt2 bleh pegi sungaaii..so cm excited gile**

Tp kan aku taw dalam usia aku yang masih mentahh...dgn xde fuluus, result pon xkuar lagi,bile kene marh sket dh bertaburan airmata bagaii...so cane??..mmg r mak aku cam kompiuus je nk bg kan..yeahh i admit that,aku manjee,aku mengaku,tp manje2 aku,aku still tough la...aku bukan mnje xbertempat..tp yess im ready for that. Bab masak2 xde hal sgt la kot...dan aku rase cam xsabar wehh nk ade ank sendiri..*hah gatal!*

Jujur...kalau la kami sudah berfulus sendiri mmg on la taon ni aku nikahh..hahaha..tp oleh kerana faktor budget and maturity so the conclusion is.....kita tunggu sat lagiii yee, study sket je lagii..tak lame dahh...insyaallah kalau jodoh dan rezeki tak kan kemana...yeaah berbekalkan itu,aku sedar yang perkahwinan bukanlah semudah makan abc.... perkahwinan merupakan satu perkongsian yng memerlukan 2 jiwa saling memahami dan berkorban demi kebahagiaan masing2 utk hdup bersama...and its not all about sex, its about our preparation to welcome little khalifahh in this world.. so marriage is not easy. Kita perlukan ilmu...ilmu rumah tgga,ilmu suami isteri,ilmu itu,ilmu ini.....sbb perkawinan itu bukan utk sehari dua tp utk selama2nya...*pray hard for here after too*....

(kaween!!...aku ambik gambr nii sbb aku sukeeee mereka berdua, secocok dan sportting)

(moga dpt keberkatan duk ats pelamin nii....aminn...fuh..fuhh..)

(kidds!!...haha...ni spupu aku,sweet..die tertido plak...2 berdua ank sdare aku..)

so habis citerr angan2 mat jenin aku...amin,moga menjadi realiti...

(p/s: tak sabar nk masak esook...incik bota nk mkn tomyam!...bersemangat!!!....)

beennnnccciiiiiiii......

2011-01-01T16:05:00.000-08:00

*amaran:post ni utk bacaan 18 thn keatas je..bcz theres improper language y suckz~!..so what? aku tgh marah nii...

Yesss...i am...! Aku benci bila permulaan hari bermula dengan aura yang negatif!!...Kalaulah aku ni prof. Dumbledor *ceh pengaroh muviie* pas solat subuh td aku trus sambong tdow blk...xde la ak nk mengadap segala mcm benda alah ni di pg2 hari!......trus je buat MOOD AKU CAM KERA!!

I SWEAR! IM OT IN THE GOOD MOOD...IT PISSED ME OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....

Aku benci bila jd camni sbb type aku ni mmg susah nk balik ke aura y positif just like that once terkena aura negatif... sbb tu dont pissed me off!....aku boleh jd anti giler taw tak!!!...

Aku mengaku aku tak perfect wehh...yeah nobody is perfect,aku jahat...well im sorry for that.... aku bodoh..yeahh thats the FACT!!

Aku nk marahh???...tak jugak..tp aku cume cam kecewa....aku dh agak daa,lega tu sekejap je..tuup2 dtg blk...kenape weeh kenape?!aku tersangat laah benci sekarang.... *hey gimme ur shoulder...i wanna cry!......sungguhh aku rase nk nangis...2008...2009...2010 apehall gloomy je hidup aku ni? today is the 2nd of jan 2011....perasaan aku cam ank monyet xcapai dahan,kecewa+sedihh....tp still nk bertahan supaya dahan tu blh dicapai...

Dah la,aku bukan nk membebel,,aku cume nk lepaskan kemarahan aku dan kekecewaan aku...tu je...aku taw ade stalker kat blog aku ni.....just behave urself if not dont come back!.....

apehal la aku kene tanggung sume ni sendiri???...aku taw menangis tu cam loser je kan..tp aku xkisah sbb menangis je y dpt buat aku lega dan berfikir!

(p/s:tu je kot nk ckp....tak perlu aku nk terang mslh ni guna 5W IH bagai...bru je smalam mimpi y indah2 dlm mase setahun ni....mlm ni aku kene bersedia mimpi burok balikk...yeahh im paranoid like seriously so what?... stay away from me stalkerr!)

Reverse..2010

2010-12-28T06:57:00.000-08:00

*AMARAN KERAS: Entry ni panjang wehh..dan korang akan rase berbelit2 bila baca....so better dont read..tp kalau dah dasar degil tahap kipas-susah-mati tu....ske hati korang la nk bace ponn...

Everyone were counting on 2011....same thing that we did every year...well, new year's celebration is not a big deal for me,(i mean the celebration, smpai sgup pegi celebrate kt KL bagai...)im not celebrating it at all except enjoy watching the fireworks *poom*paam*poooom*paaam!!* ape tuu,org puteh called, the new years eve.....ahhaa...wutever... hmm...but still, new year bring us big meaning... well same goes to me...tp xnk la citer sal 2011...lets reversed...2010....(still dlm taon 2010 laa...)

2010...penat baaii!..tu je yang blh aku describe sal 2010...penat giler bermaen dgn hati,perasaan,semangat y cam roller coaster...duk trun naek je..... 2010 mmg agk mncabar... Allah mmg bnr2 mncabar kekuatan hati dan perasaan...tak habis2... kadang2 org akan tgk aku cam happy je tp sbnrnye tak..hanya org2 tertentu je tau ape yang aku pendam dan aku pikul selama itu...berat sangat beban nya....dan bertambah berat bila aku terpaksa pikulnya sendirian. Tak mampu nak ceritakan semua pada org laen....aku betol2 penat....hari2 tak sah kalau tak de air mata..penat memikirkan tanggungjawab y dibawa, beban yang terpaksa dipikul..harapan orang..harapan diri sendiri...kebahagiaan...sengsara....semua tu betul2 memenatkan aku. Sebab tu aku kate aku PENAT...aku penat menangis,aku penat sorang2, aku penat berharap......tapi itulah pengorbanan yang terpaksa aku lakukan demi kepentingan dan kebahagiaan org lain.org yang disayangi...yang mnjadi nadi dan semangat kehidupan aku. Sungguhh....aku terasa ngeri *perghh hiperbola xbleh blah ni...* semua yang terjadi benar2 buat aku trauma....untuk hampir 2 tahun aku diburu kemurungan. Sampai pernah terdetik kat hati aku nk ambik anti-depression je bai... Aku penah pk nk telan ubat tidur...bukan niat nk bunuh diri tp sekadar mncari ruang keamanan sendiri, Tapi tu semua terbit di ruang pemikiran separa normal....oleh sebb kedua2 banda alah tu blh mnyebabkan aku addicted dan tido sampai xbgun2 so, aku matikan saje niat tu..bimbang plak sedar2 nnti dh kene soal di malaikat munkar dan nakir...ngeri wehh..nauzubillah.... so the solution is...face it and hold!....dlm hati sebak giler tahap fius-terbakar-xbleh-nk-repair!..

Aku penah tye diri aku...menyesal ke sumer ni jadi...well nk kate mnyesal xjugak....xmnyesal pon xjugak...ermm...aku tak boleh lari dr semua ujian ni....sooner or later aku akan hadap jugak...ape yang terjadi benar2 ajar aku pasal roller coaster hidup ni...dlm hdup aku, akulah engineer nye,akulah saintisnye, akulah dokter nye dan akulah hakimnya...*wehh pe aku merepek ni ha??*.....

Well byk bnda aku nk citer, tp olh sbb byk sgt...so aku tak tahu pe die nk citer... pendek kata thn 2010 ni...thn y plg byk la dgn teka-teki teka-tekuk.....aku pon dh naek kompius mne btol mne salah...nasib baek aku tak jadi giler je...lau tak,xde mkna nye aku nk menaip banda alah ni sumer...baek la aku enjoy hdup aku sbg org psiko...gelak sana gelak sini...relax je....xde mslhh...xpyah pk sal hati dan perasaan...xyah pk sal study....xyah pk sal nk beli ferarri....xyah pk sal nk berkeluarga...pepe pom xyah pk...easy kan...kadang2 bile aku terhimpit sgt dgn those bebanan aku rase jelez sgt ngn org psiko ni...*Allah itu maha adil.....*

Aku rase cm makin byk aku merepek ni kan2?....tetibe aku nganto r wehh....aku pon xtau ape sbnrnye point y aku nk highlight kan .....aku maen sdp tgn je menaip...biarlah...yang korang nk bce sagt sape suruh...kan dah kate entry ni cam panjang berjele-jele....berbelit-belit...nk korek rahsia aku ehh??... well the thing is....benda alah yang berlaku kat aku sepanjang 2010 ni sgt2 la sensitif,megguris hati,ngeri,trauma,fobia etc..etc.. dan begitu bersifat peribadi utk aku juz straight to the point..sometime the secret should remain as a secret. Alang-alang dh terpikul beban...biarlah aku terus pikul selagi kudrat roh dan jiwa masih tertahan...

Aku tak tahu ape patot aku cakap.....sbb aku penat sangat berhadapan dengan ni semua. Sebab tu sekarang aku tak cakap ape2.Aku btol2 penat...sumpah aku penat....aku cume nk rehat.

(p/s: cam xde hujung pangkal kan citer aku ni??...xpe lahh....ske hati aku la....haha)

gile-tahap-xde-ubat

2010-12-26T07:47:00.000-08:00

*tajuk tak melambangkan entryyy.....

Hah...criuzly...mmg terasa nk post something!..

Lame kot aku tak update mr.blog ni...sory darrrling!..

Ok,craps dlm 2,3 hri ni ape ehh...

well...xde pe la sangat cuma si destroyer umar ade kat rumah...so xde a boredddd sgt life aku nihh..

hmm...guess what?..aku nk amik lesen oooiii...*ok i know i was so lastttt yeaarrr but im madly excited dowwh!...it was likee...what raihan gonna drive a car???..*pray 4 me as i won't involved in any tut*tut*tut..well u know what i meann..heh~naek moto dlu pon dh baper kali eksiden-tahap-mmg-xleh-nk-dpisahkan-dr-aku...tp skrg...well im the pro ok!...tp still incik Doraemon tak yakin ngn aku cam tahap aku-bwk-moto-mmg-xpk-mati..haha,tp bagoss la kan? nk jadi bini die kan mst r kene jage koot..*eheheeee malu*

I cant wait wehh...pastu kann,aku nk cari keje! nak wehh...aku nk shopping!*errkk niat xbaek dh ni..* aku sbnrnye malu pd incik doraemon sbb asyik die y blanje aku.aku plak seb baek xkuat mkn sgt*kecuali lapar gler!*....incik doraemon,sabar ehh 6t sy blanje awk plak...

Skrang...aku cam slalu pk nk gi UNIVERSITI wehh...aku nk further study!nak jgk! by hook or by crook..*sbb kalau tak,mak xkasi kawen**hotak lu,gatal xingt!** aku cam xsabar gler nk dpt result..*ya Allah...satisfying result ok?*....

Waktu ni...agk2 aku dh makin kuat kot,malas dh nk sedey2 lagi...*im yours* rase cam past few years ni,aku asyik bergenang ngn air mata je...so its the time to get up and start the new one,b happy!..kali ni aku btol2 kene pk kan my own feelings plak!..yeeahhh...ALLAH sentiasa menguji hambaNya !!..

(p/s:i like this picha babe!...n miz u likee craiizeehh!...*tetibe aku nk blackberry!!...cpt..aku nk keje....nk keje..nk keje..)

you...yes YOU!!

2010-12-20T17:32:00.000-08:00

Be with me no matter what..and i'll be with you no matter how condition it is because thats what i've been promises u since the first u hold my hand...

sory for doubting ur love,now i know how deeply you love me and i will never let u down hon...

(p/s:maaflahh...mood entry kali ni pon asyik nk jiwang2 je...*haha sape sruh bace??..)

Saya punyai BOTA!!

2010-12-20T08:56:00.000-08:00

Hadirmu bagai mentari yang membakar semangat diri.

Mengenalimu adalah satu anugerah yang tiada tandingan.

Berpisah dari mu......takkan ada dalam kamus hidupku.

iHEARTu wahai BOTA kesayangan!!

saya yakin...

ya pasti...

terima kasih atas keyakinan itu...

no doubt, ILY!!..

(p/s:maaf entry kali ni mgkin brsifat agk mengada-ngada..haha biarlah ade aku kesah??..blog aku kan...sy rase teramat la lega sekarang...alhamdulillah...sbb dia sudah benar2 menyakinkan sy! *mak ckp blh masok minang** tipu je..mak ckp pas dpt degree la..hehe,jgn gatai!)

hati...

2010-12-18T01:19:00.001-08:00

Kenapa hati rasa tak tenang?...apa lagi yang aku mahukan sebenarnya?..terasa seperti ada sesuatu..tp aku tak pasti...ohh Allah, sungguh ku terasa berat. Kenapa harus aku terima semua ni? mengapa kebahagiaan begitu sukar bertandang di hati ini??.....berikan aku kekuatan ya ALLAH...semoga dpt ku lalui semua ini dengan hati yang kuat dan tabah...

(p/s:penat buat..tp xsedap,hum..kecewa.....)

tanam jagung entry

2010-12-16T20:28:00.000-08:00

hallluuuww everyone...!! *tajuk xde kene mengena pon ngn post*

mode very rajin nk post an entry...

guess what???...i just love the farmville,cityville etc..etc...like craiizeehhh!!..omg (very hulu laaa hehe) after xam bru la energy and adrenaline boost up to play all those thingy...bgus la kan drp addicted b4 stpm....

now aku jd bongok japp...asyik melayan this fb game 24 hours..(err..not really...)xpe2...dh hbs xam kann....

so noww..tgh tguu yoville to loading up...lame gilerr!..

(p/s:bangun hr ni tetibe mood rase nk senyum..tido smlm pon mcm tu..hehe,alhamdulillah)

school leaver for the second time....oooyeahh!

2010-12-16T05:31:00.000-08:00

At last....stpm is over!!!....well another experience after spm...hoohoolidayyy....

so how was the sptm???

Well....i don't know how to explain...some questions are easy but another part are quite tough...

but I've give my all out so now i will just pray for the satisfying result..hoping for 3.50 and above or 4flat! hehe...

BM 1=ok..im not really get into those tatabahasa...i hate it,but the questions was quite easy (but not really hehe*tetibe)well to be frank, im not really confident with my answers....

BM 2=hehe..i just love it!....i think ive done my best! *wiiinkk**

P. AM 1=i think the questions was wayyyyyy easy than the trial and those OTIs....hoping for the best,cz i love general knowledge!

P. AM 2=i've completed all 5 section!...but im not confident with the graph cz i know im doing some SILLY MISTAKES!!..errghhh..*sigh*

KMT=i want A!!...all outt dahh tu rse nyee...

KMM=same jugak....this one, double all out aku bg!

SEJ 1=hurmm..ok..not satisfied!...and im not confident...but stiil hoping for an A!

SEJ 2= same goes with this one...tp nk A jugak!!!!!

thats the chronology.....im praying so hard to get 4flat....tp mengenangkan sej cam poooraahh je, cam sikit tercalar je impian aku!...how to get law if sej aku cam loser je??...duuuhh...

This January,if not my mistaken...the MUET result will be announce..aku nk band 4! serious niii...aku dh letih ambik for the third time...level of difficulties muet hari tu cam same je ngan mid year...for the previous result i got 3...another 3 points to get band 4...see??...how pathetic...

Lets do some last effort....

*praying! harder babehhh...

*solat hajat selalu

*fasting...insyaallah...

*sedekah dan beramal jariah..

hoping for the best this time....for my parents......

(p/s:im happy today because all the burden has been awayyyy, alhamdulillah....*i heart u so much!!..thnx ALLAH for my happines...)

survey...

2010-12-12T17:59:00.000-08:00

1) selalu bangun pagi pukul berapa?

~ awl weh aku bngun...4.30 paaaaagii!!

2) ramai kawan lelaki ke kawan perempuan?
~ perempuan.

3) bila 1st time korang bercinta?
~ 2009..waah gedik je bunyi!

4) tahu memasak x? masak ape? (paling superb lah yang korang tahu masak)
~ tahu sikit-sikit. hehe. laksa penang kire superb tak?

5) perkara paling lucu pernah berlaku dalam hidup korang

~ semangat msk lauk y perghh!! tp time nk mkn lpe lak nasi xmsk lg..hehe

6) perkara paling gila pernah korang buat

~ kahwin lari.

*HAHA. hotak kau! mana ada!

7) jawatan korang time skolah (menengah)
~ PKP doww..bangge mak,abh akuu..haha

8) selalu keluar dengan member tak? berapa kali dalam sebulan?

~keluar pegi kelas kire camne ekk???

9) dengan kawan2 guna bahasa aku/saya/nama sendiri?
~ AKU.saya.nama sendiri...sume pon adeerr.hehe

10) dah berpunya ke belum? if dah, berapa lama kenal si dia?

~ sy adalah kepunyaan mak bapak sdn.bhd

11) perkara yang korang paling pantang sekali apa? means memang korang tak suka lah
~ menipu!.kaki kelentong,talam 14 muke,bz body etc..etc

12) if ada orang yang baru dikenali minta no tel , apa respon korang?

~ buat muke toye je aci tak?? haha

13) bila ada duit je , korang suka beli apa?
simpan dalam bank :')
*HAHA. menipu!
~ to4 kot

14) nama glamor korang time sekolah
~ maria sharapova!..perggghh..ape kes cg pgl cm tu?? maen tenis pom xreti haha

15) korang selalu habiskan kredit (sms/call) kat siapa?
~ hahaha...loser punye soklan..

16) sudah tercapaikah hajat korang?cerita la hajat apa

TAK....pathethic btol soklan nihhh.nextt!!

17) ape yg paling korang geli gila2 gelilah !! huhu

~ geli dgn mende y menggelikan aku..haha

18) pernah accident/injured (teruk) tak selama ini?
~ jatuh ats psau dpt 12 jahitan je stakat ni y plg truk kot..

19) perkara yang paling menarik minat korang? sampai korang lupe kt

boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife lah! huhu
~ tak tau ler..cz people who i love come first

20) perkara terakhir sekali yg korang nak buat kat dunia ini
~ mengucap

*eh, boleh terima tak jawapan ni?

Tag 10 orang yang blog nye cantik :
tak kire laaa...y prasan blog die cantik cam aku niihh..haha

(p/s:malas nk update blog....................)

Aidiladha itu tandanya stpm dah dekat!

2010-11-17T15:02:00.000-08:00

Salam....aidiladhaaa...

Good morning Malaysia!!!....hehe..jap2 nk try good morning UK!...xpon good morning New Zealand!!....ahakkss....ni snrnye hajat yg tak kesampaian nk gi ovc..tp xpelah, rezeki aku kat malaysia kot...

today for the first time since we're moving to our new home....aku dengau bunyi ayam berkokok,tp kan pathetic gile kot!...cam ayam yg dh nak mampos je..hahaha...kesian but still beliau mnjalankan tugas beliau sbg ayam jantan..syabas!

oke...today bangun agak lambat,ahakkk*aku bergayut smlm,jgn gtau sesape! hehe...tp still aku xoverdose tido,bnngun pagi2,anak dare yang nk jd isteri mithali kan?...haha...

tau tak?giler bongok la aku ni....study sket je...tido lak yang lbh selasa ni dh la dh start STPM...apehal aku leh rilek lg ni?? aku pon xpaham ngn diri aku nih...aduyaiii....

okehh....i need to start working now!..yeah working like a machine so i wont feel gazillion of regretting after thiss...

till then......tata!!

(p/s: mlm ni ade BBQ!...syok wehhhhh...aku xsabar,tp aku kene study! yeahhhhh...jgn overdose gembira...ehh tp xpe la kot,ngn family je pon......)

MUET....

2010-11-13T05:32:00.000-08:00

ok today, i've done with the MUET....

i've done my best best and the rest lets ALLAH decide....

hoping for the band 4 this time...insyaallah..

still in-english-mood...haha...

till then....tata

(p/s:pms,killing me!..)

sekarang

2010-11-12T05:49:00.001-08:00

sekarang....sakit sangat bibir ni,ok ulcer thnx for cheering up my day..

sekarang....rindu tersangatlah rindu

sekarang....sunyi,yes i am..esok xam! sume org bz..

sekarang....sakit sana,sakit sini, kelmarin aku jatoh mase nk slamtkan kain2 kat ampaian dan kesannya sampai sekarang...

sekarang....sy tak jamah sebiji nasi pon,sy bnr2 hilang selera mkn...

sekarang....sy tak tahu nk wat ape..

bye..

(p/s:huuurmmmm......)

Bila....Tp Sebenarnya...

2010-11-11T23:37:00.000-08:00

Bila sy kate sy sekuat tiger...

Sebenarnye tak....sy lembik sangat,sy selalu menangis dan menangis selagi hati sy tak tenang...

Bila sy kate sy OK...

sbenarnya tak....sy tak ok sgt2 dan sy perlukan maseutk sy pjuk hati sendiri...

Bila sy kate sy tak kan menangis....

Sebenarnya tak....time tu la sy akan lbh banyak menagis dr kebiasaannya.....

Bila sy kate sy tak merajuk...

Sebenarnya tak......sy merajuk sgt2,nada sy pon dah lain.........

Bila sy kate sy nak tidur.....

Sebenarnya tak.....sy bukan nak tidur,sy cume nak dptkan ketenangan sementara...

Bila sy kate takpe.....

Sebenarnya tak, sy btol2 kisah dan sy xsuke........

Bila sy kate sy boleh....

Sebenarnya tak....sy menipu diri sendiri,sy tak tahu ape yg nak sy kate lagi.....

Bia sy kate sy xsunyi....

Sebenarnya tak.....sy sunyi sgt2 dan sy btol2 nak doraemon sy!

Tapi bila sy kate sy sayang.....

Itulah yang sebenar-benarnya lahir dr hati sy...

This is LIFE...kan?

Aku akan cuba sdaya upya aku utk bertahan walaupun aku tak sekuat TIGER ...

Hidup ni penuh try and error kan....

Sekarang aku tau aku byk sgt megeluh...Dia baru nk uji sikit tp aku dh menangis mlm2 mcm hilang anak je...

Besar sungguh dugaan ni....

Sy nk tuhan kurniakan sy dgn ksabaran yang tinggi dan jauh di sudut hati, sy tak nak membenci sesiapa....selain dr diri sy sendiri yang hars sy benc!

(p/s:masihkah ada sinar dan harapan...??sy btol2 mengharapkan keajaiban)

Cemburu..

2010-10-28T21:57:00.000-07:00

Aku cemburu tengok org happy sbb aku nk happy jugak..

Aku cemburu tengok org blh gi jalan2, sbb aku xtau aku nk g mane...

Aku cemburu tengok org drive kete, sbb bapak aku xbg aku drive..

Aku cemburu tgk org makan sbb aku tengah diet....

Aku cemburu tgk org cantek sbb aku cute je...(cehh)

Aku cemburu tgk org pandai sbb aku xbijak...

Aku cemburu tgk org g shopping sbb aku xleh g shopping...

Aku cemburu tgk org gila sbb diorang xde msalh....

Aku cemburu tgk org pki cmera DSLR sbb aku xde...

Aku nak jadi 7 tahun blk boleh tak....???

(p/s:terukkan manusia?...xpenh nk bersyukur..aku lah tu....life must be go on no matter how hard..)

M.I.M.P.I

2010-10-25T03:30:00.000-07:00

Mimpi semalam sungguh indah.....andai dunia ni mcm dunia doraemon mesti kita dh boleh masuk dalam mimpi yang indah tu guna pintu ajaib..(ok,mengarut kot)

Tapi kan.....realitinya.mmpi mmg selalu indah...tak seindah kehidupan ini...sbb tu kita panggil MIMPI...mimpi....mimpi...dan mimpi...zzzzZZZZzzzZZzzzZZzz...

SEBAB TU AKU SUKA TIDO!...

tu je kot nak bagi tau....

(p/s:hati....silalah kuat!.....btw,aku suke lagu ni(xtau pe tajuk)...)

Hati....

2010-10-22T09:11:00.000-07:00

Nak bahagia mesti ada pengorbanannya....

(p/s:ermm....benci sgt perasaan ni....)

Insomnia...

2010-10-10T15:07:00.000-07:00

Mana mungkin aku insomnia...

Aku raja tidur..

Study sikit..

Tidur pulak yang banyak...

Aku boleh jadi GEMUK sebab tidur banyak

Tapi, aku tidur jugak..

Sebab tidur itu dunia aku..

Aku dan tidur tak boleh dipisahkan...

hari ni..bace sikit je sejarah islam...selebihya aku tidur...wth..ape ni???? tak membantu pembangunan negara betol!

(p/s:..MATA...silalah jangan mengantuk hari ni!!!!.)

Kalau dah namenya PEREMPUAN

2010-10-08T06:03:00.000-07:00

ok the feeling were like hell..

rasa betol2 nak shopping ni!

tp kan...tak de duit lah...

i need new jeans..seriously it's 70% off...who can say no??

i saw nicole blouses for 50% off..erggh help me,i need to be rich now!

i saw cute sandal for RM45.90 only..

i saw baju kurung,very nice one but a bit expensive RM130++

i saw and i tried that gelang..nice sangat..RM30

anyone...??? silalah blanje saya..hehe

shopping is like a therapy,u will enjoy the moment you get all ur stuff..u will forget all ur problems, u will feels like u r the happiest person because u get all u ever wanted..

ok...i do love 'confession of a shopaholic'...

i will be rich someday...

ill buy all the items that i ever wanted

i will travel around the world

last but not least...i wanted to get married..haha*gatal giler*

(p/s: kepingin pizza lah.........)

im in the good progression...

2010-10-08T02:08:00.000-07:00

ok...td ade blog-walking...nice sangatt...cri inspiration sket nk boost up smangat aku blk...

alhamdulillah,semangat semakin dipulihkan...xkan pernah kecewa sekiranya kita bergantung harap pada Yang Khaliq...

ok skrg rse cam nak tukar skin blog..cari yang ceria2 sket...

pastu nk stdy la plak..huhu...

yeahhh GO..GO RAIHAN!!..

(p/s:im tired of being stupid!...aku nak 4flat stpm ni...no matter what!!!)

Sejenak.....

2010-10-07T02:00:00.000-07:00

Terasa begitu banyak perkara2 lagha yang dh aku lakukan..

kadang2 xsedar, kadang2 sedar tp buat2 xsedar...

Ya Allah,ampunkan hambaMu ini ALLAH...

tanpa keredhaanMu...aku bukanlah sesiapa...

(p/s:manusia....sering aje terlupe,buat2 lupe tp Allah itu terlalu Maha Penyayang..walaupun kita sering melupakanNya,tp Dia tdk pernah tidak menolong hambaNya....)

hati menangis tak siapa yang tahu

2010-10-06T15:56:00.000-07:00

Kenapa aku rse mcm ni skrg?...

im totally lost!!

aku tak taw ape cita2 aku sendiri..

aku xde rase demam utk stpm..

aku xde semangat mcm org laen..

ak dh cube cari smngt tu tp aku xbrjaya!

skrg aku ibarat mkn lauk xde rase..

ermm...

aku tak tahu pada sape sepatotnya aku luahkan sume ni...

kwn?...arhhh..aku tak nak bebabnkan mereka..

dia??..ermm, dia punya mslh sndiri..

pokoknya aku xnak bebankan mereka dgn masalah bongok aku y xsudah2 ni..

Ya Allah...sungguh aku rase kecil skrg ni...

aku malu pd diriMU Ya Allah

aku perlukan kata2 semangat.

baru aku taw y aku sbenarnya langsong xkuat walau pd hkikatya aku slalu bg kekuatan pd org laen...terasa diri begitu hipokrit,brlagak xde mslh dpn org laen tp sbnrnye dlm ht hanya tuhan yang tahu..

andai aku punyai kuasa nak je aku trbang

pergi jaoh dari cni.....

(p/s:kdang2 biarlah kita mnderita asalkan org y disayangi itu bahagia kerana kbahagiaan mereka mmpu mmbuatkan kite gembira.....)

problemssss come and go....

2010-10-02T04:57:00.000-07:00

there is about a month left before the stpm....

ouucchh..u know what?..im deeply in laziness..

damn u evil!...u ruin up my last moment before the battle.!

and now im suffering from the pain at my 'ibu jari kaki'..

i dont know what is the problem, but i think there is something to do with the joint...

(skit gler okeehh???...ciap denyut2 plak tu..)

i need to send my PA'S homework tomorrow but im still doing this

hurmm...its getting hurt!...someone pliz help me!..

(p/s:oh Allah, please be with me...)

i miss u mr. blog!

2010-09-30T06:05:00.000-07:00

Dear Mr. Blog...

im so sory 4 forgetting u hon!

im bz...

really bz......

yess im bz.......

(ok...sometimes buat2 bz je..)

But i never forget u...the place that i store everything.. :) :(

and will never forget!..

Mr. Blog...

my battle is juz around the corner..

so im going to be really bz from now on...

starting from 23 till early December...

and there will be an extra classes b4 the battle..

Mr. Blog...

u know what?...im deeply in jealousy when i saw my friends stepping into university..

i want it too ok!...

i dont want to be left behind..again...
ok...not again..

Mr. Blog..

suddenly i hate facebook!!

......

(p/s: lonely......but thnx Allah, i still hv U!)

SAYA PEMALAS~

2010-06-17T05:41:00.000-07:00

Saya dah jadi sangat pemalas nk buke blog....tak tahu kenape....
xpe.....sy akan cube rajin2kan diri ni.....

blog berkutu,kelumur,kulat....

2010-04-29T20:24:00.000-07:00

salam....

haiizzz....berkulat lg blog ni utk kesekian kalinya...
bkn pe bz beb nk hadap blog mengupdate...
so kubiarkan sj kulat2 tumbuh menyeliputi segenap area..hehe

ok apa yang blh aku katakan....hidup buat seberapa ketika ini begitu hebat dgn DUGAAN!
apo nk dikato???....sabar je la... sesungguhnya y buruk itu mmg dtg daripada diri sendiri,aku anggap ajelah semua ini sbg kafarah dosa aku hambaNya y bnar2 lemah...

Persahabatan suatu ikatan yang suci...tp jgn lah cemarinya dgn sikap kebudak2kan kita tu ye...
sesungguhnya kita diatas muka bumi ini hdup bermasyarakat, komuniti...bknnya sorang2...ataupon dikelilingi robot yang xberperasaan...so org sekeliling pon punya hati dan prasaan spt diri kita ni jugak....kesimpulannya pandai2 la jaga hati org kalau nk hati kita dijaga ni tak....nk hati dijaga tapi sebaliknya tak pandai nk jg hati org...cmne org nk jg hati kite??...

post ni bkn lah berujuan utk mnjatuhkan sape2...tp andai y terbaca ini terase,maka...tepuk dada,pk gne akal!!....sy ni xpnh nk double standardkn mne2 kwn....tp adatlah dlm persahabatan pasti ada org y akan serasi dan tidak...andai serasi dgn seseorng itu then go on,im okay..tiada paksaan... dan jgnlah perkara kecik pon nk bsr2kan... ya ukhti...sy pon punya perasaan,bak kata J.M Aziz...penyu menangis siapa yang tahu???...sy mungkin diam tp xbrmakna diam sy itu sy mmbenarkan.... sy mungkin sabar tapi xbrmkna sabar sy itu sy merelakan.... pendek kata,diam itu lbih baik,sabar itu lbh menguntungkan..lbh2 lg kalau kite deal dgn api..baik la aku jd fire extinguisher(ngn current pon slmt ape...) drp aku jd api jugak...

Mujurlah msih ada insan yang mmpu mgmbirakan ht ini....thnx a million awk!!

(p/s: sabar je la ya raihan.... pelangi menanti sesudah gerimis....)

at last..

2010-02-12T00:55:00.000-08:00

sesungguhnya...haihh..blog aku ni dh lama xdi update...jnji aku pas xam mesti di update,dn skrg aku update walaupon cam bodoh je ape y aku update ni...really aku malas dan bosan dah nk update bendalah ni...sbbnye...xde citer mnarik plus card reader rosak pulak tu lappy antik ni xde bluetooth...k itu je,sekian...*cewahh*

(p/s:padah bile kite mmbodohkan diri utk sesuatu yang bodoh....STOP BEING STUPID RAE!)

2010....

2010-01-01T07:37:00.000-08:00

Its 1st January 2010!!...

2010

and the thing is.....

im gonna sit for STPM!! or Sijil Tinggi Persekolahan Malaysia...

and its freaking me outttt!!....gile sekejap je rase...

rase cam baru je aku daftar for lower six tp tetibe dh upper six..perghhh!!..

tahon lepas lenggang je...ahh lantak stpm lmbt lg..(lupe diri kejap)

tp skrg...ohh no more excuses RAIHAN!.strive for it!..jgn gagal lagi..

so aku dh ambik langkah pertama td...baca blog Dr.M and buat vocab,bace perihal negara yang dah aku tinggal kan utuk beberapa bulan(cebok hal dunia lah konon)

Aku nk kne gile jd nerdy bookWORM which is DAMN LOVE sejarah subject!..the pathetic part was...i failed..i repeat..i FAILED sejarah...malu gile seyh! aku xpenah fail sejarah kau paham tak??...P.AM plk cam cibai je,lulus cam xnak lulus.. BM?..sebagai seorang y cintakan bhasa(oohh ye ke??) i supposed to get better..BETTER! tp bitter plak y aku dapat...

so the moral lesson is... JGN MALAS! KALAU MALAS,BODOH LA ENGKAU..

(p/s:esok daftr skolah..last.pas ni aku sumpah nk daftar kat universiti plak!.)

azam tahon lepas berjaya gk..hehe...turun 10 KG..thn ni nk turun lagi 3-5KG..hehehe

Perlis to Langkawi...

2009-12-24T08:19:00.000-08:00

Aku pegi ni dalam awl buln ni lahh...bertolak mlm jumaat sampai laa isnin pg bru sampai blk cni...
Pegi ni pon ats ihsan kakak aku y offer aku pegi...as die de meeting kat perlis then org kate alang2 menyeluk pekasam biar sampai ke pangkal lengan..office die buat la lawatan 'lencongan' skali ke langkawi..Tapi sempat la bermalam semalaman dlm bas...semalaman kt kuala Perlis n semalaman lg kat Langkawi...

Dalam Bas...
My attire was like sempoiiiiiiiii gile haahaa...n the backpain was like hell!..aku tdow je mlm tu..seb baik perot xmeragam sbb aku hirup sup tulang yngg hoooooooooot DUDE! Perjlnan y memenatkan...16 hours kot, dlm area kol 2 pm bru leh check-in hotel pe ntah..legaa!!...kakak aku g meeting aku plak pe lg...msj DIE xrply aku pon dgn sng hati nye beraduuuuuuu lah sbb i was like damn tired!..

Kuala Perlis..
Bangun je dr tdow aku pon g la mndi segarkn bdn...n jamak solat.Pastu tgk tv...rase gedik sket ambik la gambar..hehehe..(worst part of mine!) bosan jgak..perot lapar ni tp diet..aahhh biarla perot,aku biarkan aje kau berdendang...bosan dude..aku pon msj la die...die xrply jugak...haizzz bikin panas ni...xpe2...so lepak la dlm bilik sorang diri tggu akak aku ni blk..nk dkt maghrib bru blk..thn siap2 g mkn...akhirnye...aku mkn jugak ahh lantak kau la diet..org dh blanje ni..kate org rzeki jgn ditolak maut jgn di cari..aku tibai je sgale ape y ade...lapar la weyy..

Langkawi..
Kat jeti tggu bkn main lame...tp xpe xcietd ni nk g langkawi...menyingkap blk knangan lame haha....my las visit to langkawi was 5 years ago..really miss that moment!..langkawi=shopping,shopping=langkawi....gile byk less..tp malangnye aku dtg ngan akak aku so xde chance sgt la...ade tu ade tp xsbesar chance lau ngn mak aku..perghhh sakan r aku..hahaha..
u noe wut?? we r overnite kat hotel berhantu!..ceshh..tp dh letih sgt,lantak lah kau..esok tu...akak aku shopping lagi...tp xpe.utk snak sdare jgk... thn nak feri blk k kole perlis smule..

Kuala Perlis...
Naik bas...blk trg...yehaaaa yabeda bedoooo...! wut can i say,perjalann balk y menakotkan...mujo le umor aku pnjg lagi...gile btol driver tu, tau la nk sampai cpt tp slow2 r...aku ni xkawen lg i repeat...xkawen lagu taw x??..haizzz

umah...
Home sweet home..walau mane pon destinasi y aku pergi, xkan ade tmpat seindah rumah sendiri, sampai kol 4 pg...n tdow ngn hujan renyai2 was like heaven!...selamat tido jiran2 ku...

(p/s:rindu air,farhan,umar sgt2!....ermm...dh jaooohh mlm,sy nk msj ngn die kjp n tdow...slamat malam dunia....assalamualaikum...)
*xde gambar la dude!..aku mls gilew nk snap2 ni..haha jnji aku dpt pengalaamn

mencari mood..

2009-12-24T04:50:00.000-08:00

saat ini....walau klise je bunyi nye...tp aku still mencari mood aku utk ceriakan blog-y-dh-hmpir-nk-mampos-ni!!....
biasa sgt la dtg idea time2 aku bru nk tidow...esok bile nk tls blk tup-tup dah hilang...wth..!
owhhh 2009 bkl mniggalkan aku dengan seribu satu kenangan.pengajaran.manis.masam...
Aku tak thu APAKAH y harus aku rasakan saat ni....konpiuussssss...

(p/s:periooooood pain is heavennnnn (mak ckp msti positif)...)

at least ade post..

2009-12-21T10:13:00.000-08:00

nak post something yang menarik tp still xdapat cari idea..ohhh blogg ni cam dah kene serang anai2...sy kene jd pemusnah serangga agar blog sy xreput camtu je ,walaupon pd dasar nya kt luar cantik tp bila pijak tangga korang pasti rase seram je nk masok..bimbang jd mangsa timbusan rumah runtuh...menakoootkan!!

(p/s:PMS sntiasa buat sy pesimis dan mendorong sy utk menangis!...tolonnglah hujan skrg spaya sy boleh tido dgn lena!!!...)

Pn. Shahida Begum Ismail...where r u????

2009-12-08T23:41:00.000-08:00

not in the mood to blog at all but there is something bothering me...
last couple of days i was dreamed about my teacher..Pn. Shahida Begum bt Ismail..yeahh i still rmmebr her name and how do she looks like..

Tapi yng jadi Big Question Mark??
knape tetibe cegu blh msok dm mimpi aku...
Then, aku mula terfikir....agk2nye kat mne die skrg??..(she moved to UK last 3 years ago)
Beliau ckp dlu y beliau akan berada di sana dlm 3 thn after her husband finish his PhD.
She did gave me an email tp die xpnh reply pon...hadoii.. we r juz lost our contact..rinduu btol kat die..Beliau ni ajar aku BM mse form2,3...bezz...x garang n sporting gile!...dia org utara n got homesick too...hehe...

Cegu...i know u won't b able to read this, but here ill always pray for ur happiness and hping u will be blessed with beautiful adorable children....till we meet again...

(p/s:sy merindukan seseorang yang tak merindukan sy...heh..thats the facts of life, we need to face it no matter how DAMN we dont want it..)

guruh di langit...

2009-11-29T05:40:00.000-08:00

its been more than a month...oohh lupe kan...

Baru2 ni aku slalu je menerima perkhabaran gembira org di disekelilingku...ya aku senang mendengarnya walau hati x sesenang dahulu..
Aku gembira dengan perkhabaran kalian yang baru sahaja mecapai satu lagi tahap dalam hidup korang...aku akan sentiasa doakan korang...

Aku plak??..oohh terlalu teringin utk mencapai kebahagiaan itu, tapi bukan semudah yang disangkakan, sabar! raihan....

Hidup ini ADIL..suatu hari nnti yang insyaallah pasti akn tiba masa untukku akan aku senyum selebar-lebarnya...seperti brjaya memetik bintang di langit dan manggapai awan yang memutih...aku hanya perlu SABAR dan terus BERSABAR ats semua dugaan ini...

(p/s:kadang2 terlalu byk soalan yang tak terjawab.....)

tagged :):):)

2009-11-21T05:36:00.000-08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with d wedding plan! At the end, choose d people u want to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know about u!=)

1. How old are you?
eighteen!

2. Are you single?
ahah!!erkkk..its complicated chewwahh (kunun)

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
20, lagi staun lebey..ahakahakahak!! despredo btol

4. Do you think you'll marrying the person you are with now?
sapekah diye???...yang tu?..yang ni?...mane sattu?..hehe

5. if not, who do you want to marry?
Dia y brnama LELAKI lahh..ape daa

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & best man?
ehek!ehekk!!...sape ehh..alah xpenting..jnji aku kawen..haha

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
garden+beach+traditional=MIX bleh??..haha

8. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
mooncake tu kire camne ehh??

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
ajk wali je udah...hehe sv bdget cket

10. Will that include your exes?
depends if i have one or not...hahahahaha

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
5,10,15...3 dh la..membazir tp each layer bsrnye satu mja fmily k..

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
morning lahh...lg cpt lg bagos hahahaa!

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
ngaji kor'an dh...sejuk je dengau!

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon,fork and knife?
no food provided ok!..haha,buat time pose lah...

15. Champagne or red wine?
hoiiihh..cibai btol soklan

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
g honeymoon dlu xleh k??hikhikhik...mautnye jwpn

17. Money or household items?
no money no talk!..haha

18. How many kids would you like to have?
2 team futsal dah la...sng nk prctice

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
ade plak nak record2.....kalo nak sgt, baek psg live je on national tv....hahahaha

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
anyone lah...esp CIK ITRI????

Mencari sinar kebahagiaan..

2009-11-21T04:35:00.000-08:00

Its been awhile aku tak update blog ni with segala-apa-lipur-lara-hidup. Bukan malas tapi cam tak de hati langsong aku nak bercerita...well still being sad actually,ape kah kesahnye??...ermm well sy rase xperlu utk sy jd seorang yang terlalu terbuka utk kesah itu. Biar saya,dia dan mereka yang tertentu saje yang tau...Lagipun sape la yang suke mmbuka pekung di dada sendiri? jaoh skali menyelak keaiban org..ooohh sy mugkin bukan orang yang baik tetapi sy tdklah sejahat itu utk menjaja segala cerita..lets personal remain personal, yang xbape nk personal je lah aku gtau cni ekk..

So hows life??..
holiday??.. Suka utk aku katakan dicni aku bukanlah jenis yang terlalu gemarkan cuti yang panjang...yeahh mybe skrg je kot aku akn ckp camni...but yeahh, since dlu aku xbrape sukekan cuti skolah yang panjg except ade xtvt y best with my buddies. Tak tahu la nape, im not d pelik person but UNIK ok!..
Cuti yang dh nk hampir msok seminggu ni, really xterisi langsong dgn perkara yang sgt2 berguna xcept bgn di subuh2 harii...(ooohh aku suka bau haruman embun pagi..)
Apa yang aku buat...Tido yang banyaaaaaaaaaakk,so dat i could forget all d meshy bloody(makCik ajr ni..hehe) things, makan biskot cecah teh panas lyke heaven,tgk tv,onlineeee,house cores,maen kuceng..tidooo again..haah tu je kot,sangat TAK membantu utk tingkatkan produktiviti negara!

Today..??..
Menunggu perkhabaran drp seseorang yang xkunjung tiba, walaupon die dh janji!..oohh pleazee i hate this part of urs..and thnx cz u juz help me to distract my decision..Online kjap2 ngn lappy kjp2 ngn henpon..how bored!,xnak makan tp terpaksa mkn sbb aku dh rse senak perut y amat td..oohh esk aku xnk mkn nasik! ermm..ok klau mkn pon sekali je dlm pnggan y kecik..(hampehh!,ckp j la lau xnk diet tuu) and td bce blog dira then tetibe rse nk update blog y nazak ni..

Tomorrow??...
Got class! General Knowledge..cant wait to get lost from this bored routine..hoping aku gembira esok...

(p/s:helpp mee!!..lambat btol bln 12..looking 4ward 4 Kedah Trip..hrp2 mnjadi)

cehh xde kene mngena langsong ngan TAJOK!

boringness!!

2009-11-18T00:37:00.000-08:00

01. what's your middle name?
-posh...haha,xnak la aku..

02. how big is your bed?
-queen size..so wut do u think?

03. what are you listening to right now?
-naah..

04. what was the last thing you ate?
-nasi...ooohh im getting fatter!

05. how is the weather right now?
-rainyyyyyy...zzzzzZZzZzz..

06. who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
-cegu..

07. what is the first thing you notice in the opposite sex?
-attitude,,,yeahh

08. favourite type of food?
-tom tom yam..

09. do you want children?
-ooowhh yes!yes!...gedik jee

10. what do you drink?
-air laah

11. fave holiday?
-idk...lame dh xg holiday..

12. favourite season?
-school season..uhhuukk??

13. have you ever cried over a boy?
-~speechless~ next..!

14. last movie you watched?
-transporter

15. what books are you reading?
-megubat 7 penyakit hati..

16. piercings?
-no at all....

17. favourite movie(s)?
-cant recall

18. what are you doing before filling this out?
-reading those blog

19. have you ever loved someone?
-yeahh always...ekekekeee...sounds gedik enuf haa??

20. are you hiding something from someone?
-ohohhoo yeaa...hehe

21. first thing you thought about this morning?
-solat first..

22. favourite hangout?
-idk..

23. 3 things/persons you cannot live without?
-spec,oxygen,money...harharhar...

24. what are you afraid of?
-Allah s.w.t..

25. what are your nicknames?
-wonder rae!

26. who would you tag?
-anyone
-who
-interested
-???

no title

2009-11-18T00:09:00.000-08:00

speechless,bored,hurt,pissed off,betrayed...bla..bla..bla...end of the story....hahahahaaa!!!

p/s:getting nuts oredy...

over game

2009-11-10T00:35:00.000-08:00

salam to all readers and bloggers..
seems like my blog dead again, yeah i know.. there are so many things happened recently and i really have no mood to blog at all plus 2 weeks xam y really show my stupidity, oohh the prob really bother me and i couldnt give my 100% focus on my study..

Tengok ahh nnti msti teruk gile result aku!...ahhh raihan stop it, i promise dis cuti ill study all sort of things y aku dh tertinggal mse lower 6 and after that focus on upper 6 syllibus, i still hold on my promise to perform well in stpm yeah i want, i need and i crave for 4 flat... and at the same time aku nk topup blk masa with HIM.. i don't know how to say but without HIM im no one... kesibukan aku dah buat hubungan antara aku dan Dia semakin renggang...bodoh btol diri ni! stupid! idiot! fool!....aku tak tau dah cane nk menzahirkan kebodohan diri aku ni..

Ok seems the xam is over so i think i need to start to re-schedule everything.. rase cam nk wat part time jugak do this do that....kalau blh aku xnk buang mase cam tu je cuti n bile dh duk saje tu disamping kerja ternak lemak badan ni msti nanti teringat blk sume kjadian2 yang berlaku...arghhh no way i wont let it ruin my life. yang pasti aku akan buat sesuatu yeng berfaedh spanjang cuti ni! yeahh... go..go raihan!!

(p/s:knape manusia xblh hidup dalam kejujuran??...even ngan diri sendiri pon nk menipu..ape daaa...ooohhh saya really nk pegi ovc!!)

confession........

2009-11-08T01:20:00.000-08:00

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....

..........at this moment juz wanna say SORRY GUYS FOR HURTING ALL OF YOU....

im so stupiD!.....yeah i know that..

sy tak sehat...

2009-10-15T21:05:00.000-07:00

sayer tak sehat walau pon pd hakikatnye sayer nampak SEHAT..
Minggu y menyeksakan with those JARUM!..
malam2 tido sayer ditemani rase sakit yang amat!...2 hari dah sayer xtak gi skolah..sronok ke??? naahhh boring dayz with the pain..
sayer nak cepat2 sehat sbb mggu dpn sy nk g camp!!!
please my PEROT jgn sakit k.....

moral of the story....makan tu ikot jadual n no more heavy ~~diet~~
cik itrie sy fhm dah ape awk rase bile awk kate awk gemok tp orang lain kate awk kurus...
adekah sy ni anorexian>>>,,,no way..full stop

caffeine boost me up :)

2009-10-04T07:37:00.000-07:00

ok as i was regularly took caffeine lately so here are some information about 'em...

Caffeine is a drug that is naturally produced in the leaves and seeds of many plants. It's also produced artificially and added to certain foods. Caffeine is defined as a drug because it stimulates the central nervous system, causing increased alertness. Caffeine gives most people a temporary energy boost and elevates mood.

then, as i always felt whenever i took this drug..

Got the Jitters? (yeah n hate it so much)

Many people feel that caffeine increases their mental alertness. Higher doses of caffeine can cause anxiety, dizziness, headaches, and the jitters. Caffeine can also interfere with normal sleep.

Caffeine sensitivity (the amount of caffeine that will produce an effect in someone) varies from person to person. On average, the smaller the person, the less caffeine needed to produce side effects. Caffeine sensitivity is most affected by the amount of caffeine a person has daily. People who regularly take in a lot of caffeine soon develop less sensitivity to it.(thnx god i still can control it). This means they may need more caffeine to achieve the same effects.

Caffeine is a diuretic, meaning it causes a person to urinate (pee) more. It's not clear whether this causes dehydration or not. To be safe, it's probably a good idea to stay away from too much caffeine in hot weather, during long workouts, or in other situations where you might sweat a lot.

Caffeine may also cause the body to lose calcium, and that can lead to bone loss over time. Drinking caffeine-containing soft drinks and coffee instead of milk can have an even greater impact on bone density and the risk of developing osteoporosis.

Caffeine can aggravate certain heart problems. It may also interact with some medications or supplements. If you are stressed or anxious, caffeine can make these feelings worse.(oohh i never drink any coffee whnver i got the school test) Although caffeine is sometimes used to treat migraine headaches, it can make headaches worse for some people.

aha...i think my passion towards this drug still under control as i only take it whenever i was like hell need it, yeah there is tons of homework to be done nowadays...ohh can i hv the doraemon pocket plesh??..

but lately i took lots amount of caffeine i guess and i could feel the migrain attacking me rite now rite here. Hoping this could be stop soon...............

for those who can stay awake naturally, oohh never change it and never try to get addicted with it, trust me guys..

(p/s:u know what?... ape2 pon yang kite buat, control it instead of they control us..dats y im not really addicted with caffeine, juz have it when ive got tons of homework..till then...tata..)

happy belated bday guys...

2009-10-02T08:29:00.000-07:00

okay as i promised before...to write a special entry to all my bff...(hanya utk mereka y smbt bday jew..huhu)..

first person...incik AMIRUL NAIM B. ROSLI..was born on 9th april 1991..
weyyhh...beso dohh mu tp aku still jd y sulong..ha3..k as ur bdy was on our holiday so i was nearly 4get...sorry broo...aku kan jd puteri lilin kat umah.. ok we hv befriend since 10 years ago..pergghh lame gak tu,since i was on standard 3 at skp..org ckp die charming tp aku cakap die mcm hantu!..har3 suke hati je kentot dpn aku (jgn mrh...) die ni bjak gak la,currently completing his diplome in electric engineering at uitm dungun..life die bg aku agak good in progression kot.. kerjaya yang mantap!(bkl tauke sate brjya ni..), awek y cun..(smpai aku rse cm xpdn lak ngn mu..ho9)...hobi die for sure suke mnyusahkan aku n kuat mrajok (oppps!..terlepas plak..) ok..happy bday to u..(belated actually) mayy Allah bless u all d time..and may our friendship last 4 evr..

second person..the twin..cik RAFIDAH N RAMIZAH RAMLI...4th july 1991..
ni rafidah je...gmbr ramizah xde..gile pyah nk amik gmbr dorang ni..huhu...dorang ni identical twin so korang agk2 je la cane muka mizah tu, mmg sejibik cam kakak die ni.. i called them as brainy twins...sbb dorang bijak..hehe we has befriend since form 1 n aku knl rafidah ni dlu then ramizah...cz ramizah ni cam criuz cket org nyer..huhu tp ble dh lme2 knl 2 2 pon sempoi.. currently rafidah in gambang matriculation while ramizah in johore matriculation gambang... u both, happy belated bday, be strong!...i know u 2 can face all this life challenge,study smart yeahh...!!

third person, cik ITRIAH AHMAD MIZAM..arrived on 16 july 1991..
mak cik ni sgt la mengade...ha3...ok we has befriend since we was 11...kemana saje sy pegi msti ade die...mengade btol...ske ikot saye..haha2 tp kdg2 sy yg ske ikot die...haha..bkn pe sy kan kuat,wlaupon agk kurang ktinggin...tp dlu kan mse skolah renndah sy lg tggi drp die..he3 currently she strive 4 her IB in kmb(tmpt jin tendang..)...utk mak cik tyah..happy belated bday...i owe u ur bdy present...6t ye sy kasi, sy sgt gmbira sbb brt sy dh nk same ngn awk..(did i told ya i lost 10kg??ha3...soho nye) smoga awk tabah n kuat 6t kite same2 g travel europe k..xpe sy blanje...haha (sy kn the most kind lady in the world)..

fourth..cik PUTRI EDZLINA BT ENDUT & EMIRA AKMAL JAMALUDDIN
each on 09 aug & 19 sept 1991..
haha aku suke nk combine kn space korang berdua...suke sgt gadoh he4...kwn ngn mira since standrd 3 n pu3 mse stndrd 6...mereka 2org ni study kat matrik gambang gak...sorang amik bio sorang amik fizik...okay....aku nk ucapkan happy belated bday gak ngn koranag...aku syg korang n persahabatn y dh kita bina slama ni...keep in touch n jgn pnh lupe aku...u all can do it n nr give up dear....

5th...incik SYED NORASNAWI SYED AHMAD...25 july 1991..
ni gambr lame tau...syed yang skrg dh smakin hensem n kurus...k kitorang kwn since f1...and die ni giler rajin n kreatif...so syed happy belated bday!...currently he also completing f6 same as me...chaiyook syed...i know u can do it!!....and do rmmber i alwayz here to listen to ur prob cz im still the old raihan dat u know....b positive and stand on ur own foot..

last...cik NAJWA AWATIF ARSHAD...06 aug 1991
sometime,cg tertukar ngn kami berdua..huuhu2..cam adk bradik kot. kami kwn since drjh 5, and one i noticed about her...she alwayz say somthing tht could comfort me..thnx najwa...she also in f6 same school as me....slamat hari lahir najwa,smoga awk sntiasa diberkati n dirahmati Allah...n kite kwn smpi ble2 tau..

(p/s:k dh hbs kot...haha prsan x mkin bwh mkin cket.ho2 nk jimat space n dh mlm sgt la ni n im getting sleepy...pe2 pon love u all....may our fs remain 4evr...)

!!!!!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!

a lots of friendship love,
oh ALLAH please keep our friendship remain forever
never let it dissapear as u make the plastic remain for another thousand years...

our iftar...

2009-10-02T06:48:00.000-07:00

ok those picture was taken during our PPU's break fast..

syami,hafizuddin
left;zilalul,hafizat,along

wardah,dik piq n pian

wan,me and mai...bez mkn...

from left, zafirah,lea,najwa and im not sure who is bside her..
cni ade nini,nolie,arfah..xnmpk la spe sblh tu..hehe

from left aina;den;huda
ini adalah part of form 6 smc la..they r amazing and sempoi slalu...bez geng ngn korang...hu9, k there is nothing much to say...HAPPY EID MUBARRAK..strive for our stpm next year!...daa..

(p/s:at the time..aku rindu gak geng2 lame y len, slamat hari raya buat korang jugak...wherever u r, do rmmber our friendship...)

salam AIDILFITRI...

2009-10-02T00:56:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum...
(entry kali ni xde gambr cz gmbr raye sempt amik drp kamera k.ya...dh ade 6t aku upload)
salam aidilfitri kpd semua...
actually kebzan melanda...seskali blh la update blog,nak update hari2 cam dlu really pyah sket la...bkn xleh tp ade perkara lain y mesti didahulukan lagi so its ok la...lagi pon blog ni xde la mati lagi pon...huhuu..
Ramadhan dah pergi tgl kan kita...kadang2 rase hiba, ramadhan thn ni x begitu terisi dengan cinta kpd-NYA dan terganti pula dengan perkara2 lagha,astaghfirullah...entah kan dapat lagi aku temui ramadhanMU ya ALLAH....tiada siapa yang tahu esok lusa kita dipanggil menghadapNYA dlm keadaan diri yang entah ciap entah tdk...umpama baju tak berjahit...malu sungguh aku pada diriMU ya Allah...
Aku hari ini masih aku yang dulu, mungkin keadaan sedikit sebnyak merubah diri ku...ohh raihan, people do change...cuma sama ada ke arah kebaikan atau keburukan itulah yang manjadi persoalan nya...
Sehingga kini aku tak pasti dengan diri aku lagi...raihan seorang yang baik???...u'r absolutely wrong when u say that...raihan yang dianggap baik masih tercalit kejahatan pada dirinya...raihan yang dianggap selalu mengambil brt akan org lain msh punya kesellfishan(soory cegu bm ku...) nya... raihan yang dianggap rjin msh juga ada malasnya...raihan yang xdianggap sombong msh jg ada riaknya,raihan yang dianggap bijak msh terlalu bodoh lagi jahil dgn ilmuMu,Raihan yg dianggap cth masih ggl tnjukkan cth y sempurna,raihan yang dianggap penyayang masih ada kejamnya ..ooohhh tuhan, begitu halus panahan iblis Mu..
Tapi...seburuk mana pun aku,aku akan cuba menjadi y terbaik sebaik mana yang mampu aku gapai. Aku tak menjanjikan y aku mampu menjadi baik namun aku berjanji utk berusaha ke arah itu...
Di kesempatan ini aku mahu memohon ampun dan maaf zahir dan batin, menyusun sepuluh jari dr hujung rambut ke hujung kaki...ahhh terlampau banyak dosaku umpama buih di lautan..
maaf yang tak terhingga sekali diucapkan kpd mak dan abah,maaf anakmu ini msh lagi gagal memenuhi impian mu...
maaf juga buat keluarga tersayang..abg,kak pih,kak nor,abg kml,abg amir,kak ya,kak ikin,kak limah,abg syed,ain,farhan,dik noor...maaf krana daku juga msh gagal menjadi seorng adik dan saudara yang sempurna..
Tak dilupakan seribu kemaafan diatur buat saudara2 ku yang lain...rehan mnx maaf ehh.. untuk peanut,zila,ja,angah,along,ewan,athirah etc..etc...weii aku tau aku xsalah tp aku mnx maaf gak la...haha.. esp peanut yang aku sayangi (oohh ni aku tipu j,wat sdp ayt) u owez b my best kuzie..
Buat sahabat2 dan ~~org tersayang~~ (oopss!!) rehan mnx maaf byk2 ats kekurangn diri ini, aku tau aku sgt lah xsempurna malah tak layak mungkin utk mnjadi teman terbaik kalian semua...utk beberapa org yang xdpt aku nk sebutkan name korang(case senctive kan...) aku mnx maaf atas segala apa yang dah jadi antara kita semua. Mmg aku xpnh mahu sme ni jadi...please 4give me for my wrongdoings,aku tau kdang2 aku terleka dgn keindahan dunia sampai lupe nk jage hati korang tapi satu je yang aku bagi tahu...seseungguhnya aku xdapt nak puaskan hati semua orang sedangkan hati aku sendiri terluka tiada siapa yang peduli..and i need to nurse my own wound..give me some space to fix it..frankly ake sangat sesali ats ape yang berlaku but please i beg u to understand me and my situation..

Last but not least...
maaf buat diriku sendiri...

(p/s: hari tu termimpikan kota metropolitan Australia...jauh btl aku pegi...dalm mimpi tu aku further study kat sane...hrp2 mimpi tu kan menjadi ala2 dejavu,siapa tahu suatu hari nanti kan ku jejaki kaki ke sana sbg palajar...yeahhh raihan study hard yet smart!!..u can do it...aku xnk kecewa lagi............)

HE testing me...

2009-09-11T08:11:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum...
wud dap..hola??..erkk..ok stop those crap!
duuhh..!! just thought to upload some pic with besties during our dinner last time and i connected the thumb drive to the lappy and u know what there is about 200 something viruses in it..damn!! for the sake of my thumb drive mahal..keh3! i allowed the avira to repaire them all and the results,all my files gone! wut daa...
hantu btl la..byk fail penting dlm tu..!!!..ok and i have to admit here that its all my school's pc fault! my presentation also gone and all the pictures..i mean those precious pictures..oohh my.........
mne nak carik blk ni...
penat je s .impan..cegu please la clean the pc ok!
really spoil the mood la haizzzz..

p/s:btw, went to shopping today and bought new sandals..love it!

hardworking plus lazy equal to hardlazy..??oops..

2009-09-09T08:17:00.000-07:00

the caffeine doesn't working yet....hurry up!! i need my insanity to keep me awake....
hu5 wutever...
ok the flow today was so-so lahh... not really sleepy and not really energetic..juz fine and u know what ive got some breathing problem,whenever i breath out i could felt the pain somewhere around the liver i guess and mom said i was caused by the angin in my body...yeah i think it could be a possible reasons cz recently i've got difficulties to belch..(adehh..terseksa jiwa raga denn..) but now its getting better i guess cz i always belching all the time..pheww!! goood progression..tp org tego..eyy ko xpose eyy???...haizz.. so narrow minded lahh seb baik it was juz a silently wind..hoho3..(xde bau petai k..)
oww yeaa...im not sure whether im facing with the health problem or i juz change into a health freak, cz i noticed that ive found so many problem regarding my healthiness and i started to skip my meal whenever i felt euuwww i look fatter than yesterday...thats horrible!.. i dont wanna be an anorexian..!! k enough...
with the happy face yet broken heart..(cesshhh cam putus cinte jee..haha) i accepted the request from my teacher to enter the public speaking...wut daa.hh.. owwhh, i though khusyairie will be selected cz to be frank the titlle given was not attracted me much!...i dont really like to talk about the corruption cz i do not hv enough information about that as i dont like to read those thingy. I dont know y, whenever i read the newspaper i hate reading about the corruption so muchh.. i never got my eye sticked on that kind of issue..huh! shame on me..okayy..next is...
the picture of today....lets find something interesting in my picture folder...the rule is, pick the fourth picture from the bottom..make sure its not the pic from the internet..

ok this was the last year's picture snapped by yo i guess..no teacher during this period and they was bz answering the sejarah question..from the right:najwa,fidah,mira,tna...im not in the picture but if u can c, there is a lengan beside najwa..thats my lengan lahh..haha..really miss this moment..

p/s:ok raihan start doing ur homework!..

how many rotation that ive done???

2009-09-08T07:50:00.000-07:00

This is what will be happened to me if i study while the lappy on with the internet... once i post an entry ill be addicted..cant stop!..i dont know y... and i still not finish read the hikayah ahmad muhammad yet!..(wut daa...) k... recently we had a mini pantun competition between sastera claz and i acted as a jurupantun..(cari helah ni aku mls nk berpantun..) and we snapped some pictures which is looked ehhh...nape...lain btol aku... hoho2.. well i dont know am i looked really lain or i it juz my fantasy...but i swear i looked different in f6 school's uniform...

sometimes, idk y i wore the tudong that way...really diffrnt from my f5 last year..this is how i look a like last year...

well maybe bcz of my spectacles...it juz help to shape my tudong..diffrent spec make me look diff while wearing the tudong..but my tudong thiz year were not really mesra with me la..i always facing with difficulties every morning to handle it..(haha...still want to blame the tudong..)

next...

this pic was taken after the final stage of that mini competition..with out sastra teacher

i think i juz had a conversation to mai only, but it seems like everyone was looked at me..and idk y...ase nye slow je ckp..huhu..weirdoo
p/s: love them..love my studies...raihan, work hard ok!!

pink u pink me..ntah pe2

2009-09-08T07:14:00.000-07:00

happy dayyyyyy..... well today just another one fine day,

but damn sleepy during the claz..haha..
and today i got lots of assignment to be finish b4 tomorrow..
need to read and try to understand the hikayat ahmad muhammad and do the presentation about what I've understood about that hikayat and present it to the claz argghhh!!..i can do it!!..
thinking of not sleeping tonite..(sometimes i become a bit insane..) and do averything while others sleep. But for sure ill be not in the good mood tomorrow..ok maybe ill sleep but a bit late cz i juz drank some hot nescafe..(yumm..yumm..)...
and yes someone did gave something precious to me today...and im hell love it and happy!!..(weeee~~~ ade gak org yg ingt aku...huhu)...well eventhough xde la mhl sgt but yet, i appreciate it as if it is a diamond..

here u are....thnx my dear!!..(ho7!!)comel!...cam tau2 j aku dh smkn mnt ngan pink...

p/s:cik tyah....jgn jelez k....

yay nas dh 18 blh g tgk wayang nihh...

2009-09-07T14:51:00.000-07:00

tues day!!...8 sept 2009,18 ramadhan 1930 Hijrah....
alhamdulillah hidop lagi den...
so today i would like to dedicate this entry to my very best friend.... Mohd Nasrullah b. Jusoh, its ur birthday dude!...ok lets find some picture of urs in my folder.....

ok found it

well, this mr nasrullah or his glamorous name, mr nash is my best friend and we hv befriend since i was in primary school in sk pusat (bukan pusat tahanan k,rekod sy bersih) we are really can be along together in any kind of situation esp during the add math test..(har3!! thnx dear 4 ur ans..) and we are the gossipping-mate actually..(well die nie la ske sgt ajk aku gosip2, aku layan je...) currently he is completing his diplome at uitm petak in fashion designer (waahhh bangge aku!) and we are rarely to meet nowadays...(waaahh rinduu duit eh diri kamu).. so i wish he will be the successfull person as he want it to be, found someone special and marry her and having the kids, be my designer on my wedding day(muahahaaa...) and be my bussiness partner ok mr nash??...hoho..ok best of luck dude....slamat berpose n slamat hari raya!!

p/s:cik tyah,cik pu3 and mr syed msti marah pnye ni cz aku xdedicate pon dlm blog diorang mse bdy diorang bln lps...huhu...my dearssss...soryy i was bz la...ill promise to write a special entries to all of u...k??..

till then...daaaaa